Abbie Chatfield

Now I'm like not sleeping.

It's so irritating, isn't it?

Oh my God, it's the fucking worst.

I'm like, and now I feel like even it's really interesting as well.

Whenever I'm in this like sympathetic nervous system stage, this anxious stage, any change in my,

my heart rate makes me have a panic attack.

Like even like kissing Adam, I, because I'm getting horny, my body then responds to the panic attack, which is fucking crazy.

Like if I eat something and it tastes really good, I start having panic attack.

So even positive emotions are just – I'm just like flooded and overwhelmed and my nervous system can't handle it.

So I'm like trying to take it really, really slowly.

But that's very difficult when you –

I want to get shit done.

This is the other annoying thing about fucking depression and about mental health struggles is it's like, oh, I just – I actually logically just want to fucking go and do work or, like, go and see my friends or, like, get things done.

Do the things that I enjoy, like – Because that will also help me get out faster.

But you actually unfortunately –

Cannot.

And I'm learning the hard way that I have to just listen to my body and calm my nervous system down because anything that I do, like I said, I've kind of lost track of time.

I don't know what work I've done.

I don't know who I've seen.

I don't know...