Allie Harding

And a lot of it was me just feeling bad for myself and kind of poor me mentality.

It was easier to be sad than it was to look at the bad parts of myself.

And so I never chose to.

Two days, it's my like eight year anniversary of my last attempt.

And something happened that I've kind of stopped talking about because it's an intimate story.

But I've kind of flipped my mentality that day.

And I took six months by myself and I journaled everything.

I wrote down every bad thing I've ever done, how I felt.

And every time I had a negative thought about myself, I'd sit in the mirror for hours and try and rewrite these ideas that I have of myself.

So it was a lot of internal work that I had to do and a lot of facing the bad parts of myself to realize what I needed to work on.

nice i want to do that exercise writing down every bad thing i've done i feel like that's uh important because we kind of just put in the back of our head yeah because you don't want to look at it i mean that's a bad part of yourself it's a part that you're not proud of but the more you face it the more comfortable you get with it and you can realize why you did it and then make sure to not make the mistake again you know a lot of people will just be like oh it wasn't my fault it wasn't my fault but i'm like then you're never gonna get better you're still gonna have that like

feeling that you've had that you're not proud of and you're going to continue it until you finally face it.

Yeah, it's not my fault.

Not my fault.

And I feel like that's why a lot of people have the mental health issues that they do is because it's so much easier to just blame the hard times on other people and the way that they handled and went about things and I deserve better and

But how are you showing up in your relationships, friendships, and to yourself?

I mean, you don't talk nicely to yourself.

How are you going to expect anyone else to want to do the same thing?

Yeah, and it should be.

Yeah.