WTF is on my Mind?!
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Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 10 - The Toxic Text Messages Part 2
14 Jun 2026
Contributed by Lukas
This is episode 10 of Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro, an ongoing deep dive investigation into the world of Dutch spiritual influencer Bentinho Massaro an...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 9 - The Text Messages Part 1
07 Jun 2026
Contributed by Lukas
For the next few episodes, our three defectors, Jacqueline Graham, Keilan McNeil, and Jade Alectra, are going to read out their private text messages ...
Evan Rachel Wood: A Wolf in Wolf's Clothing
31 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Evan Rachel Wood has been through it. The abuse. The smear campaigns. The legal battles. The silencing. And she came out the other side still talking....
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 8 - Aaron Abke "Behind the Mask"
24 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
One of the recurring defenses from people still inside Bentinho Massaro's circle is that the people who have spoken out, Jacqueline, Keilan, and ...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 7 - Jade Part 2 “Leave Your Body”
10 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
We pick up where we left off in Part 1. A kitchen in Ecuador. Two women looking at each other across an island with empty eyes. What follows is five m...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Jade Part 1 "Empty Eyes"
03 May 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Jade Alectra was a D1 athlete, a yoga teacher with 75,000 followers, a feature in Oprah Magazine, and a meditation practice she had built from scratch...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Keilan Part 2 "Closer to God"
26 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
This is part of my ongoing deep-dive investigation into the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a ...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Ivo van Woerden "The Journalist"
19 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
A note before you listen: this episode was recorded before I left for the Netherlands. I just spent seven days there shooting with the Three Amigos, J...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Keilan Part 1 "The Mission"
12 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
For over four years I've been documenting the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a very dark...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Jacqueline Part 2 "All In"
05 Apr 2026
Contributed by Lukas
In Part One, we met Jacqueline Graham, a Canadian mother of three, a lifelong spiritual seeker, and the woman who would become Bentinho Massaro's...
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro - Jacqueline Part 1 'The Seeker'
29 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
I've seen this before. Not something like this. Not a similar version of this. This. The same playbook. The same psychological architecture. Just...
Corey Feldman's Angels...in HELL - Part 2
15 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
THIS IS PART 2. In Part 1, I sat down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon - two former bandmates of Corey Feldman's Corey's Angels - to hear ho...
Corey Feldman's Angels... in HELL - Part 1
08 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
In this first part of a two-part episode, I sit down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon; two former bandmates of Corey Feldman who were part of his group,...
What the Hell Is Going On?! (And What Do We Do Next) w/ Africa Brooke & Mark Vicente
01 Mar 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Africa Brooke and I did an Instagram Live right after the Epstein files dropped, and we didn't hold back. Africa is one of my closest friends, on...
Adrenaline, Predators & The Camera @thatdocumentarygirl
15 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
She watches up to fourteen documentaries a week! Not for school. Not for work. Because she’s obsessed.In this episode of WTF Is On My Mind?, I sit d...
Free Speech Is a Dirty Word w/ Dr. Chloe Carmichael
08 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
If you’re deeply committed to ideological purity or easily offended by nuance, this episode may be uncomfortable. And honestly, that might be the po...
When Reality Breaks: Reclaiming Yourself After Psychological Abuse w/ Dr. Jaime Zuckerman
01 Feb 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Psychological abuse, narcissistic abuse, and gaslighting can completely distort your sense of reality and self-trust.In this episode, I talk with Dr. ...
Corey Feldman vs. the World: A Cult or Just Complicated? w/ Director Marcie Hume
25 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
I just watched the documentary Corey Feldman vs. the World and—holy S H I T. It’s hard to describe the experience. It’s messy, mesmerizing, dist...
Why the War Between Men and Women Is Destroying Us! w/ Carina Eriksson
11 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
Carina Eriksson is an international matchmaker and dating consultant with over 20 years of experience. She runs Atlas International, a boutique firm h...
Mainstream Media behaves like a Cult
04 Jan 2026
Contributed by Lukas
I was at the gym when I looked up at the TV and saw my local weather duo doing their usual performative dance—fake smiles, scripted banter, corporat...
MK Ultra: Cults, Trance States, and the Weaponization of Trauma
21 Dec 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I delve into one of the most controversial and misunderstood programs in modern history: MK Ultra. Joined by Richard Grannon and scre...
Is YOUR Political Party Culty?
14 Dec 2025
Contributed by Lukas
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NXIVM & the Psychology of Self-Pity w/ Richard Grannon
30 Nov 2025
Contributed by Lukas
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Radical Self-Respect After Narcissistic Abuse w/ Jared Mello
16 Nov 2025
Contributed by Lukas
What does it really take to stop repeating toxic patterns? To finally choose yourself after trauma, addiction, and emotional chaos?In this episode of ...
Borderline or Narcissist? w/ Richard Grannon
02 Nov 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I sit down with Richard Grannon to ask the question that’s been on my mind for a while: What is Borderline Personality Disorder? An...
Victim Blaming w/ Richard Grannon
26 Oct 2025
Contributed by Lukas
This conversation with Richard Grannon covers a topic I’ve been wanting to unpack for a long time: the tension between self-reflection and what ofte...
Narcissistic Abuse is like Radiation Poisoning
19 Oct 2025
Contributed by Lukas
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Are Narcissists Born or Made? w/ Dr Peter Salerno
21 Sep 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, I sit down with Dr. Peter Salerno — a retired psychotherapist and author who has spent decades studying pers...
WTF Happened to God in Psychology? w/ Richard Grannon
14 Sep 2025
Contributed by Lukas
New Youtube Channel and Podcast - "Remember Your Greatness"Youtube Channel Apple Podcasts SpotifyMentoringIn this episode of WTF Is ...
Bad Vegan Resurrected: Sarma Melngailis Sets the Record Straight
07 Sep 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this follow-up conversation, filmmaker, whistleblower, and podcast host Mark Vicente sits down again with Sarma Melngailis, the woman at the center...
Mind Mapping Insanity: How Cults Normalize Madness
31 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode of WTF is On My Mind?!, filmmaker and whistleblower Mark Vicente explores what happens when we try to understand an irrational or dang...
Drinking Blood, Draining Souls w/ Richard Grannon - The Vampire-Narcissist Connection
17 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, filmmaker and whistleblower Mark Vicente sits down with Richard Grannon for a conversation that begins with va...
You’re Dead to Me - Shunning as Social Control
03 Aug 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode of WTF Is On My Mind?!, Mark Vicente pulls back the curtain on one of the most insidious tools of social control: shunning — not jus...
Epstein, Political Blackmail & Why No One’s Coming to Save Us!
20 Jul 2025
Contributed by Lukas
What happens when people finally see through the lies? Mark Vicente breaks down the Epstein cover-up, government blackmail operations, and why we can&...
Peterson & Rogan Expose the Dark Tetrad: Parasites Among Us - w/ Vicente & Grannon
06 Jul 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this unflinching conversation, Richard Grannon and Mark Vicente dissect a crucial Jordan Peterson and Joe Rogan discussion about how cluster B pers...
"A.I. Told Me I Was a Prophet" w/ Richard Grannon
29 Jun 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Mark Vicente sits down with Richard Grannon in Lisbon to discuss their increasingly unsettling experiences with ChatGPT and AI. What starts as curiosi...
Turning 60: On Perfection, Enlightenment, and Other Lies We’re Sold
22 Jun 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this very personal episode, Mark shares candid reflections on turning 60 — and the lifelong journey from feeling responsible for fixing the world...
Leaving the Cult w/ Richard Grannon
08 Jun 2025
Contributed by Lukas
What happens when you leave a cult—but the cult is still running a program in your mind?In this episode, Mark Vicente sits down with author and trau...
40 Years Under His Spell: Waking Up from NXIVM
01 Jun 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Episode Summary:In this deeply intimate conversation, Mark sits down with his old friend Karen Unterreiner — a woman who spent four decades at the e...
Dinner for Vampires Part 2 w/ Bethany Joy Lenz
25 May 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Breaking the Spell — Motherhood, Escape & Reclaiming her Voice | Part 2In Part 2 of this powerful conversation, Bethany Joy Lenz — actor, sing...
Dinner for Vampires Part 1 w/ Bethany Joy Lenz
18 May 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Living Two Lives — Hollywood Fame & Hidden Cult Control | Part 1“You can’t be human here.”In Part 1 of this raw and revelatory conversatio...
Wolves in Suits: Psychopaths in the Workplace w/ Dr. Cynthia Mathieu
11 May 2025
Contributed by Lukas
This episode contains candid discussion about narcissistic abuse, psychopathy, high-control systems, workplace trauma, and cult dynamics. Please liste...
Interview with a Narcissist
04 May 2025
Contributed by Lukas
Guest: Jacob Skidmore (@TheNamelessNarcissist)“People say narcissists wear a mask… I am the mask.”Jacob Skidmore has been diagnosed with Narciss...
Cult Logic: The Self Sealing System
20 Apr 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, Mark Vicente unpacks the concept of self-sealing systems — those airtight ideological loops used in cults, extreme religious groups...
The Cult of Weaponized Introspection
13 Apr 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this expletive laden and unfiltered solo episode, Mark Vicente dives deep into the subtle, insidious ways abusive individuals and systems exploit o...
Escaping the Lie: The Cost of Pretending Everything’s Fine w/ Josh Connolly
06 Apr 2025
Contributed by Lukas
What happens when truth becomes your only option for survival?In this unfiltered, emotionally honest conversation, filmmaker and whistleblower Mark Vi...
The Hidden Dangers of High-Functioning Predators w/ Dr. Karen Mitchell
28 Mar 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this powerful and revealing episode, filmmaker Mark Vicente sits down with Dr. Karen Mitchell, founder of the Kalmor Institute and the author of on...
Dignity, Trauma, Google Gods, Archeology and ‘Truth’ in a MAD World
23 Mar 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this solo episode, filmmaker and truth-seeker Mark Vicente shares what’s been stirring in his mind—from the deeply personal to the culturally e...
Say Everything or Say Nothing? The Dilemma of Free Expression w/ Africa Brooke
16 Mar 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this deeply insightful and unfiltered conversation, I speak with return guest Africa Brooke. Africa is a writer, speaker, and thought leader known ...
The Female Narcissist w/ Coach Liliya Labonte
23 Feb 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this eye-opening episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, I sit down with Coach Liliya Labonte, a specialist in narcissistic abuse and healing, to uncover a...
The Communal Narcissist (The Cloak of Virtue)
16 Feb 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, I dive deep into Communal Narcissism—the most deceptive and dangerous form of narcissism. Unlike grandiose o...
I Got Infected!
02 Feb 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, I explore the concept of ideological infection—the psychological trap where we become so emotionally attache...
Inside the Mind of a Narcissist with Dr. Jaime Zuckerman
26 Jan 2025
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, I sit down with Dr. Jaime Zuckerman, a licensed clinical psychologist and national expert in narcissistic abus...
Hiding the Truth: How Suppression Fractures Us!
27 Dec 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I explore the concept of suppression and how it affects us personally, in families, and on a societal scale. We explore how suppressi...
What is CONSENT? Does Yes mean YES?
22 Dec 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I talk to two incredible women who are leading the charge to redefine how we think about and legislate consent—Joyce Short and Ni...
Yachts, Sex & NXIVM
08 Dec 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: How my film, "What the Bleep Do We Know?!" led to a weird encounter with a clinical psychologist on a yacht. My eventual in...
I dreamed I was back in the CULT!
24 Nov 2024
Contributed by Lukas
What happens when the subconscious drags you back into the cult you’ve left behind? In this episode, I share a vivid dream where I was back in the c...
The Sky is Falling!!!
03 Nov 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I use the comic, Asterix and Obelix as a metaphor to explore societal beliefs and the consequences of questioning established norms. ...
Using Fear to Control People.
27 Oct 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, I explore the concept of fear-based manipulation and control, discussing how fear and trauma have historically been used to bind indi...
From Hollywood to Healing, Navigating Pain & Confronting Dark Impulses with David Sutcliffe
20 Oct 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Former Hollywood actor, David Sutcliffe discusses his journey of self-discovery, transitioning from acting to somatic therapy, and the struggles of au...
What the hell is 'IDEOLOGY' anyway? w/ Richard Grannon - Livestream Replay
13 Oct 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: Richard Grannon and I delve into the complexities of ideology, exploring its definitions, psychological impacts, and its relationship...
Captured! w/ Peter Boghossian
04 Oct 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: Peter Boghossian and I delve into the complexities of belief systems, the importance of open dialogue, and the role of education in s...
What Keith Raniere told Alison Mack and why it's important.
22 Sep 2024
Contributed by Lukas
My Thoughts on Cult Mentality and Moral Dilemmas – Alison Mack, NXIVM, and Beyond In this episode: I dive into some deep and personal reflections ab...
The Socratic Method vs The Merchants of Hate w/ Richard Grannon
23 Aug 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I sit down with Richard Grannon to dive deep into the power and relevance of the Socratic Method in today's polarized world. Bui...
The Rage of the 'Empaths'
16 Aug 2024
Contributed by Lukas
The Dangers of Intolerance: Culty Behavior in Today's WorldIn this episode, I delve into the unsettling parallels between cult behavior and the c...
Sex Scandal in the Gym
11 Aug 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I ruminate on the lack of justice in certain situations, specifically focusing on a disturbing case involving a trainer at a gym. The...
"The Emperor's New Clothes" - RETOLD
28 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I retell the story of "The Emperor's New Clothes" by Hans Christian Anderson. Drawing parallels to our modern society,...
A.I. & the Hollywood Collapse? w/ Adam G. Simon
18 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I continue my discussion with Producer/Writer Adam G. Simon - about A.I. this time. We look at the ethical implications of A.I. and...
From the Mormon Church to the Cult of Hollywood w/ Adam G. Simon
07 Jul 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I talk to Adam G. Simon, a screenwriter, producer, and actor. We discuss Adam's background as a bodyguard and close protection s...
Narcissistic Psychopaths are Molding our Society w/ Richard Grannon
30 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: I chat with Richard Grannon about the concept of narcissistic psychopathy and its impact on power structures and society. He delves i...
Why We Follow Psychopaths? with Professor of Evolutionary Psychology, Edward Dutton
23 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: A conversation with Professor of Evolutionary Psychology, Edward Dutton. We cover a wide range of topics, including the seminar on Na...
STAY DAMAGED with comedian Rob Van Vuuren (aka Namaste Bae)
14 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I interview Rob van Vuuren, a comedian and actor known for his character Namaste Bae. We discuss the origins of the character, the co...
The Goodness Trap
07 Jun 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I discuss the concept of the goodness trap, where people become so attached to the idea of being good that they ignore or justify bad...
BRAINWASHED! - with Behavioural Scientist and Author Patrick Fagan
31 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: Author, Lecturer & Behavioural Scientist Patrick Fagan and I delve into the topics of brainwashing, propaganda, manipulation, and...
NXIVM's War Against Hate
04 May 2024
Contributed by Lukas
Brave Expression in the Age of Intolerance with Africa BrookeBeyond the Self - with Africa Brooke releasing cult-like thinking and rigid identities w/...
Art as Medicine with filmmaker Lubomir Arsov
19 Apr 2024
Contributed by Lukas
KINGDOM ANIMATED SHORThttps://www.lubomirarsov.com/IN SHADOWBeyond The Self with Africa Brooke - releasing cult-like thinking & rigid identities -...
Brave Expression in the Age of Intolerance with Africa Brooke
09 Apr 2024
Contributed by Lukas
AFRICA BROOKEPreorder Africa's Book:The Third Perspective: Brave Expression in The Age of Intolerance (out May 2024)An open letter: why I'm ...
'Unto Dust' - A South African Story
29 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: I tell a story written by Herman Charles Bosman about an unfortunate incident between a black African warrior and a white Afrikaans s...
Religion: Heaven or Hell?
21 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
DECODING CULTS & NARCISSISTShttps://www.richardgrannon.com/narcissistic-cults-decoded-courseIn this episode: I wandered into a Cathedral in Lisbon...
Deception, Media & Betrayal - with Sarma of “BAD VEGAN”
08 Mar 2024
Contributed by Lukas
NARCISSISTIC CULTS DECODEDhttps://www.richardgrannon.com/narcissistic-cults-decoded-courseIn this episode: Sarma Melngailis goes deep with me on the d...
Lucy Walsh - I ESCAPED!
17 Feb 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode:I speak with actress, writer, producer, classical pianist, singer, and songwriter, Lucy Walsh. We discuss her new book 'Remember ...
Diane Bell - Sundance Award Winning Director & Dream Whisperer
23 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode:I share with Diane Bell, Sundance Award- Winning Director how she helped me regain my hope and creative fire after the NXIVM debacle.h...
The Antidote (slippery slope of Ideology Part 2)
19 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
This is a follow-up to the previous episode "The Slippery Slope of Ideology"- Reading listeners' answers to the question: "What is...
The slippery slope of Ideology (Part 1)
09 Jan 2024
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode:Key moments that opened my eyes to NXIVM. Cult leaders seem to be cut from the same cloth because they have the same pathology. Tho...
A Soldier's Story
09 Dec 2023
Contributed by Lukas
RECLAMATION COURSEIn this episode: Who are you being told to hate? World Triangulation Glorification of War A Soldier's StoryMoral InjuryTalk...
Narcissistic Triangulation
01 Dec 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: NXIVM, Gladiators, CIA, Tin Foil, Public Relations, and taking down the little runt. patreon.com/markvicenteCIA Dispatch: https://ww...
Hatred as a Path to Enlightenment
18 Nov 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: Self-hatred as a misguided attempt towards enlightenment. The polarization between the body and the spirit in spiritual groups and te...
An answer at any cost! (Y+R=A)
23 Sep 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: - Cognitive Dissonance.- The scientific method vs. a deeply vested need for a particular answer. - A simple formula to understand w...
Tom Cruise, Oblivion & the NXIVM 9
20 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
SPOILER ALERT: I will be giving away major plot points of the movie 'Oblivion'.In this Episode: Tom Cruise plays Jack Harper in this 2013 sc...
Prickly People!
06 Aug 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: Ever been around someone who seems to correct or criticize everything you do? Do you have that person in your life that you feel you ...
Guy Pearce on Cults, The Vow, Acting, Lying and Truth.
23 Jul 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: Guy Pearce talks about why he reached out to me. We had an amazing, deep, and honest conversation covering cults, groups, his fascina...
The Light and Dark side of Self-Help with Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle
09 Jul 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: I talk to Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle, Clinical Psychologist and Board President of Seek Safely. https://www.seeksafely.org SEEK SAFEL...
Weaponizing Filmmaking
20 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: Filmmaking can do extraordinary things... move people to the greatest heights and the deepest depths of themselves, and it can also b...
Those F*@king Conspiracy Theorists!
11 Jun 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode… conspiracy theorists are idiots, right? Lloyd Evans - ex-Jehovah's Witness writer, activist and filmmaker. Author of "Th...
What is a Cult?
15 May 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: The twenty 25 characteristics and tactics of a cult!DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONAL. THIS INFORMATION IS FOR ENTERT...
Cancel Culture & The Hero's Journey
18 Apr 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: Cancel Culture is a term that is used in modern-day society. But does it have it's roots much further back? Has it been going on...
The 4th "F" (FAWNING) with Dr. Ingrid Clayton
06 Mar 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode: Have you ever felt ashamed of how you went along with an abuser for months, maybe even years, even though a part of you knew the situ...
Hypothesis of God
21 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this Episode: Stolen Youth. A memory of a NXIVM Level 2 module that really stuck. Is 'God' an early development somatic impulse? Transf...
Airports, The Ethics Police & The WEFC
13 Feb 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, a discussion about the magical profit margin in airports, the 'Ethics Police' in cults and social media, the denial of evil...
Emotionally Puckered Up
30 Jan 2023
Contributed by Lukas
In this episode, a short discussion about emotional repression and its effects on us.Support the showThe views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my ...