Alexis Fernandez-Preiksa

So I started, and the reason when I realized that it was actually like a big problem is that one day I went, I sat down to record when it was just audio recording, no video.

And I was like, where's, where's the vape, that fucking black ice.

If anyone like fucking, if you know, you know, that's now I smell it.

And I'm like, anyway, so, and I was looking, looking, looking for it everywhere.

And

Then I started realising, I don't know how long I've been looking for this vape, but it's more than a couple of minutes and this is ridiculous because that is a compulsion now.

I'm acting like as if I can't record this fucking episode without this vape, which is crazy.

So I thought...

I don't want that.

I don't want this addiction.

I will never again vape ever again on my own.

Okay.

And I think because I wanted it so badly and I really didn't like that.

It was a slippery slope.

I never did it again.

I never vaped alone again, but I was vaping socially for a good year after that.

And this brilliant thing that happened,

um that fully cut the vaping thing for me and it was like sometimes you just need one big thing to turn you off and sometimes it requires all this conscious so obviously this association thing with not vaping alone ever again that required a lot of conscious effort it wasn't an addiction but it was going to get there so i was like okay i'm i'm never going to do that again if i have the if i'm about to have the podcast i'm going to make myself a coffee and i'm going to have the coffee there and that's going to be the thing that i'm like kind of sipping on and whatever because when i used to record my episodes it wasn't in one long stretch i'd record a bit pause

vape or have a coffee or whatever, record, pause.

So it was a lot easier to like eat, drink, whatever, when I wasn't filming it.