Abby Wambach

If I didn't accept that now, as I would have been living in a fiction if I believed I could quit my law firm job and just figure out a way to pay off hundreds of thousands of law school debt.

Like, just because it was true then doesn't make it true now.

And I think that kind of...

reality checking of like, what outdated rules and beliefs are you living by in this moment that just because they served you then doesn't make them true right now.

I am in a moment where I'm like, I need to have a come to Jesus with myself and be like,

what are the stories you're telling you about your life?

Because they're actually different now.

And what's different now is that you get to choose.

And you know what?

That's even less comfortable for you.

It would be much more comfortable the way I am built to be like, there's a path, there's a role.

What we do is we do the thing now for the payoff later.

That's what I've always done every day of my life, my entire life.

It is deeply, deeply uncomfortable for me to adapt to

to a world in which I have the volition and I have the responsibility to figure it out.

I never had that responsibility to figure it out before.

All I was doing was the quote unquote smartest, best long-term plan.

And now I'm at a point in my life where that long-term plan is actually not suited to my circumstance.

And I'd be lying to myself to say that it was.

And so I have to figure that out.