Alexis Fernandez-Preiksa

I don't want you to ever think, I just wish I had an answer.

I just wish.

The answer is he didn't want a future with you.

It fucking sucks that he didn't want to discuss that with you and work through it.

But that's the conclusion he came to.

And at the end of the day, no matter how much we love someone, we're not inside their head.

We don't know how they're operating.

We don't know how they came to that conclusion.

But he came to that conclusion and he did it in a way where you wouldn't have the opportunity to fight for it, which means that he was sure.

So bon fucking voyage, motherfucker.

like peace and fucking blessings for your future.

But I need to step the fuck away from this.

I need to draw a fucking line in the sand and I need to tell myself it is done.

It is over.

And then you begin to heal.

So it's not about suppressing your emotions or not feeling it, but make sure that all your emotions are about the fact that you're grieving it.

Not, I want closure.

I want hope that he'll come back or maybe heal this or maybe that.

You need to kill

Hope dead, dead in the water, dead, dead, dead.