Allegra

I don't blame other women if I heard my situation on a different person.

I would say you couldn't have known.

It's not your fault.

But internally, it's a lot harder for me to say that to myself.

I wasn't being discerning enough, in my opinion, at that time frame with who I was willing to give a chance to.

And now I'm much more cautious and much more discerning.

Yeah, and both things can be true, right?

That I was seeking the wrong things from the wrong people and he was a scumbag.

I was tolerating this oral sex, not enjoying myself in a closet on a bed with a man that I had just met in person.

And then all of a sudden his penis is out and it's very close to my vagina.

And so I said, what are you doing?

I don't recall if he really responded.

He kind of blew me off.

In that moment, I was trying to remind him, we talked about this.

I don't want to go any further.

And then just like that, he was penetrating me.

And very quickly after putting himself inside of me, he got on top of me and put the heels of his hands together over my throat and put his full upper body weight so I couldn't breathe.

But it wasn't like a traditional strangling so that it wouldn't leave feelings.

fingerprint bruises that we see with a lot of regular manual strangulation, it was pushing down on my trachea.

So I was no longer able to breathe, say no, cry out for help since there were a lot of other people in this house.