The Dozen with Liam Tuffs
The DARKEST Recovery Interview I’ve Ever Done: 23 Years An Addict
11 Jun 2026
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Chapter 1: What sparked Charlotte Seaman's journey into addiction?
I have got 77 convictions. First one when I was 12 for street robbery. When I was 13, I was sexually assaulted. It started off with weed, alcohol. Before I know it, I'm smoking crack at 13. I'm on heroin at 16. Prison. I snowballed for 13 years straight in my groin. I nearly lost my leg twice. I went to prison for malicious wounding. Stabbed someone in the head four times.
The place was shut down in Yen for abusing all the kids in there that didn't have families to tell. How am I going to tell my mum and dad that I'm hooked on heroin and I'm pregnant at 17 years old? The father of my daughters is a convicted murderer. It's dark, seedy, a lot of horrible, nasty things go on in that world, especially to women. A lot don't make it out alive. That's the reality of it.
People being stabbed. I've been stabbed twice. I've had samurai swords to my throat. When I woke up in hospital, my dad was there and the first thing I did was ask him for money.
How long was you on the game for? Charlotte, thanks for coming on. You've got a very dark, powerful story with a happy ending, I'm pleased to say, but we're going to have to go through the unhappy parts so the audience get an idea of the journey that you've been on and hopefully people can relate and take strength from your story, which I believe is why you're putting your story out there.
Mm-hmm.
So I want to get straight into it. You had a perfectly normal childhood, happy, parents were cool. If I've got that wrong, correct me. But from my research, from the age of 11, you entered into a world of hard drugs. So in your own words, in your own time, just paint that picture for me, how that took place.
Yeah, I went to secondary school and it just all went wrong from there, really. It started off with weed, alcohol. But it just sort of went bang, bang, bang, bang. Before I know it, I'm smoking crack at 13. I'm on heroin at 16. I'm injecting it at 19. Snowballs in my groin. Prison. First went to prison when I was 13 years old as well.
Was there somebody that introduced you to these Class A drugs? Because for someone so young to get straight into crack and brown and, say, snowballing into your groin, for people that don't know this, this is mixing white and brown together and then injecting it in there. So, again, that's like this is really heavy drug use and abuse. Was there someone steering you, encouraging you?
Yeah. I was kicked out of school, so I was hanging about with older people. And then I fell into a crowd of people that were... Say I was like 13, they were probably 19, 20. They were quite like naughty people. And yeah, so I was introduced to crack by them. But Heroin was the father of my daughters. That's who introduced me to Heroin.
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Chapter 2: How did Charlotte's childhood trauma influence her addiction?
It wasn't my dad's real dad. My dad's real dad died when my dad was two. But either way, he was still my granddad. But, yeah, I think it was just depression.
And is there – because addiction, they say, is hereditary in there. It may skip a generation.
Is there any – I mean, there has been drugs in my family. They're not like, you know – whiter than white.
I was going to use that phrase, but I'm glad you used it, not me.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I come from a loving home, but my dad is a... A wild card? Yeah.
Would he use drugs in front of you?
No, no. I knew that my dad, you know, did take drugs.
Did you know he was taking drugs when you was in the house? Could you smell weed, for example? Did you see his behaviour change?
I knew that there was stuff going on, yeah, when I was a kid, yeah. But I never looked at that as anything, you know, there was never any trauma there around that. My dad was, you know, been there for me for everything, my dad. I always meant to my dad for everything. So, yeah, I don't know. I wouldn't say that I looked at it as like, oh, my God, my dad's doing drugs.
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Chapter 3: What were the darkest moments of Charlotte's addiction?
How did you fund it?
I have got 77 convictions, all in all. First one when I was 12 for street robbery. Then I went to prison for malicious wounding, Section 20. Stabbed someone in the head four times, a man. So that's what I went to prison for when I was 13 years old.
What did he do for you to stab him four times?
Well, when I was 13, I was sexually assaulted. in a hotel room by someone else. It wasn't this man that I attacked, but I was angry. And then I was hanging about with another group of lads. But anyway, they were the same sort of age, another older lot. And this geezer was meant to be a wronger and a grass or something.
And yeah, I just, I picked up a mug, what you drink like tea with, and I smashed it over his head and I had the handle in my hand and I stabbed him in the head with that four times.
She had a lot of anger and a lot of violence in you. So would you think you're... Are you a naturally violent person by default and you control it now, but do you still have intrusive thoughts about doing violent things?
I mean, I wouldn't say I'm a violent person for no reason, but my dad's always told me to stick up for myself and...
you know violence is not the answer but you know sometimes people leave you no choice but yeah I wouldn't say that I'm violent in that world you have to be though I think to survive you know I was a girl on my own essentially with these group of people going from people to people to people you know you've got to have something about you haven't you
Yeah, it's survival of the fittest. And it really, it's in that world. Unless you've stepped foot in it, you haven't got any idea it's animal kingdom. And you're dealing with very nasty, volatile, unpredictable people. So you're always on high alert. I've been there.
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Chapter 4: How did Charlotte manage her addiction while being a mother?
And that was when I hit the floor, really, because I was so used to just getting that 20 quid in the morning. I wasn't clucking. I wasn't, you know, but I've become desperate.
Can we explore the prostitution side of things?
Yeah.
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Where I'm from is a really small town. I've never worked a beat because there isn't a beat where I'm from. It's not that big of a town. It's quite a small seaside town. And I fell into it, like I said, by sleeping with dealers. And then I would have sugar daddies. So it was normally older men that had money that were regulars. That was the route that I took. But, you know...
Even in the end, I ended up robbing them because I didn't want to fucking do it anyway. Do you know what I mean? I didn't want to do it. So I sort of burnt all my bridges in the end. And there has been times, yeah, where it's been 20 quid. Someone off the street walking around early hours in the morning. Obviously strange men about.
Would you approach them?
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Chapter 5: What led to Charlotte's decision to seek help for her addiction?
I would fucking terrorise my family. I'd go round to my family's house, demand money, want money, or make up all these stories, like saying it's going to happen to me.
Did you ever have a dealer say, I'm not selling you anymore, you're not in a good place?
Yeah, it's really weird you say that, actually. My brother found a text on his phone to say, I'm not serving you anymore tonight. like I was sitting around a house with the dealer he was sitting in at like a trap house and I was snowballing so much that I started to have like like a weird twitch like a body popping thing It looked like I was having some sort of seizure when I was having it.
Anyway, so I've had to go back. I think I was on tag at the time or something like that. I was at my mum and dad's. But because it was the next road, I kept going, coming back, going, coming back. Or one of them would come and drop it to me. Yeah, and he said, Charlotte, I'm not serving you anymore. Like, something's going to happen to you if I do.
I mean, because not all dealers are fucking arseholes, do you know what I mean? They're just stuck in that game as well.
And was there ever an occasion where you wanted to give up and you went clean for a stint and then someone posted a parcel through your letterbox to get you back on the hook? Because that's another thing that happens.
No, I didn't really have any clean time, if I'm honest with you, Liam, in all them years. Because if I wasn't having a snowball, I was drinking and smoking crack, or I was always doing something, I don't really think there was ever a time that I can say I was fully clean. That's a lie, actually. I did go to a Christian rehab once for three months. Yeah.
Yeah, but I convinced myself in there, or my head was telling me, because I was only allowed to see my kids once a month.
So you had children during your addiction?
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Chapter 6: How did Charlotte's experience in rehab change her life?
I can't remember having any like friends, friends like that.
And how old were you when you had a full psychological breakdown? Is that when you got sectioned?
28, yeah. So yeah, I would say a few years before that, That I had a little bit of paranoia. But yeah, in the end, it was just full-on psychosis, nuts, thinking people are tracking my phone, following me.
And how long were you in the ward for? A month. So a month. Yeah. Did that feel like prison or did it feel more like hospital?
Hospital.
Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah, yeah, it's different to prison. Yeah, again, I was off my face a lot of the time because I was only in there for a couple of weeks. And then I was allowed out to go to town and come back and go to town and come back.
So what were you doing?
Obviously, I was just buying gear, yeah. Yeah.
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Chapter 7: What challenges does Charlotte face in maintaining her sobriety?
Are you badly scarred down there through...
I've got tiny, tiny like little scars like that. You wouldn't really see them if you didn't, you wouldn't know.
So you've got quite lightly in that sense. Yeah. So before I ask you the turning point, how you got clean, because you was an addict for 23 years. And I know that I've asked some pretty intrusive questions and I've not held back. It's very purposeful because I've got drug addiction in my family. I know the devastation it causes.
And I think if this interview can save one person or stop one person from trying a crack pipe or smoking brown, then we have done God's work. So if you feel like I've gone in graphic, there's method in my madness, and if we can save a few people, then we've done a good job here today.
But before we go to the point and we start getting into the good stuff, the recovery, just summarise what those 23 years of addiction were like for you.
Fucking hell, really. Now, I just, it's a lot of pain and a lot of suffering because it starts off fun, but it very quickly becomes dark, especially when you've got children. You know, when I look back, I think I wasn't happy in my youth when I was 17, you know, because I'd had my daughter. So I wasn't happy in myself even then.
Was you ever diagnosed with any personality disorders before?
They said I had bipolar, psychotic behaviour, but a lot of it, I think, is to do with drugs. I'm not like that at all.
I mean, we do mad shit when we've got chemicals in our system, things that we would never do in our wildest fucking dreams, even things we think about. that we think are perfectly normal at the time when you're high as a kite. And in the cold light of day, you'd be like, fucking hell, what on earth was I thinking? So I know just how badly drugs add all the brain.
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Chapter 8: What message does Charlotte want to share with others struggling with addiction?
You know, I am happy. I'm at peace. I am content.
Because you know that level of addiction is self-harm. It must come from a place of self-loathing. Are there things now that you're clear-headed that you love about yourself, that you're proud of yourself for? Yeah. Things that you appreciate about yourself now?
Yeah. I'm just a smackhead, no good smackhead. I'm not a mother to my children. That's how I used to think. I'm a piece of shit. but I didn't understand what was wrong with me. And that's what I do. That is why I do what I do, because nobody in their right minds takes themselves to the gates of death or insanity, you know, and you're in that much pain, but you keep fucking doing it.
You know, you can't tell me that that's not an illness.
Do you know what I mean?
Or self-harm, mental health, whatever you want to call it. It's... It's real and it's killing people at the end of the day. Do you know what I mean? And for mothers out there, you know, I want them to know you're not a piece of shit. You're ill. You're sick. And that is how I let go of a lot of my guilt and shame. You know, I was sick.
Yeah, what is the one thing that you wish people understood about long-term addiction? Is it that it is an illness?
That it is an illness, yeah. A lot of people say, oh, I do it in the first place. You know...
Why do anything in the first place?
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