Abby

Like one time Abby and I recently were at one of Emma's – we were at her college that she's going to go to and the soccer people were soccering.

This player was running up and down the field wearing this little machine thing.

And I said, Abby, what is that?

And she said, it's a monitor that shows how hard her heart is beating.

And I said, why does she have to wear that?

And she said, because then they can see how – basically how hard she's trying, how hard she's working.

And I thought, if I could just have one of those –

Okay.

So that's how I felt.

The point is, you all, my father, who was always telling us we can do whatever we want, girls can do anything, you can do anything, do the thing.

After either the fourth or fifth time, when he drove me home, he said something like, Glennon, I know I've told you that you can do anything, but I need to amend it.

This must stop.

Please.

Like, it was like you are embarrassing the family.

I cannot pick you up here anymore.

The point is, this is my past.

So the second we get into this room with Dana, she doesn't say one, two, three, four, but she does start doing things very quickly.

It feels scary to me.

I feel panicky.

I feel like I'm not going to be able to do it.