Amanda Zambor

Beyond a reasonable doubt of every single count, of all the enhancements, of all the special circumstances.

You see things on TV and you think, well, that's television.

That couldn't possibly happen in such a way in real life, but it was actually probably more horrifying.

The stacks of binders of pictures from the crime scene

The piles of evidence that we went through, hearing the accounts of the story, the more evidence that came out in how meticulous and precise his actions were, how things leading up to that, like going through the junior police academy and how well he did at that.

And he was a smart kid, really smart kid.

It had a long-term effect that I wasn't really thinking would happen.

To this day, I cannot fall asleep without sleeping my face towards the door, the bedroom door.

I can't turn my back on the door to this day.

Explain that to me.

Because he came through a window that he cut the screen out of,

through the living room, but then came into their bedroom door.

And so I just, I see that as this thing that I have to keep my eye on until I fall asleep.

Yes.

Because of that, you know, that immediate thought to see something, this grave, the immediate thought is that somebody would have to be insane to do something like this.

They'd have to be out of their mind.

But then again, when you go back and you hear him speak,

about just how happy and enthused that this made him, that he was laughing the whole way home and giggling and wanted to relive it and kept these mementos.

And to see it up close is powerful.

It was just really clear that he was not insane.