Alessandra

I was able to balance that and then the state of the world became what it was and I felt like I had to be quiet. I didn't know how to engage with what's going on and how I was feeling productively and also in a way that wouldn't affect the other people we're connected to because I feel like

If I just started openly talking about how I feel really deeply, politically, societally, all these things, I mean, they're strong opinions, and people have opinions about those opinions. And it's really hard to swallow that and absorb it a lot. And it's not just because of your stuff, I think it's overall reaching, but you get death threats on the internet. You get told that you're a horrible person, or that you're stupid, or you're wrong, and

Se vaikuttaa henkilöksi, ja sitten minulla oli ystävyysrajoitus. Koko yritys vaihtoi, dynamici vaihtoi, ja luulen, että minulla tuli seuraava kohta, jossa en pystynyt näyttämään toisistaan. Niin kuin platformissa. Mutta se on...

Intention behind why I wanted to start a podcast or even beyond social media, it was really far away from the goalpost where I was at. I drifted far away with whatever my intention was. Yeah.

It's hard because I don't really even know how to put it into words. People are like, you're not directly threatened by what's going on. But to constantly every single day be bombarded with news information of families that look like me, sound like me, have the same last name as me, be ripped apart, and...

Just disgusting violent rhetoric. I mean, I really don't want to cry because of my makeup. We have to go later tonight. But I mean, Alligator Alcatraz was really, really hard for me that moment in time watching people take pictures and have merch and stand outside what I would call a modern day concentration camp and celebrate that that is happening. It's really hard for me. And to be quite frank, I was really angry for like four or five months of the year. I literally have chills.

And I don't know where to place that. Because I do, like we were saying in the beginning of the conversation, I understand that people come from spaces where they're not educated or they don't have the access to information or they live in a vacuum. And they're ultimately, I don't want to say brainwashed, but it's all a power play, no matter what side you're on. The information is given to you for a reason, to keep you uneducated, sick.

No have no money, no power, no vote, like say. And so the anger, I didn't know where to place it. Like I really didn't want to place it on people, but it was really, really hard for me. Like it was hard for me to have conversations with people. Like I didn't go to holidays last year because I was so distraught and I didn't want to engage in these conversations because I want them to be productive. And I didn't know where to place that anger, truly. And I'm still having problems, like struggles with it.

Kun puhun, tarkoitan, että haluan mitä tahansa, mitä haluan kaikille. Se ei ole vain, että lapset eivät mene syömyksiä, että ihmiset saavat terveydenhuoltoa ja ihan helppoa asiaa. Haluan sitä kaikille. Jopa jos et näytä kuin minä, jos et usko, jos et usko siitä, mitä uskon. Siinä tuntuu, miten ero on ja siksi minua joutuu miettimään. Ymmärrän, että minulla on vahvaa mielipiteitä, mutta yritän, erityisesti kun olen vanhempi,

tuoda näitä arvoja niin, että ne voivat olla mahdollisimman arvokkaita. En tunne, että se on aina asia ihmisten kanssa, jotka ovat erilaisia arvoja kuin minä. Mielestäni se menee ympäri puolta.

There are things that I... There's full ground stop morality things. I don't like pepperoni on my pizza. That's an opinion. Do you know what I mean? And when your opinions or...

miten ideologiat ja asioita, joita sanoit, jos ne vahvistavat minun omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa omaa

Changes in our country and our laws and in the way that our society is going to run for a really long time. It's not just like in this moment. It's going to have impact for generations to come. And that's really hard for me to swallow. I mean, the Supreme Court literally ruled that ICE can take somebody just off the streets for just speaking Spanish or looking like they could speak Spanish. People think I'm being overdramatic by carrying my passport around. I'm not being overdramatic. I'm just not.

It's happening to people. And I think that that's really hard for me too. And I really, instead of fighting, because I used to be a keyboard warrior, and I used to be yelling all the time. And that's exhausting and draining. And to who? Like you said, they're not willing to listen. So I'm just yelling to an empty void. As a brown woman, how do you feel about

black and brown people with platforms not speaking up about this um it's convoluted because especially if we're talking about black people and black women specifically like they need a rest like i don't think it's their job right now to be advocating or educating because they did and look at what keeps happening like they're the ones who showed up at the polls at like

ja valitseminen, mielestäni, olisi hyödyllistä muiden naisille, muiden ihmisille ja yhteiskunnalle. Joten luulen, että heidän pitäisi pysyä huolta. Ja myös siksi, että kuten sanoin, se on todella vaarallista. Meillä on sydäntä. Se voi olla vaarallista, erityisesti jos olet rauhassa. Voin ymmärtää, miksi ihmiset eivät, mutta se tuntuu minulle todella epäloitavalta. Se on todella vaarallista minulle. Minä käsittelen siitä, mutta minä ymmärrän, miksi ihmiset eivät. Minä ymmärrän. Mutta minä luulen, että jos sinä et ole edellinen vaarassa tai...

I can't expect you to speak up because there is a risk there. But I also think that people, I don't know, like I don't know what it is. I go back and forth because I do think like with a platform comes privilege and I think people should use their privilege to help others like just in general, like in the broad sense of the word. And then when it comes to white people talking about things that they feel like they shouldn't.

Itse asiassa teillä on enemmän voimaa, koska vanhemmat ovat parempia kuulemaan vanhemmista. Tiedät, mitä tarkoitan? Mutta olen myös iso suosittelija siitä, ettei puhuta asioista, joita et tiedä. Jos tuntuu, että puhutaan jotain, joka on enemmän vaikeaa kuin hyvä, koska et ole tarpeeksi opettunut, ettei sinulla ole tarpeeksi tietoa, jotta ihmiset voivat olla opettuneita.

I really don't think people should talk because that also causes issues with a ton of misinformation that's constantly spread. And that rhetoric can also be dangerous too. So it's complicated. I don't think there is one right answer, but I do feel like if you have a platform, you should at some, I should know.

minun tukeminen siitä, mitä he uskallavat, vaikka et puhu sitä suoraan. Ei tarvitse protestoida, ei tarvitse rauhoittaa, ei tarvitse puhua siitä koko ajan. Mutta minun pitäisi pystyä kertomaan teidän sisällänne tai jotain, mitä olette sanoneet, että tämä on turvallinen paikka minulle, ja että minä keskityn ihmisiin online ja tukeminen heitä ja laittamiseen rahoja, joita minä yhdistän. Minä uskon siitä. Ja ihmiset eivät puhu siitä, koska on rahaa.