Aaron Smith-Levin

It's not like I was an emotional wreck during that time, you know, in private I was, but it's not like I was just freaking out.

It was like, the sun's going to come up tomorrow.

The world's going to keep spinning.

I can't control it.

This is hard.

I can't believe this is happening, but tomorrow's a new day.

I've never personally, even at the darkest times, I've never experienced anything that I would characterize as depression.

Certainly not ever any suicidal thoughts or anything.

Even in the darkest of times, and again, this one thing I go, is it because of Scientology or is it just me?

There really is an emotional detachment.

And then once I figure out the answer to that question, I'm actually quite chipper and happy.

You know, like that's sort of my default.

Like you could give me six horrible options.

Once I figure out the best of those six, I'm going to feel like I just had a pretty good day.

And he almost gets pissed off at everyone around him for being so pouty about it.

Do you know what I mean?

Yeah.

Yeah.

And people sometimes ask about recovery and whatnot and like, what does that look like and what does that mean?

And it sort of goes back to kind of the emotional detachment is I go –