A.J. Daulerio

It's a horrible feeling that when that happens, because that happened for me too. I was at a place in circa 2010, 11, where I was like, oh, I'm getting all the attention that I thought I wanted. I'm getting paid the amount that I thought I wanted. People think I'm interesting in a way that I thought I always wanted. And I'm still out.

It's a horrible feeling that when that happens, because that happened for me too. I was at a place in circa 2010, 11, where I was like, oh, I'm getting all the attention that I thought I wanted. I'm getting paid the amount that I thought I wanted. People think I'm interesting in a way that I thought I always wanted. And I'm still out.

drinking and carousing every single night because I'm still lonely at the end of the night. And whenever I would... it would inch up to like two, three o'clock in the morning. I would get so anxious because I was just like, God, I don't want to go to bed yet. I'm not drunk enough yet to fall asleep. I would never sleep in a bed. I always needed to fall asleep on the couch.

drinking and carousing every single night because I'm still lonely at the end of the night. And whenever I would... it would inch up to like two, three o'clock in the morning. I would get so anxious because I was just like, God, I don't want to go to bed yet. I'm not drunk enough yet to fall asleep. I would never sleep in a bed. I always needed to fall asleep on the couch.

drinking and carousing every single night because I'm still lonely at the end of the night. And whenever I would... it would inch up to like two, three o'clock in the morning. I would get so anxious because I was just like, God, I don't want to go to bed yet. I'm not drunk enough yet to fall asleep. I would never sleep in a bed. I always needed to fall asleep on the couch.

Always needed to fall asleep with like three or four cigarettes before I went to bed. And that's when things were going well for me, right? And that's the stuff that I look back upon where I'm just like, God, this was never going to work. no matter how much of my professional life I was having success in that, it wasn't going to be enough for me.

Always needed to fall asleep with like three or four cigarettes before I went to bed. And that's when things were going well for me, right? And that's the stuff that I look back upon where I'm just like, God, this was never going to work. no matter how much of my professional life I was having success in that, it wasn't going to be enough for me.

Always needed to fall asleep with like three or four cigarettes before I went to bed. And that's when things were going well for me, right? And that's the stuff that I look back upon where I'm just like, God, this was never going to work. no matter how much of my professional life I was having success in that, it wasn't going to be enough for me.

I was the classic case of failing upward. As much as... I was a fuck-up. I mean, that was kind of part of my brand at the time. I had become one of those people. And man, I got away with a lot of things. I was rewarded for it sometimes. And I was constantly bouncing out of a situation that was good. I was usually quitting my jobs, too, as a way to really chase that other place to fill that hole.

I was the classic case of failing upward. As much as... I was a fuck-up. I mean, that was kind of part of my brand at the time. I had become one of those people. And man, I got away with a lot of things. I was rewarded for it sometimes. And I was constantly bouncing out of a situation that was good. I was usually quitting my jobs, too, as a way to really chase that other place to fill that hole.

I was the classic case of failing upward. As much as... I was a fuck-up. I mean, that was kind of part of my brand at the time. I had become one of those people. And man, I got away with a lot of things. I was rewarded for it sometimes. And I was constantly bouncing out of a situation that was good. I was usually quitting my jobs, too, as a way to really chase that other place to fill that hole.

I remember I took this job at what used to be Spin Magazine, which was now Spin Media.

I remember I took this job at what used to be Spin Magazine, which was now Spin Media.

I remember I took this job at what used to be Spin Magazine, which was now Spin Media.

And it was, like, my dream job, too.

And it was, like, my dream job, too.

And it was, like, my dream job, too.

But it was one of those jobs where I was just like, oh, this can be the one where I can actually just like shed all the reputation that I kind of built up at Docker Media and Deadspin and go into something where I can be treated seriously and I don't have to be the guy that I'm being now, right?

But it was one of those jobs where I was just like, oh, this can be the one where I can actually just like shed all the reputation that I kind of built up at Docker Media and Deadspin and go into something where I can be treated seriously and I don't have to be the guy that I'm being now, right?

But it was one of those jobs where I was just like, oh, this can be the one where I can actually just like shed all the reputation that I kind of built up at Docker Media and Deadspin and go into something where I can be treated seriously and I don't have to be the guy that I'm being now, right?