Alex Cooper

Matt was in so much shock that I was able to wait as long as I did to tell him.

And he felt so bad.

He was like,

How did you keep this to yourself for as long as you did?

Like, you could have told me.

I feel horrible.

And I will say, and I told him this, I said, listen, listen, sweetheart.

Although those four days felt like a bit of torture, I am now able to look back and be so grateful for the time that I had to genuinely sit with my thoughts and my feelings.

I was able to kind of

I don't know, like slow myself down, which I'm so bad at.

And I think it really gave me this period of time where it felt like the world stopped.

And in those four days, I remember having thoughts about how excited I was for this pregnancy because I feel like...

I am someone who really loves to push myself and challenge myself, and I want to evolve, and I think it's so important to grow and change as a human being.

And there was something so transformative with envisioning this new chapter for, yes, Matt and I as a family.

but also individually myself as a woman.

How will this change me?

What new perspectives will this give me?

I'm not someone who has grown up from a very young age and envisioned having children.

I just didn't.

And so how will this impact my identity?