The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD
Episodes
Ep83 - How do I remain myself after my world cumbles?
28 Jan 2021
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about something most of us go through when they start uncovering the trauma - and what it is connected with. The truth we...
Ep82 - Why do people believe lies despite evidence?
17 Jan 2021
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about why people believe liesespite evidence clearly in front of them. Be it conspiracies, groups, people that defy reali...
Ep81 - Why PTSD as a spectrum is a big problem
06 Jan 2021
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about the big problem that is having made PTSD a spectrum - which it became as more and more illnesses were put under tha...
Ep80 - You are not alone (between the years inter-mid)
29 Dec 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Hello my dears! First I just wanted to say I hope you had a wonderful holiday season - independent from the form or shape you choose to celebrate it....
Ep79 - How can I be more empathic with myself?
20 Dec 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about being empathic is oneself. This is harder than many people believe and most don't even know where to start. We talk...
Ep78 - Why does it feel like I am faking it?
10 Dec 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about a feeling many have - the feeling of faking the whole ordeal and where It comes from. (Not the imposter syndrome)Ev...
Ep77 - Why is it so hard at the beginning?
01 Dec 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this short episode we get into why the beginning is so hard - be it taking the first step or the uphill battle - and how we go from here.Transcript...
Ep76 - Was I tortured?
22 Nov 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about torture - which doesn't just affects people in prison of unjust regimes. In this instance we talk about what...
Ep75 - Are you healed yet?
15 Nov 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about a question “Are you healed yet?” - or the many variations of it.This of course leads often to us asking “Why ...
Ep74 - Raised to be a victim
06 Nov 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we tak about being raised to be a victim - it doesn’t really matter if it is intentional or not. (Not grooming)Many people wonder wh...
Ep73 - Episode skip - Health reasons
30 Oct 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Hello my dears,I REALLY tried to avoid this, but there is no way around this sadly.I am sorry, I should have recorded it earlier - but as mentioned I ...
Ep72 - Why can’t I change my emotions with logic?
23 Oct 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about a topic I keep running into - especially with men: Why can’t I change my emotions with logic?Despite logic being a use...
Ep71 - 2 potential big problems with support groups
15 Oct 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about 2 big problems with support groups: Reaffirming victim hood and hidden agendas. They can lead to your support group bein...
Ep70 - Why am I getting so much backlash?
09 Oct 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about the backlash we receive from our Surrounding / Social circle and society while we are on our healing path. This has a lo...
Ep69 - What kind of life is worth living?
30 Sep 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about what kind of life is worth living, as this question usually comes up during the PTSD period.We are comparing the argumen...
Ep68 - Episode skip dog (II)
23 Sep 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Hello my dears,I really, really had hoped I could avoid it this time. I even postponed the episode by a day in hope of this - but it is just too much....
Ep67 - Subconsciousness - the key to everything
15 Sep 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about something very crucial: The subconsciousness. Why is it so important? Why is communication with it so hard?We will ...
Ep66 - Got my Diagnosis - Now what? (First steps)
08 Sep 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about something quite overdue: What do I do after I got my diagnosis? What am I supposed to do now? There isn’t really ...
Ep65 - Can I pause life for a bit?
01 Sep 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about just wanting a break from life - you know a pause button.This doesn't just applies for PTSD. Sometimes in life...
Ep64 - Episode skip - Loss of family member
25 Aug 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Hello my dears.This year has truly proven to be a challenge on multiple levels.I received recently the news of the loss of the last outer family membe...
Ep63 - Forgiving isn't necessary
18 Aug 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about Forgiveness and why it isn't necessary. Often we hear "you need to forgive to heal" which is not accurate...
Ep62 - PTSD breakout
11 Aug 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we clarify what it means to have PTSD, what happens at the breakout, when it happens and why it happens usually. After that we get int...
Ep61 - I just can't talk really to anyone
04 Aug 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about something most likely all too familiar for most of you. The feeling of not being able to talk with anyone truly. Be...
Ep60 - The phases of recovery wave (trigger, trauma, etc)
28 Jul 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about opposite of the healing wave - the recovery wave.This happens if you get triggered, hurt, traumatized or anything the li...
Ep59 - The phases of the healing wave
21 Jul 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about the phases of the healing waves and when it doesn’t really apply. The healing wave is the up and down that mark o...
Ep58 - Everything is too much (Overwhelmed)
14 Jul 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode we talk about being overwhelmed, when everything is just too much and you can't really do anything. Not just limited on PTSD, but...
Ep57 - Will this nightmare ever end?
07 Jul 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about the question many don't dare to ask out loud: Will this nightmare ever end? And the hopelessness associated with it...
Ep56 - Living with your decision (Guilt)
30 Jun 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about living with your decision and a bit about the guilt that is sometimes associated with it.We talk about the impact o...
Ep55 - Episode skip - My dog will be put down
23 Jun 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Just a very short explanation of why there is no real episode this week.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60 Contact: contactme@johan...
Ep54 - Why do I feel worse, when I am getting better?
16 Jun 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about why you feel sometimes worse, when you are getting better.It is counter intuitive that you feel worse, when you are gett...
Ep53 - Change - Difficult and Necessary
09 Jun 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about change, why it is necessary and why it is so hard.Not just something we face when healing from PTSD, but also in life in...
Ep52 - Ring and Ball Trauma (Trauma Update)
02 Jun 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we revisit the topic trauma again to update it. This time we go intot he shapes of the Ring and Ball Trauma. Unlike the Sleeper Trauma...
Ep51 - Sleeper Trauma (Trauma Update)
26 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we revisit the topic trauma to update it. We talk about what kind of shapes the trauma can take. This time we talk about the most snea...
Ep50 - The up and downs of healing
19 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about the up and downs of healing. What they are, why sometimes going down means you are healing. As this is one of the more c...
Ep49 - Therapeutic Abuse - 5 No-go Practices
12 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode we talk about therapeutic abuse, about 5 No-go practices to be precise. The 5 practices I will go into in a bit go from being wrong to...
Ep48 - Injustice - Dealing with the emotions
05 May 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about Injustice and dealing with the emotions - which we talked about last week. Not just with the sadness and the anger ...
Ep47 - Injustice - A (very) good reason to be angry... or sad
28 Apr 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about Injustice. More specifically about the feelings that are caused by Injustice. Especially for people suffering from a Tra...
Ep46 - A few seconds away from death ("Suicide")
21 Apr 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about a rather somber topic: The sudden need to kill yourself that a Person suffering from severe (C)PTSD might encounter.This...
Ep45 - Helplessness - The cause for Depression
14 Apr 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this weeks episode we talk about the cause of Depression: Helplessness.We talk about the cause of Depression and how it can help us with Depression...
Ep44 - Fight or Flight or Freeze – The mechanism of triggers
07 Apr 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we get into the mechanism of triggers. Fight or Flight or Freeze.We talk about how tiggers work and how they are caused.Transcript: ...
Ep43 - Coronavirus skipping Episode (II)
31 Mar 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Hello my dears,sadly the Corona Virus returned. I had no control over the factors causing itI should be fine next week, but I was in no position to re...
Ep42 - My Corona COVID-19 Story
24 Mar 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about how I experience my Corona. Since there a lot of questions going around and people are scared and confused, I thought i...
Ep41 - Coronavirus skipping Episode
17 Mar 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Hello my dears,sadly I am sick and have the Corona Virus.I should be fine soon, but to be sure, I skipped recording this weeks episode.I hope I am bac...
Ep40 - Am I still me?
10 Mar 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Am I still me? A question many ask who are hit with great challenges in their lives. During that time a lot of change happens and sometimes people won...
Ep39 - (Dealing with) The monster inside of you
03 Mar 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Are you sometimes feeling there is something dark inside of you? Somethings that makes you uncomfortable? Or sometimes you react in a situation that i...
Ep38 - The void within you
25 Feb 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Do you feel sometimes empty inside? Or do you have regularly pain in your chest? Which kind of feels like a constant heart break?Is the emptiness insi...
Ep37- Denial - It DID happen right?!
18 Feb 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Do you ever wonder if it really happened? Like... you know it happened, but was it really that bad? Like, really?There is often denial and a form of u...
Ep36 - Silence (II) - Don't say a word
11 Feb 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about silence, this time the one that is forced upon the victim from the abuser.We go over how the silence is used and how it ...
Ep35 - Silence (I) - Break the Silence/Taboo
04 Feb 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about silence. THE silence. The silence that you need to break usually, when you try to talk abotu your trauma/PTSD/etc.W...
Ep34 - Could I have a trauma?
28 Jan 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Many are unsure if what they went through is really a trauma. Especially if it didn't was this one big time event. There are obvious traumas, the...
Ep33 - Could I have Depression?
21 Jan 2020
Contributed by Lukas
Do you just feel... low battery? Like you have barely enough energy to do everyday things? Everything seems to be just different shades of grey?With a...
Ep32 - Why breaks are important
14 Jan 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about why breaks are important, though not only for PTSD. We first talk a bit why breaks are generally a good thing, then we t...
Ep31 - Rewrite your brain (change yourself)
07 Jan 2020
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we learn to rewrite our brains or how to change yourself or how to change your habits or the like.As one can imagine, this is useful b...
Ep30 - How to plan the healing process
31 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we learn how to plan the healing procress by making multiple steps plan, which is very helpful. We also talk about what those steps re...
Ep29 - A light in the darkness (Be your own support)
24 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about how to find the light in the darkness. The light within you. Or in other words: How to become your own cheerleader or su...
Ep28 - Manipulation: Am I wrong or are they? (III)
17 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about the age old question: Am I wrong or is everyone else?We first start with a simple experiment, that shows how strong the ...
Ep27 - Why does change happen so slowly?
10 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about the frustrating feeling of how slowly the change and healing process is. First we talk about a better prespective regar...
Ep26 - Could I have (C)PTSD?
03 Dec 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about the question that often starts the journey: Could I have (C)PTSD?I will start asking for the simple symptoms and then wo...
Ep25 - Manipulation - Guilt tripping - You have the right to say no (II)
26 Nov 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we once again talk about manipulation.This time we don't talk just about how you are expected to accept the blame but also do som...
Ep24 - I believe in you
19 Nov 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we will talk about why I believe in you. The reason why I did this podcast, because I believe in you and your ability to cure yourself...
Ep23 - Manipulation - Language - It is (NOT) your fault (I)
12 Nov 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about manipulation language. About how it is all your fault, to be more precise. Or at least that is what they want you to bel...
Ep22 - Hallucinations/Visions (II) - The harmful side
05 Nov 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about hallucinations or visions, this time we turn to the darker side. We first talk about how PTSD can escalate, how it then ...
Ep21- Hallucinations/Visions (I) - The useful side
29 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about hallucinations or visions. First we talk about what they are, how they appear and why. Then we talk about how we can use...
Ep20 - Shame (III) - Shame of your behavior and what happened to you
22 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about shame of your behavior, first as an overview and then in the form of the question "Why did I let this happen?"...
Ep19 - Shame (II) - Shame caused by the reactions of others
15 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about shame - in this episode spefically about the feeling of shame regarding the reactions of people. Explaning your situatio...
Ep18 - Shame (I)
08 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about shame - in this episode spefically about the shame about your current situation and the shame about telling anyone about...
Ep17 - Overcoming darkness and signs of healing
01 Oct 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode I go over what helped me get through the darkest times of my life, then about signs you are getting betters, then signs you are healed...
Ep16 - Why your brain NEEDS to understand trauma
24 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we deal with the most imporant part of the therapy - the understanding of the trauma. We go into more detail why it is so important, h...
Ep15 - PTSD therapy methods and abuse II
17 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we examine the last of the more common therapy methods, EMDR, the eye movement therapy (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing ...
Ep14 - PTSD therapy methods and abuse I
10 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we examine the first 3 of the more common therapy methods, we examine what they are, for which form of PTSD they are useful and their ...
Ep13 - Communicating PTSD with family, etc. II
03 Sep 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk once again about something many people struggle:About how to explain the illness itself, the healing process and some of its s...
Ep12 - Communicating PTSD with family, etc. I
27 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk once again about something many people struggle:About how to break to your family you have PTSD and how to respond to question...
Ep11 - How to deal with: Too many choices/lost in the dark/overwhelming
20 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
Today we talk about something, many people I help with struggle.They are lost, don't know where to turn to and are overwhelmed.So we are taking i...
Ep10 - The plan of my therapy (podcast)
13 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
This time I explain the plan or roadmap for my therapy/podcast.Since my therapy isn't as linear as I thought it to be, I realized it is about tim...
Ep09 - How to hunt down tiggers
06 Aug 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we learn how we can track down other trigger.There are several methods to do it and how they work.Basically part 3 of the removing tri...
Ep08 - How to remove Triggers II
30 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
This is the second part on how to remove triggers once and for all.Triggers are indeed completely removeable and doing so, greatly improves your life ...
Ep07 - How to remove Triggers I
23 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
This week we get into part 1 on how to remove triggers from your life.Triggers are indeed completely removeable and doing so, greatly improves your li...
Ep06 - Why triggers are helpful
16 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode I explain why we can use triggers to help us defeat PTSD.And how we get life quality back this way.Next week we get into the how.Trans...
Ep05 - (Daily) Counter Measures
09 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode I explain what you can do everyday to keep your PTSD as low as possible and give your brain the energy it needs to combat PTSD.It can ...
Ep04 - In case of an emergency
02 Jul 2019
Contributed by Lukas
This episode it about what to do in case you get a phase/episode/triggered/etc. and what helps reduce its symptoms.It is a basic 4 step plan what to i...
Ep03 - Trauma
25 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
This time we go into the heart of PTSD, which is the trauma. It's the root for everything. We get into the many factors that influence the extent...
Ep02 - PTSD and it's symptoms
18 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode we talk about PTSD, C-PTSD and PTS shortly. After that we dive into the 15 Symptoms that are most common to accompany PTSD. These are ...
Ep01 - Introduction
10 Jun 2019
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode I tell a short summary of my story and what lead me to making the podcast.TRIGGER WARNING: I might not go into details, but if you are...