Alessandra

Kyllä, koska sinä tunnit paremmin. Sinun pitäisi olla tehnyt tutkimuksen. Minä yritin antaa heille hieman. Tämän päivän ajan, vuoden 2025 ja vuoden 2026, ja käydät kävelemällä komputeita ja pieniä pakkoja. Se on vaikeaa minulle, mutta ymmärrän myös, että ihmiset elävät vakuumiin. Luulen, että minä elän vakuumiin joskus. Mutta ihmiset eivät tiedä, että naisia on vain yksi hyvä viikko. Ovulaatio.

Is that the good week? Is that good? Because that's when we're most attracted to men. And that's the most disturbing time. Exactly. It's like we can't go without them during those couple days. I don't know. I don't know that that's a good week. You're right. Yeah. So we have no good weeks. Ovulation is when supposedly we have like the most energy. We're feeling the most confident in our bodies. Is that right? Yeah.

Okei. On hyvä tietää. Mä tarkastelen periodini ja sitten tarkastelen, kun minulla on seksiä. Oho. Jotta voin tietää, jos se on se, mikä seurasi tai mitä. Oho, minun pitäisi tehdä sitä, kyllä. Ja sinä tarkastelet, kun sinulla on seksiä myös?

Koska minä en ole peruskontrollissa mitenkään. Ei mitenkään. Minä jatkan koko päivän. Ja vaikka minä olen noin 35-vuotiaana, tiedät mitä minä tarkoitan? Ja olen pitkällä liikennettä. Ja vaikka minä olen noin 35-vuotiaana, tiedät mitä minä olen pitkällä liikennettä. Ja vaikka minä olen pitkällä liikennettä.

I guess it's a weird feeling because like this time last year I had just gone out of like a really big depression like 2023 was like rough for me and then I went on antidepressants 2024 was good then I think it was it's just the state of the world honestly for this year like life has been I think just really heavy we collectively have had a really hard 2025 I do want to get into it at all well our work

is personal like your work is your personal life and I work.

so intimately with you that your personal life becomes mine in a way, but it 100% is my work life. So that affects me too on top of everything else. It's not just that by any means. It's just the beginning of the year. I mean, shocked all of us. I think that threw us off all of our accesses. No doubt. Q1 was going really well until we just hit Q2 and then all of a sudden shit hit the fan for everybody in all ways. It wasn't just...

like one specific catalyst but i think it just well well it's hard we had just gone into a flow like a rhythm right like we had had like a few months solid of like our recordings and we were like in a rhythm we were getting ahead we weren't like doing quick turnarounds we weren't like on planes every other week we weren't going to new york every week yeah we were we were getting a rhythm and then suddenly you get thrown off your access and you know it kind of affects you and then for me the majority of my i think like

I feel a responsibility not to drag you guys into what could be negative right so like.

If I have an opinion, and I'm very opinionated and very strong in my opinion. I know that, but I don't know if anybody else knows that. I think they know. And even when I try to be subtle, there's nothing subtle about me or my opinions. So for a long time...

I was able to balance that and then the state of the world became what it was and I felt like I had to be quiet. I didn't know how to engage with what's going on and how I was feeling productively and also in a way that wouldn't affect the other people we're connected to because I feel like

If I just started openly talking about how I feel really deeply, politically, societally, all these things, I mean, they're strong opinions, and people have opinions about those opinions. And it's really hard to swallow that and absorb it a lot. And it's not just because of your stuff, I think it's overall reaching, but you get death threats on the internet. You get told that you're a horrible person, or that you're stupid, or you're wrong, and

Se vaikuttaa henkilöksi, ja sitten minulla oli ystävyysrajoitus. Koko yritys vaihtoi, dynamici vaihtoi, ja luulen, että minulla tuli seuraava kohta, jossa en pystynyt näyttämään toisistaan. Niin kuin platformissa. Mutta se on...

Intention behind why I wanted to start a podcast or even beyond social media, it was really far away from the goalpost where I was at. I drifted far away with whatever my intention was. Yeah.

It's hard because I don't really even know how to put it into words. People are like, you're not directly threatened by what's going on. But to constantly every single day be bombarded with news information of families that look like me, sound like me, have the same last name as me, be ripped apart, and...

Just disgusting violent rhetoric. I mean, I really don't want to cry because of my makeup. We have to go later tonight. But I mean, Alligator Alcatraz was really, really hard for me that moment in time watching people take pictures and have merch and stand outside what I would call a modern day concentration camp and celebrate that that is happening. It's really hard for me. And to be quite frank, I was really angry for like four or five months of the year. I literally have chills.

And I don't know where to place that. Because I do, like we were saying in the beginning of the conversation, I understand that people come from spaces where they're not educated or they don't have the access to information or they live in a vacuum. And they're ultimately, I don't want to say brainwashed, but it's all a power play, no matter what side you're on. The information is given to you for a reason, to keep you uneducated, sick.

No have no money, no power, no vote, like say. And so the anger, I didn't know where to place it. Like I really didn't want to place it on people, but it was really, really hard for me. Like it was hard for me to have conversations with people. Like I didn't go to holidays last year because I was so distraught and I didn't want to engage in these conversations because I want them to be productive. And I didn't know where to place that anger, truly. And I'm still having problems, like struggles with it.

Kun puhun, tarkoitan, että haluan mitä tahansa, mitä haluan kaikille. Se ei ole vain, että lapset eivät mene syömyksiä, että ihmiset saavat terveydenhuoltoa ja ihan helppoa asiaa. Haluan sitä kaikille. Jopa jos et näytä kuin minä, jos et usko, jos et usko siitä, mitä uskon. Siinä tuntuu, miten ero on ja siksi minua joutuu miettimään. Ymmärrän, että minulla on vahvaa mielipiteitä, mutta yritän, erityisesti kun olen vanhempi,

tuoda näitä arvoja niin, että ne voivat olla mahdollisimman arvokkaita. En tunne, että se on aina asia ihmisten kanssa, jotka ovat erilaisia arvoja kuin minä. Mielestäni se menee ympäri puolta.