Amika Mota

Um...

I mean, I felt very grateful to be alive.

And I feel like, I don't know, I felt like I was allowed to live at the sake of his life.

The thing that always will stick with me is the judge just talking about letting me know that this was not about rehabilitation.

This was about punishment.

It wasn't like there was no hope, but kind of like that.

It felt like there was a message in there that I was not redeemable.

Coming back from sentencing, I was walked through the jail.

And when I was brought into my unit, you know, there was about 32 other women that I'd been with for that last year.

So I walked in.

Everybody was waiting to see what had happened.

And I fell to my knees and I screamed.

And, you know, 10 years.

Just 10 years, 10 years, 10 years.

This one I have so much to say to each of you, but I can't put it all on paper now.

I'm waiting for the prison bus.

They come every Sunday to pick up the girls that are waiting to go to prison.

So any Sunday now I could go.

I'll have a new address and a new prisoner number.

Every day now is a day closer to seeing you all.