Alaina Urquhart

Yeah.

In one of his earliest memories, Nilsen recalled being brought into the house during the funeral to view his grandfather's body.

He said granddad was wearing glasses and expensive long johns.

He was barefooted and needed a shave.

He looked as if he was sleeping.

Many years later, Dennis would trace his pathology back to this event.

He wrote, Oh, man.

Man.

Which if he wasn't such a complete piece of shit, you'd be like, oh my God, that's so sad.

Yeah, you feel bad for the kid.

Exactly.

In the wake of his grandfather's death, Dennis became much more isolated.

He spent his free time by the water, watching the fishing boats come and go.

And during one of these occasions, he claimed to have walked into the ocean to try to end his life.

Oh, fuck.

But he was saved by an older boy who spotted him from the beach and pulled him back to shore.

Now, in his memoirs, he claimed that this savior of his potentially sexually assaulted him.

Oh.

But because he was unconscious at the time, he was unable to provide any details of the attack or his attacker.

Okay.