The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
Episodes
S2#042 – The Secret That's Eating You Alive
02 Jun 2026
Contributed by Lukas
For two years after the affair, I told no one. Not my husband. Not the friends I’d call sisters, the ones who’d held me through my own heartbreak ...
S2#042 – How the pain of my affair led me to deeply connected love
26 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Why is a podcast about healing after betrayal is called The Deeper Love Podcast.In this episode, I'm answering that. At my core, I believe the det...
S2#041 – Why You Felt More Alive in the Affair Than You Have in Years (with Lauren Tobey)
19 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
You probably know what it feels like to live two lives at once.The one that everyone can see - where you're capable, together, achieving, holding ...
S2#040 – Why Punishing Yourself for the Affair Isn’t the Same as Taking Accountability
12 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
A lot of women think accountability means suffering.That if you punish yourself long enough… if you accept enough rage… if you hand over every det...
S2#039 – Why Women Cheat: One Woman's Story of Affair, Accountability and Starting Over with Hope Manzano
05 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
In this raw, deeply human conversation, Alex is joined by Hope Manzano: Mum, entrepreneur and content creator who shares publicly about her affair onl...
S2#38 - You Were the Good Girl… So Why Did You Cheat?
20 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
There’s a very specific type of woman who cheats.And it’s not who people think.It’s often the good girl. The high achiever. The strong one. The ...
S2#037 - The Real Reason You Cheated (And It Has Nothing To Do With Them)
13 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
After an affair, so much of the focus goes onto the relationship, the guilt, the affair partner or trying to understand exactly what went wrong.But in...
S2#036 – You Can Love Someone and Still Hurt Them | with Monica Tanner
07 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
In this powerful guest episode of the Deeper Love Podcast, Alex is joined by relationship coach Monica Tanner to explore one of the hardest truths in ...
S2#35 - You Don't Trust Yourself. And That's Why You're Stuck
30 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
After an affair, so many women become terrified of making the wrong decision.Not just the big decisions, like whether to stay or leave, whether to tel...
S2#34 - Why Understanding How You Got Here Hasn’t Helped You Heal
23 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
So many women come into this work already understanding a lot.They know their patterns. They can see what was missing in the marriage. They may even u...
S2#033 - Why You Still Feel Broken After the Affair
16 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Many women tell me the same thing after the affair ends:“I just want to feel like myself again.”And if you’re in the aftermath right now, it can...
S2#32: You’re Not Missing Them. You’re Missing Yourself.
09 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
There’s a real split I see with so many women post affair.You miss him, and you hate that you miss him.You know he cannot give you the life you ulti...
S2#31: Betrayal, Shame & The Nervous System (with Peter McLaughlin)
02 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
What if betrayal isn’t just a relationship issue, but a nervous system event?In this episode of The Deeper Love Podcast, I’m joined by hypnotherap...
Ep#30: The Affair Didn’t Make You Feel Alive - This Did
23 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Almost every woman I work with says the same thing: “In the affair, I felt alive.”What’s striking is that she rarely talks about the person. She...
Ep#29: Living With What I Did
16 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
After an affair, there is the rupture itself, and then there is what comes after.The part no one really talks about, the months or years of living ins...
Ep#28: You Did the Therapy, But You're Still Haunted. Why?
09 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
If you've ever found yourself thinking “I've done the therapy, I’ve read the books, I know why it happened… so why do I still feel so stuck?”,...
Ep#27 - Why Hating Yourself Won’t Heal You
02 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
In the aftermath of an affair, shame can become relentless.It tells you that if you punish yourself enough, make yourself disappear, hate yourself mor...
S2#026 - When Everything Feels Like It’s Falling Apart
26 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
There are seasons in life where everything feels heavy, grey and lifeless.Where it feels like nothing is going well, nothing is blooming, and nothing ...
S2#025 - Why You Keep Choosing People Who Can’t Choose You
19 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
You can see your patterns. You know your wound. You’ve read the books. You’ve talked, journaled, cried, processed.So why do you still find yoursel...
S2#024 - What if your affair was a soul’s cry for more?
12 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
When we talk about affairs, the conversation almost always fixates on the affair itself - the morality of it, the damage it causes, and the question o...
S2#023 – What an Affair Reveals About How You’ve Been Surviving in Love
06 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Most women in the aftermath of an affair are carrying a crushing story about themselves:I ruined everything.There must be something wrong with me.I’...
S2#022 – This Isn’t Rock Bottom. It’s a Turning Point.
30 Dec 2025
Contributed by Lukas
There’s often a moment after an affair when the noise dies down and the adrenaline fades, and instead of relief you’re left with something far mor...
S2#021 – Surviving Christmas After an Affair
23 Dec 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Christmas after an affair can feel unbearable.While the world expects joy, gratitude, and togetherness, you may be secretly surviving something that f...
S2#020 – Why You Can’t Heal Your Affair Alone: The Power of Women Who Truly Get It
16 Dec 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Most women in the aftermath of an affair try to heal alone.Not because they want to, but because shame tells them it’s too embarrassing to be seen.I...
S2#019 – Why Your Affair Felt So Intense but You Felt Numb Outside of It
09 Dec 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Most women in the aftermath of an affair are drowning in questions they are struggling to find answers for:“Why did it feel so intense?”“Why did...
S2#018 – When You Think You’ve Ruined Love Forever
02 Dec 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Most women believe their affair means they’ve destroyed their chance at love. But what if the moment everything fell apart was actually the moment y...
S2#017 – The Aftermath: What Helped, What Didn’t, and How I Survived the First Months
25 Nov 2025
Contributed by Lukas
You told the truth, or maybe the truth came out. Either way, you’re in the fallout now. The shame is heavy. The guilt feels constant. And there’s ...
S2#016 – Two Women. Two Affairs. And The Beginning of Their Becoming
18 Nov 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I sat down with women’s coach Diera Story, who, like me, had an affair that changed everything.We talk about what really sits benea...
S2#015 – How I Opened My Heart After an Affair and a Divorce
11 Nov 2025
Contributed by Lukas
I remember sitting in front of my therapist, six months after my marriage ended, tears running down my face - “What if no one ever loves me again?”...
S2#014 – I Used to Be Terrified Anyone Would Find Out. Now My Story’s in the Daily Mail
04 Nov 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Six and a half years ago, I was carrying a secret that felt absolutely terrifying to say out loud.I was so scared that anyone would find out about my ...
S2#013 – Losing Friendships After the Affair, and Finding Belonging Again
28 Oct 2025
Contributed by Lukas
When I cheated on my husband, I didn’t just lose him, I lost my friends too.For years, those friendships had felt like family. We spent birthdays, w...
S2#012 – Seven Years in Hiding: A Woman’s Journey from Shame to Truth
21 Oct 2025
Contributed by Lukas
This week I had the pleasure of meeting Kristina Joy - a devoted Christian wife and mother, until the secret she carried for seven years forced her to...
S2#011 – The Phoenix Rising: When the Affair Becomes Your Awakening
14 Oct 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Ep 11 — The Phoenix Rising: When the Affair Becomes Your AwakeningWe think the affair is the end.The end of love.The end of trust.The end of who we ...
S2#010 – You Can’t Heal What You’re Still Hiding From Yourself
07 Oct 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Ep 10 - You Can’t Heal What You’re Still Hiding From YourselfThere’s the version of you everyone sees.Smiling. Functioning. Saying you’re fine...
S2#009 – The Year of The Clusterf*ck and How I Finally Chose Myself
30 Sep 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Content note: This episode contains references to sexual assault, harassment, and STI. Please listen with care and take the space you need.I thought t...
S2#008 – Relationship Anxiety, The Cool Girl, and The Affair with Georgie Collinson
23 Sep 2025
Contributed by Lukas
You can love someone and still betray them. You can be strong, independent, the cool girl… and still find yourself in an affair.In this conversation...
S2#007 – Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral Failure
16 Sep 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Episode 7: Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral FailureThis one’s for the woman asking herself:“What is wrong with me?”“Why didn’t I just ...
S2#006 – The Part of You Who Cheated Was Trying to Survive
09 Sep 2025
Contributed by Lukas
You didn’t cheat because you’re a bad person.You cheated because something in you was trying to survive.Your chest tightens. Your stomach drops.Th...
S2#005 – Cheating Doesn’t Happen in a Vacuum
26 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
We’re taught to see cheating as a simple equation: one person betrays, the other is betrayed. End of story. But the truth is never that clean.In thi...
S2#004 - Why You Cheated Isn’t the Real Why
20 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Most women think they know why they cheated.“I wasn’t seen. I felt lonely. I felt unwanted. I was bored. He didn’t love me.”And while those st...
S2#003 - When You’ve Been Cheated On: Jessica’s Story of Love, Betrayal, and Healing
20 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
What does it really take to rebuild after betrayal?In this episode, I’m joined by fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes, who shares her...
S2#002 - The Coldplay Scandal, Betrayal, and What We’re Missing in the Conversation
19 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
When a betrayal hits the headlines, like the recent Coldplay cheating scandal, the internet rushes to judge.The memes, the moral high ground, the smug...
S2#001 – My Story: Why I Cheated on Someone I Loved
19 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
I never thought I’d be the kind of woman who cheated on her husband, and I’m guessing neither did you.In this episode, I share my story through th...
S1#005 | Escaping the Grip of Narcissistic Abuse with Nastassia Marie
20 Mar 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode:Alex Croxford sits down with Nastassia Marie, a trauma-informed educator and practitioner specializing in narcissistic abuse recovery....
S1#004 | Breaking Patterns & Building Trust with Cody Mathieson Packer
16 Oct 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode:Alex Croxford hosts Cody Mathieson Packer, a men’s transformation guide, to discuss the complex dynamics between men and women in re...
S1#002 | Reclaim Your Sexual Power and Transform Your Love Life with Amy White
25 Sep 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode:Alex Croxford welcomes Amy White, a somatic sexual healing coach and founder of Temple of the Feminine, to explore sacred sexuality, f...
S1#003 | Become The Partner You Want with Persia Lawson
25 Sep 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode:In this episode, Alex Croxford interviews Persia Lawson, a top UK dating and relationship coach, to explore the journey of inner heali...
S1#001 | My Story with Alex Croxford
01 Aug 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode:In the very first episode of The Deeper Love podcast, Alex Croxford takes you on a raw, emotional journey through her personal story o...