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S2 EP9: Adam's Story - Double Vision, And Soon I Was Paralyzed

03 Mar 2022

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Send us a textThis one is utterly amazing and simply terrifying all at once! Adam begins this story telling us of the total heartbreak he went through...

S2 EP8: Beth's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

24 Feb 2022

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Send us a textTRIGGER WARNING: Drug addiction and suicide.This is the after thoughts section for the previous podcast episode, Beth's Story. If y...

S2 EP8: Beth's Story - Telling My Young Son About The Suicide Of His Father

24 Feb 2022

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Send us a textTRIGGER WARNING: Drug addiction and suicide.Of all the episodes we have had so far on our Podcast journey, this may be one of the heavie...

S2 EP7: Alana's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

17 Feb 2022

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Send us a textThis is the BONUS section for the previous episode, Alana's Story. If you missed it, go have a listen and meet us back here after! ...

S2 EP7: Alana's Story - Escaping My Toxic Boss Nightmare Hell

17 Feb 2022

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Send us a textWow, this one is extraordinary. Thank you Alana for coming on and really just telling it how it is. This is for all of you listeners out...

S2 EP6: Cindy's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

10 Feb 2022

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Send us a textThis is the BONUS section, that relates to Cindy's Story. If you haven't heard that episode, you should go back and listen! Lu...

S2 EP6: Cindy's Story - Suddenly, The Police Came And Took Him Away

10 Feb 2022

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Send us a textCindy had left her long term marriage in search of true love, and had found the perfect man who finally made her new life complete..  o...

S2 EP5: Joey's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

03 Feb 2022

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle discuss Joey's story. That was the previous episode, and this is the after thoughts section, so listen to that first ...

S2 EP5: Joey's Story - Lyme Disease And Steroids At 12

03 Feb 2022

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Send us a textThis week, we are lucky enough to have Joey from the MindShape Podcast with us in a podcast crossover special! Luke will be guesting on ...

S2 EP4: Danni's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

27 Jan 2022

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Send us a textThis is the BONUS section that relates to the previous episode, Danni's Story. If you haven't listened to it, you should! Here...

S2 EP4: Danni's Story - Alcohol And Addiction From 11 Years Old

27 Jan 2022

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Send us a textThis week we focus on Addiction and Alcoholism, as we talk to Danni Ravden about how drink and drugs completely took her out. Danni disc...

S2 EP3: Mandy's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

20 Jan 2022

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Send us a textThis is the BONUS section that relates to the previous episode, Mandy's Story. Luke and Kyle discuss trauma, and how childhood trau...

S2 EP3: Mandy's Story - Childhood Abuse And Parental Suicide

20 Jan 2022

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Send us a textMandy lived with her Mother, and as boyfriends came and went, abuse became a normal part of Mandy's childhood. Then, at just 12 yea...

S2 EP2: Mays' Story - BONUS After Thoughts

13 Jan 2022

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Send us a textThis is the BONUS section that accompanies the previous episode. Luke and Kyle discuss Mays' story, about her amazing turnaround. L...

S2 EP2: Mays' Story - My Dream Job Nearly Killed Me (EXPERT EDITION)

13 Jan 2022

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Send us a textNEW to Season 2, we will focus some of our episodes on EXPERT advice to help you, our listeners, understand some of the tips and tools a...

S2 EP1: Paul's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

06 Jan 2022

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Send us a textThis is the BONUS section that accompanies the previous episode. Here we are! After an amazing first episode of Season 2, Paul's St...

S2 EP1: Paul's Story - Cerebral Palsy And Believing Our Self Worth

06 Jan 2022

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Send us a textWhat an episode to kick off Season 2! Paul was born with Cerebral Palsy, a condition caused by brain damage during his birth. As a baby ...

EP50.1 Allison's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

30 Dec 2021

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Send us a textHappy 50th After Thoughts Episode everyone! And welcome to the Season 1 Finale! Luke and Kyle discuss Allison's episode, and the to...

EP50: Allison's Story - Traveling The Quantum Realm

30 Dec 2021

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Send us a textWelcome to Episode 50 and Season 1 Finale! This week also bridges the new year, so what better topic to take us from one year into the n...

EP49.1: Dr Selvi's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

23 Dec 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle discuss the previous episode in which our guest, Selvi, opened up about the trauma caused by her struggles with severe Cro...

EP49: Dr Selvi's Story - Crohn's Disease Nearly Killed Me!

23 Dec 2021

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Send us a textSelvi remembers the devastation she felt decades ago, when she was given the diagnosis of Crohn’s Disease. What followed was a downwar...

EP48.1 Emma's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

16 Dec 2021

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Send us a textThis was a mind blowing episode. Luke and Kyle discuss Emma's story, from the bravery of the years of surgery and the eventual loss...

EP48: Emma's Story - Losing An Eye, And Finding The Truth

16 Dec 2021

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Send us a textCONTENT WARNING: Graphic descriptions of medical procedures. Emmanuelle was told that by age 16 she would be completely blind. Further d...

EP47.1 Paul's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

09 Dec 2021

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Send us a textTRIGGER / CONTENT WARNING: Discussion includes suicide attempts.When we discuss depression and suicide attempts on the show it really hi...

EP47: Paul's Story - Depression And 3 Suicide Attempts

09 Dec 2021

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Send us a textTRIGGER / CONTENT WARNING: Discussion includes suicide attempts.Paul was clinically depressed from a very early age. He wasn't diag...

EP46.1: Stephanie's Story BONUS After Thoughts

02 Dec 2021

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Send us a textTRIGGER WARNING: Bullying and Domestic Abuse, listener discretion advised.Luke and Kyle discuss the vulnerability of kids and how easily...

EP46: Stephanie's Story - Healing From The Trauma Of Being Bullied

02 Dec 2021

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Send us a textTRIGGER WARNING: Bullying and Domestic Abuse, listener discretion advised.At just 7 years old, Steph was dealing with her parents divorc...

EP45.1: Ben's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

25 Nov 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle get existential, as we recap the rollercoaster of the previous episode, Ben's Story. Having to deal with a child&apos...

EP45: Ben's Story - Traumatic Loss And Keeping The Faith

25 Nov 2021

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Send us a textSorry, this one is heart-wrenching,  but its an important episode to share. Ben ran a youth group, fresh out of college, and formed som...

EP44.1: Melanie's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

18 Nov 2021

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Send us a textKyle gets quite worked up in this After thoughts section, about why men have to give us such a bad name. All joking aside, the trauma we...

Melanie's Story - Toxicity, Red Flags And Knives

18 Nov 2021

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Send us a textMelanie had lived with six 'step dads' by the time she was 16 years old. Several were abusive, and when she was old enough, sh...

EP43.1: Leslie's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

11 Nov 2021

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Send us a textYour hosts Luke and Kyle unpack the three traumatic experiences our guest Leslie walked us through, and reflect on her strength and cour...

EP43: Leslie's Story - Bad Things Come In Threes

11 Nov 2021

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Send us a textLeslie takes us through three events that happened over a short period of time, that really tested her will to survive. The first was wh...

EP42.1: Kellen's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

04 Nov 2021

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Send us a textThis week, Kyle is way, and it's the first after thoughts section where it's just Luke talking to, well, Luke.  Kellen was su...

EP42: Kellen's Story - Near Death And Meeting God

04 Nov 2021

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Send us a textAfter decades of severe depression and major addictions, Kellen was finally on the road to recovery. Then, suddenly,  he became gravely...

EP41.1: Amanda’s Story - Bonus After Thoughts

28 Oct 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle discuss rejection and how we are moulded so heavily as children. Amanda was so desperate to feel acceptance and a love tha...

EP41: Amanda’s Story - From Parental Rejection To Prison

28 Oct 2021

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Send us a textAs a child, Amanda was abandoned and rejected by her parents, and she quickly came off the rails. Drink turned to drugs, and soon Amanda...

EP40.1 Paula / Jess' Story - BONUS After Thoughts

21 Oct 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle recap Paula's amazing story of Tourette's and Murder! An amazing double pronged episode that shows the resilienc...

EP40: Paula / Jess' Story - Tourettes And Murder

21 Oct 2021

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Send us a textThis is like 2 x episodes in one,. The first half documents the onset of Paula's Tourette's Syndrome,  and what it's lik...

EP39.1 Gary's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

14 Oct 2021

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Send us a textAddiction can often be covering up a bigger emotional or traumatic issue. Drink, drugs, eating disorders, gambling and other forms of ad...

EP39: Gary's Story - Losing Everything To Gambling

14 Oct 2021

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Send us a textTW: Gambling and Suicidal Thoughts.Addiction comes in many forms, and in Gary's case, it was Gambling that was to bring him to his ...

EP38.1 Rebekah's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

07 Oct 2021

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Send us a textFaith is an intriguing topic. Losing your original faith system, doubting everything, deconstructing 40 years of your beliefs, and start...

EP38: Rebekah's Story - A Total Deconstruction Of Faith

07 Oct 2021

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Send us a textRebekah  and her 4 siblings were brought up by strict Christian parents, where the bible was the letter of the law, and physical contac...

EP37.1: Adam's Story - BONUS After thoughts

30 Sep 2021

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Send us a textWhat an amazing insight into what it is like living with primary progressive multiple sclerosis.  Luke and Kyle discuss the episode,  ...

EP37: Adam's Story - Multiple Sclerosis At 39

30 Sep 2021

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Send us a textAfter experiencing back pain over a few months, Adam went for a simple corrective back surgery. After the surgery went well, he was surp...

EP36.1: Heidi's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

23 Sep 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle discuss the previous episode, Heidi's Story, and chat about how loss and grief can effect people in different ways. W...

EP36: Heidi's Story - Losing My Partner To A Heart Attack At 40.

23 Sep 2021

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Send us a textHeidi had finally begun to feel alive after years of depression and suicidal thoughts, and had met the man of her dreams, Mike, in a sem...

EP35.1 Ann's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

16 Sep 2021

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Send us a textFor anyone to come through 20 years of an abusive marriage is one thing, to then become dangerously ill and nearly lose your legs, is an...

EP35: Ann's Story - We Need To Amputate Your Leg

16 Sep 2021

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Send us a textAfter 20 years, Ann finally found the strength to escape an abusive, emotionally crippling, and desperate marriage.  Just as her life w...

EP34.1: Diana's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

09 Sep 2021

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Send us a textIn this week, the 20th anniversary of 9/11, we are seeing and hearing many accounts of the events of that horrific day. However, out of ...

EP34: Diana's Story - 9/11 Special

09 Sep 2021

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Send us a textDiana was 17 years old, in the first class of her high school day, when she saw the first plane explode into one of the Twin Towers, jus...

EP33.1: Leticia's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

02 Sep 2021

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Send us a textTRIGGER / CONTENT WARNING: Domestic Abuse and Domestic Violence. The strength and courage that we heard in Leticia's story was enou...

EP33: Leticia's Story - My Husband Stabbed Me

02 Sep 2021

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Send us a textTRIGGER / CONTENT WARNING: Domestic Abuse and Domestic Violence. Leticia was groomed by her would be husband at 14 years old, he was twi...

EP32.1: David's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

26 Aug 2021

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Send us a textAddiction can happen to anyone at any time and often we don't know it's happening until it's too late. From recreational ...

EP32: David's Story - Heroin Addiction: Riches to Rags, And Recovery

26 Aug 2021

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Send us a textDavid was a young, successful, high-flying executive, making his way to the top! First working for a record label in LA, he then fell in...

EP31.1: Dana's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

19 Aug 2021

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Send us a textDana's episode showed us that no matter how far down into darkness we go, we can find a way out. The moment that she stopped hersel...

EP31: Dana's Story - Surviving Rejection, Abandonment And Loss

19 Aug 2021

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Send us a textOnce again we focus on the recovery and the subject of hope and survival!! We commend our guest Dana's strength in what is one of t...

EP30.1 Justin R's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

12 Aug 2021

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Send us a textKyle and Luke discuss our latest episode, in which Justin's spiritual awakening was stopped in its tracks by a long, chronic, and c...

EP30: Justin R's Story - Poisonous Mold And A Spiritual Journey

12 Aug 2021

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Send us a textJustin was always seeking validation and always chasing success, through classes and courses, fitness and challenges.. All to make up fo...

EP29.1 Marjorie's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

05 Aug 2021

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Send us a textWhy do bad things happen to good people? In Marjorie's Story, we heard from a truly remarkable woman who survived a car crash but l...

EP29: Marjorie's Story - A Life Changing Car Crash

05 Aug 2021

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Send us a textMarjorie had set off for work, not knowing that on this day, in the blink of an eye, things would change forever. A patch of black ice w...

EP28.1: Carl's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

29 Jul 2021

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Send us a textLife can change in an instant. As many of our stories have confirmed, everything can be turned upside down in the blink of an eye. Carl&...

EP28: Carl's Story - A Cop's Amazing Escape

29 Jul 2021

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Send us a textCarl was a Police Officer in the UK Police Force for 19 years. One night, on a routine call out to a domestic dispute, his life would ch...

EP27.1: Amanda's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

22 Jul 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle discuss the resilience and power of the human spirit, and how surrounding yourself with the right people is key to a happy...

EP27: Amanda's Story - Finding Safety After 20 Foster Homes

22 Jul 2021

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Send us a textAmanda was in the Foster Care system from 12 years old. While some of her carers were great, many abused the system, using her for money...

EP26.1: Rob's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

15 Jul 2021

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Send us a textIt's amazing to think that someone can take their own life, when they seem to have things to live for.  When depression and suicid...

EP26: Rob's Story - Surviving Suicide And A Second Path

15 Jul 2021

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Send us a textWhen Rob was a child, he nearly died falling through ice, but to add to that traumatic experience, his parents didn't seem to care....

EP25.1: Debra's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

08 Jul 2021

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Send us a textIt's another 'after thoughts' section to help us digest the amazing episode we just listened to. Debra's Story was o...

EP25: Debra's Story - A Near Fatal Cycling Accident

08 Jul 2021

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Send us a textAs a child caught in the middle of angry, battling parents, Debra suffered extreme trauma. As she grew up, she developed an unhealthy ob...

EP24.1: JT's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

01 Jul 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle discuss JT's amazing story. JT realized he had a problem and made the decision to stop drinking. This was a positive ...

EP24: JT's Story - I Forgot To Stay Sober

01 Jul 2021

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Send us a textWhat happens if you are alcohol dependent and you try and go cold turkey without medical help? Well, JT wrote a book about it, 'I F...

EP23.1: Rhiannon's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

24 Jun 2021

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Send us a textRhiannon is amazing. What she went through is almost unfathomable. Luke and Kyle discuss how life can change in the blink of an eye, and...

EP23: Rhiannon's Story - Kidnap At Knife Point

24 Jun 2021

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Send us a textTW / CONTENT WARNING: This story involves details of kidnap and sexual assault and may be triggering. Listener discretion advised.It was...

EP22.1: Anthony's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

17 Jun 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle do our best to stay in the middle of the road on this one. After Anthony's amazing story of hope, courage, and recove...

EP22: Anthony's Story - Childhood Trauma and Self Discovery

17 Jun 2021

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Send us a textThis one is utterly fascinating.  Anthony's childhood was filled with trauma. His story details some really scary moments with his...

EP21.1: Christina J's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

10 Jun 2021

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Send us a textTW: Self Harm and Eating Disorders.Luke and Kyle discuss Christina's amazing story of self discovery, and why we seek to control th...

EP21: Christina J's Story - Bulimia, Self Harm, And A Cult

10 Jun 2021

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Send us a textTW / CONTENT WARNING: Self Harm / Eating Disorders:Christina grew up with 7 siblings, in a fundamental Christian 'Cult', home ...

EP20.1: Robin's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

03 Jun 2021

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Send us a textIn this 20th episode special of Luke and Kyle's podcast, we discuss Robin's story of drug and alcohol excess, that nearly kill...

EP20: Robin's Story - Near Death At Glastonbury Festival

03 Jun 2021

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Send us a textRobin was from a 'normal' family, growing up in the Midlands in England through the eighties and nineties. He came out as gay ...

EP19.1: Christina H's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

27 May 2021

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Send us a textFor many of us, we may not even realize we are in an abusive relationship, until it's too late.  Kyle and Luke discuss the amazing...

EP19: Christina H's Story - Sleeping With The Enemy

27 May 2021

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Send us a textCONTENT & TRIGGER WARNING: Discusses domestic abuse, domestic violence, emotional and physical abuse. This week's story plays o...

EP18.1: Kyle M's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

20 May 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle reflect on Kyle M's story! Wow. We discuss faith, fear of death, and the afterlife. Oh, and not giving a f*ck about y...

EP18: Kyle M's Story - Waking Up 17 Days Later

20 May 2021

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Send us a textKyle knew something was seriously wrong, in a panic, he drove himself to the ER, and woke up 17 days later. A huge medical event had lef...

EP17.1: Lisa's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

13 May 2021

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Send us a textMental Health awareness is such an important thing. A huge lack of understanding, and compassion, led to some seriously traumatizing sit...

EP17: Lisa's Story - A Mother's Fight To Save Her Son

13 May 2021

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Send us a textLisa always knew there was something different about her son, then, one day, he was taken from her and placed in a Mental Care Facility ...

EP16.1: Justin Connor's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

06 May 2021

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Send us a textAfter an enlightening chat with Justin about the trauma's of being a child with an alcoholic father, Kyle and Luke discuss what rea...

EP16: Justin Connor's Story - Surviving An Abusive, Alcoholic Father

06 May 2021

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Send us a textJustin was traumatized after growing up with an abusive, alcoholic Father. He needed to get his story out there, so, he made a movie! In...

EP 15.1: Shelly's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

29 Apr 2021

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Send us a textLuke and Kyle summarize the  extraordinary events from Shelly's story.  We can't imagine what it must have been like for She...

EP15: Shelly's Story - A Series Of Unfortunate Events

29 Apr 2021

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Send us a textThe fact that Shelly is still here, is amazing. The fact that Shelly is telling her story to help others, is even more amazing.  A stor...

EP14.1: Natasha and Jachym's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

22 Apr 2021

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Send us a textThere are a million reasons why we might be scared of love, especially if we have loved, and lost, in the past. In this after thoughts s...

EP14: Natasha and Jachym's Story - Trouble In Relationship Paradise

22 Apr 2021

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Send us a textTW: PARENTAL SUICIDE: When Jachym was 6 years old, his father committed suicide. The trauma meant he would never let anyone in for two d...

EP13.1: JoJo Marie's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

15 Apr 2021

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Send us a textPerspective, it's all about perspective. Luke and Kyle discuss the themes of resilience and perseverance that we heard in JoJo&apos...

EP13: JoJo Marie's Story - 1,460 Days In Bed

15 Apr 2021

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Send us a textWe love to focus on the resilience of the human spirit. Join us on JoJo Marie's journey through a life dominated by paralyzing fear...

EP12.1: Justin's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

08 Apr 2021

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Send us a textTW: Depression and Suicide: In this very open and honest re-cap of 'Justin's Story', Luke and Kyle get vulnerable. If we ...

EP12: Justin's Story - Addiction, Suicide, And Recovery

08 Apr 2021

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Send us a textTW / CONTENT WARNING: Discusses depression and suicidal thoughts.From and early age, Justin wanted to be 'someone else'. His f...

EP11.1: Tiff's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

01 Apr 2021

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Send us a textWow, what an episode! Kyle, also a boxing fan, talks about his love for training and how it serves as a form of release. What we are lea...

EP11: Tiff's Story - Unlocking Childhood Trauma

01 Apr 2021

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Send us a textPure inspiration! Tiff lived in the fast lane, keeping as busy as possible, presenting a persona to others that she was 'OK'. ...

EP10.1: Kyle's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

25 Mar 2021

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Send us a textGosh. Where to start? Kyle's Story of sexual abuse as a child, was nothing short of incredible. We heard how he was somehow able to...

EP10: Kyle's Story - Triumph After Childhood Abuse

25 Mar 2021

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Send us a textWARNING: Contains discussions about sexual abuse as a child, and sexual trauma. This is a brave, honest and emotional story beginning w...

EP9.1: Julie's Story - BONUS After Thoughts

18 Mar 2021

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Send us a textThis one is good. Kyle brings some wonderful insights to the forefront as we discuss what gives someone the strength and courage to get ...