A.J. Daulerio

I think I was very normal, recreational, high school college drinker, right? I don't think there were any real red flags at that point. I mean, I could be wrong, but I didn't feel like I was in jeopardy of really having any sort of ism that was going to actually impact my day-to-day.

I just knew that I had a deep sense of unease that was always with me throughout most of my life that I was constantly in search of a solution for, right?

I just knew that I had a deep sense of unease that was always with me throughout most of my life that I was constantly in search of a solution for, right?

I just knew that I had a deep sense of unease that was always with me throughout most of my life that I was constantly in search of a solution for, right?

I mean, it's just, I guess, it's an overall sort of like swirling tornado of inadequacy and depression and anxiety. That feeling that I'm completely left out of every single good part of life. that I'm unable to really kind of participate in that being who I am, so I have to kind of turn into something else. I've had that my whole entire life.

I mean, it's just, I guess, it's an overall sort of like swirling tornado of inadequacy and depression and anxiety. That feeling that I'm completely left out of every single good part of life. that I'm unable to really kind of participate in that being who I am, so I have to kind of turn into something else. I've had that my whole entire life.

I mean, it's just, I guess, it's an overall sort of like swirling tornado of inadequacy and depression and anxiety. That feeling that I'm completely left out of every single good part of life. that I'm unable to really kind of participate in that being who I am, so I have to kind of turn into something else. I've had that my whole entire life.

I was at this meeting one time, and this man who was sharing his story about his alcoholism said something along the lines of just like, you know, I was an alcoholic the first day I went into kindergarten. And That hit me right in the chest because I was just like, God, I know exactly what he means by that.

I was at this meeting one time, and this man who was sharing his story about his alcoholism said something along the lines of just like, you know, I was an alcoholic the first day I went into kindergarten. And That hit me right in the chest because I was just like, God, I know exactly what he means by that.

I was at this meeting one time, and this man who was sharing his story about his alcoholism said something along the lines of just like, you know, I was an alcoholic the first day I went into kindergarten. And That hit me right in the chest because I was just like, God, I know exactly what he means by that.

The first day that I stepped into a classroom around my peers, I was always looking for a way to be accepted in a way that I didn't think I could.

The first day that I stepped into a classroom around my peers, I was always looking for a way to be accepted in a way that I didn't think I could.

The first day that I stepped into a classroom around my peers, I was always looking for a way to be accepted in a way that I didn't think I could.

I mean, I think everyone that I've met on this side of recovery has definitely felt that at some point. And obviously, when I talk about this a lot on the newsletter, there's a lot of people who say that I feel that way too and struggle with that every day, whatever. And let me ask you this. I mean, it's just like when you started to have success podcasting,

I mean, I think everyone that I've met on this side of recovery has definitely felt that at some point. And obviously, when I talk about this a lot on the newsletter, there's a lot of people who say that I feel that way too and struggle with that every day, whatever. And let me ask you this. I mean, it's just like when you started to have success podcasting,

I mean, I think everyone that I've met on this side of recovery has definitely felt that at some point. And obviously, when I talk about this a lot on the newsletter, there's a lot of people who say that I feel that way too and struggle with that every day, whatever. And let me ask you this. I mean, it's just like when you started to have success podcasting,

Did you think that that was actually supposed to kind of change all those sort of feelings for you and were supposed to kind of be at that inner peace? I mean, did you ever have that when you got some of the things that you were always after, professionally speaking?

Did you think that that was actually supposed to kind of change all those sort of feelings for you and were supposed to kind of be at that inner peace? I mean, did you ever have that when you got some of the things that you were always after, professionally speaking?

Did you think that that was actually supposed to kind of change all those sort of feelings for you and were supposed to kind of be at that inner peace? I mean, did you ever have that when you got some of the things that you were always after, professionally speaking?

It's a horrible feeling that when that happens, because that happened for me too. I was at a place in circa 2010, 11, where I was like, oh, I'm getting all the attention that I thought I wanted. I'm getting paid the amount that I thought I wanted. People think I'm interesting in a way that I thought I always wanted. And I'm still out.