System Speak: Complex Trauma and Dissociative Disorders
Episodes
Glow Worms and Tree Houses
26 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Nathan shares about his depression, and his acceptance of that as a chronic illness.Ā We share about the feeling like creating someone new inside for...
Teamwork
25 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
JohnMark talks about the internal impact of external support.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able...
MPD Book
24 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share an update of transitioning therapists to our family therapist, and also about an MPD book we found while traveling for work.The website is HE...
The Last Notebook
23 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Giving an update from our strange AirBnB while on deployment, we also grieve losing our therapist.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE....
Sleeping Jesus
16 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We wrestle with a metaphor from therapy.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until jo...
Guest: Richard Chefetz, MD
09 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We welcome Dr. Richard Chefetz to the podcast!Ā He shares his perspective of the dissociative processes, and how they relate to associative processes...
Guest: Cathy Kezelman, MD (Blue Knot Foundation)
17 Nov 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We welcome Dr. Cathy Kezelman, President of Australiaās Blue Knot Foundation National Centre of Excellence for Complex Trauma.Ā She shares about th...
Unshame
11 Nov 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk about the book "Unshame".The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining g...
Global Trauma
01 Nov 2019
Contributed by Lukas
While on deployment, we talk about trauma around the world - and that now time is not always safe.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE....
Facing the Fire
28 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share about the "facing the fire" at a women's retreat, as well as deployment updates.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Rememb...
Organized Abuse
21 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha explains terms about organized abuse, and also educates about self-care.Ā The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that ...
Emails
17 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We read and respond to listener emails.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joi...
Emails
14 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We read and respond to listener emails.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joi...
Now Time Is Mine (Rose)
10 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk about how hard therapy is, and try to define what "safe" means.Ā We explore "now time is mine".The website is HERE.You can join the Community...
Guest: Neil Brick
07 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We interview Neil Brick about organized abuse.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much un...
Triggers
03 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share about a workbook chapter and homework about avoidance, triggers, flashbacks, and memory time.The website is HERE.You can join the Community H...
Emails
30 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We read and respond to listener emails.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joi...
The Duck Pond
26 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma reflects after therapy was so hard that we ran out of our session (which was about getting to know others inside). Ā The website is HERE.You can ...
Emails
23 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We open mail and we read and respond to listener emails.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to s...
Guest: Sarah Clark - The Plural Association
19 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk with the Plural Association System about the ableist aspect of Structural Dissociation.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā ...
Structural Dissociation
16 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share what we are learning about structural dissociation.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able ...
The Beginning of Grief
09 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha processes what happened with JohnMark's "Nachos" episode, including recognizing grief both in now time (with therapist and friends), and in memo...
Nachos
05 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
JohnMark grieves, talking about leaving therapy and missing friends.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not ...
Guest: Kathy Steele
02 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We interview Kathy Steele.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups.Ā ...
Guest: Christine Forner (ISSTD)
29 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E speaks with Christine Forner, the current president of the ISSTD.Ā Christine shares her own trauma journey to healing, and opens up about what ...
Emails
26 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We read and reply to listener emails.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joini...
Guest: Rachel Lewis-Marlow
21 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Rachel Lewis-Marlow is a somatically integrative psychotherapist and shares with us about the importance of connecting to our bodies.Ā She explains a...
Emma Lets the Walls Down
15 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma reflects on therapy, learning to sense triggers for memory time and for switching, and learns about the concept of integration.The website is HER...
Bethany Brand & Kim
12 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share a partial interview of Bethany Brand, of which the remaining interview was lost due to technology interview and she was unable to reschedule ...
Guest: Dr. Dan Siegel
08 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E interviews Dr. Dan Siegel of the Mindsight Institute, who defines dissociation by defining integration by defining differentiation.Ā He explain...
Wall of Terror
05 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share the processing we have done following the Mother Hunger episode and the interview with Dr. Siegel.Ā We share how understanding what Dissocia...
Guest: Kelly McDaniel (Mother Hunger)
31 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We speak with Kelly McDaniel, who coined the term Mother Hunger.Ā She explains what this means, and how it is the earliest trauma and a disenfranchis...
Emails
25 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We read and respond to listener emails.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joi...
Attachment Theory
22 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E explains about attachment theory.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joi...
Cycle of Anxiety
18 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma talks about the Cycle of Anxiety, panic, avoidance, and dissociation.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you wil...
Guest: Dr. Roger Solomon (EMDR Institute)
15 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Prior to airing this episode, we explain some issues and terminology related to the interview.Ā Dr. Roger Solomon shares with us about the loss of Fr...
Emma Shows Up
11 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma uses one of Nathanās musicals to find words for inner strength after recognizing she got herself out of danger in Africa, and that she isnāt ...
Chosen Family
08 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma talks about chosen family and self-care, including staying present to set boundaries in parenting.The website is HERE.You can join the Community ...
Emails
04 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We read and respond to listener emails after our Africa trip.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able...
Door of Return
01 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk with Mary and Nathan about what happened in Africa.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able t...
Guest: Susan Pease Banitt (Attachment and Ritual Abuse)
27 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E interviews special guest Susan Pease Banitt, LCSW, author of āThe Trauma Toolkitā (for survivors) and āWisdom, Attachment, and Love in Tra...
Guest: Adaption System
24 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk with the Adaption System.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining g...
Emma Accepts Her Diagnosis
12 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma talks about therapy progress: internal communication, getting grounded, memory time, triggers, and accepting diagnosis.The website is HERE.You ca...
Living in a Body
10 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha talks about Mother's Day and Father's Day, and how important it is to care for the body when struggling.The website is HERE.You can join the Com...
Sehr Gut
06 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha reads and responds to listener emails.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much unti...
Emma Hurts
03 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma talks about being afraid she is not strong enough.Ā It's two months after the avoidance episodes and she is struggling with how real the pain is...
Guest: Dr. Barach on Regression, Treatment, and ACEs
28 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We invite Dr. Peter Barach to speak with us again about a readerās question regarding regression in treatment, which he explains as dissociative res...
Guest: Pat Ogden, PhD (Sensorimotor Psychotherapy)
21 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Pat Ogden, PhD, is our guest to explain sensorimotor psychotherapy.Ā She tells her story of learning about trauma work, and the recognition of the bo...
Emma Tries
20 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma reflects post-girls-weekend, including about getting to know others inside.Ā She talks about relationships internally, and trying to participate...
Emma Pays Attention
18 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma talks about trying to spend a weekend with friends, and learning how to make mistakes and recover from them.Ā Emma reflects on others inside and...
Guest: Infinite System
16 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk to the Infinite System.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining gro...
Guest: Labyrinth System
13 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk to the Labyrinth System.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining gr...
Emmaās Top Ten
11 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma opens up about the ways Motherās Day has been difficult in the past (trigger warning for references to miscarriages, deceased parents, infertil...
Guest: Robert Cox
02 May 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We speak with local clinician Robert Cox.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until j...
Emma Goes to Therapy
29 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma reflects on therapy.Ā She talks about learning to accept the others.Ā She talks about the overlap of memory time and now time.Ā She shares an ...
Guest: Peter Barach - All About Attachment
28 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We speak again with Dr. Peter Barach, who teaches us all about attachment.Ā He tells the story of being in class with Mary Ainsworth, and explains Bo...
Emma Misses Therapy
25 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma talks about being busy to avoid therapy.Ā She shares about only feeling safe with her family, and not having support outside the family.Ā She s...
Guest: Robert Oxnam
24 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
After trying for months to connect, Dr. E finally gets to talk with Robert Oxnam, who wrote the book āA Fractured Mindā.Ā He opens the interview ...
Emma Does Group Homework
22 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma does a chapter of therapy homework about avoidance and dissociation.Ā She discusses the impact of avoidance on daily living.Ā She learns about ...
Sasha Reflects: Internal and External
18 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha talking about the Steele workbook and mentalizing and reflection. Also talks about containing memory time flashbacks until therapy. Also talks a...
Donkey Kicks
15 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
JohnMark talks about being at the park and taking care of those girls after hard weeks of therapy. Talks about getting away from memory time, and not ...
Taylor Recognizes Re-Enactment
11 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Taylor talks about the therapy group making things harder because Emma knows more. She also shares information from the group about avoidance. Talks a...
Emma Avoids & Loses Time
08 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Starts with running water sounds. Emma shares about a trip to the cabin before their child has surgery.Ā Mentions the family cabin, the mother's grav...
Trusting our Therapist, Trusting the Process
04 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share therapy updates and how we know we are making progress.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be a...
Guest: Justin from the Polyvagal Podcast
01 Apr 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We speak with Justin from the Polyvagal Podcast.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much ...
Emma Gets Grounded
30 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma talks about homework about grounding. She talks about triggers and now time versus memory time. She references a time after therapy when she smel...
The Attic
29 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
JohnMark talks about therapy with him and Sarah. He talks about feeling the little girls fear when he gets close to them. Talks about there being reas...
Guest: Peter Barach, PhD
27 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E interviews Peter Barach, PhD, past president of ISSTD.Ā Dr. Barach is the one who linked disordered attachment to DID, and he also was on the c...
Guest: DissociaDID
18 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We interview YouTube Content Creator DissociaDID.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much...
Maladaptive
16 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We share what we are learning about each other and dissociation.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be a...
Emma Stays
14 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma learns to stay.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups.Ā Mess...
Guest: Lynne Harris
11 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We speak with Lynne Harris.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups....
Meghan's Rainbow
09 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk with our friend Meghan, whom we met in person at Healing Together.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you wil...
Dr. E Recaps Kathy Steele
07 Mar 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E recaps seeing Kathy Steele at a conference.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much...
Sasha Crashes a Conference
28 Feb 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha recaps her version of a conference.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until j...
Sasha Tries Friendship
25 Feb 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha tries to make friends.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups...
JohnMark Plays DJ
21 Feb 2019
Contributed by Lukas
JohnMark reflects and also plays DJ.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joinin...
Guest: Jane, from Many Sides of Jane
18 Feb 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We interview Jane from A&E's Many Sides of Jane.Ā The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see...
Sasha Goes to Therapy
11 Feb 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha and The Husband talk about therapy.Ā The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until...
Guest: Susan Pease Banitt, LCSW
28 Jan 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E interviews special guest Susan Pease Banitt, LCSW, author of āThe Trauma Toolkitā (for survivors) and āWisdom, Attachment, and Love in Tra...
AIM Survey
26 Jan 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Emma shares about answering a survey before the healing together conference. Mentions learning that eyes might be a trigger. She processes her experie...
Guest: Jeff Clark and the Patchwork Quilt
25 Jan 2019
Contributed by Lukas
We talk with Jeff Clark, author of "The Patchwork Quilt", which explains DID to inside and outside Littles.Ā The website is HERE.You can join the Comm...
Hotel Night
26 Nov 2018
Contributed by Lukas
John(Mark) is in the hotel after therapy because of snow. Talks about Taylor going to therapy and gives the circle notebook to the therapist. John and...
Guest: Warwick Middleton
29 Oct 2018
Contributed by Lukas
We interview Warwick Middleton from Australia about dissociation, and he discusses organized abuse.Ā The website is HERE.You can join the Community HE...
Unboxing Ourselves
27 Aug 2018
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha reads through the Circle Notebook.Ā The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until ...
Sasha Learns the Lingo
16 Jul 2018
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha shares what she has learned from group led by The Crisses, including language about ANPs and EPs.The website is HERE.You can join the Community ...
Littles, Ages, and Development
08 Jan 2018
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha shares what she knows about Littles.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until ...
Age and Development
27 Nov 2017
Contributed by Lukas
Dr. E shares about age and development in response to a listener question.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you wil...
The Three Emmas
24 Jul 2017
Contributed by Lukas
We explain about different āhostsā and tell the story of the Three Emmas:Ā Emma Z dealt with what happened to us in shiny-happy-college, Emma T d...
Sasha's World
27 Mar 2017
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha references Healing Together, and walks while she talks about internal worlds.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember tha...
Guest: Matt Pappas
30 Jan 2017
Contributed by Lukas
We interview Matt Pappas.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups.Ā ...
Taylor's Trip
19 Dec 2016
Contributed by Lukas
Taylor talks about protectors watching therapy, trying to watch out for what is happening in therapy, trying to trust in therapy, and boundaries.The w...
Leaves
29 Feb 2016
Contributed by Lukas
JohnMark crunches through the leaves, talks about needs in therapy, and announces Snack Time.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Re...
Emma's Panic
10 Jan 2016
Contributed by Lukas
Emma describes losing time, waking up in a closet, and also having a panic attack that causes her to miss a medical delivery.The website is HERE.You c...
Guest: Dissociation and Psychosis
28 Dec 2015
Contributed by Lukas
We talk about a Mad in America article that discusses dissociation and psychosis.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that ...
Guest: Colin Ross
13 Jul 2015
Contributed by Lukas
We interview Colin Ross.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups.Ā ...
Meet the Husband
16 Feb 2015
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha interviews Nathan, and they discuss the experience of living with DID and someone who has it.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE...
Emma Reflects
17 Feb 2014
Contributed by Lukas
Emma shares about therapy, learning about trauma and dissociation, and noticing the others inside.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE....
Oh Deer!
10 Feb 2014
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha drives to therapy and shares about disorientation.The website is HERE.You can join the Community HERE.Ā Remember that you will not be able to s...
Sasha Wrestles with Kindness
03 Feb 2014
Contributed by Lukas
Sasha talks about sharing the podcast with Nathan, therapy, and how hard it is to have friends and receive care.The website is HERE.You can join the C...