Amy Griffin
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222 appearances
2 recordings
2 series
first heard Mar 2025
last heard Mar 2025
Amy Griffin’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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Like, did it feel like a release? It felt like I was finally coming home to myself.
It was all there. It was all there. And what I said was, I said to the woman I was working with, how long does this take before it works? Because before I said anything, how long does this whole thing take? I wanted control. I wanted to know, tell me what's going to happen. Give me a playbook. I'll play by the rules. I'll make it perfect. I'll do this.
And that was the moment where I realized there was no perfect. This was about me. And I got to have this moment for myself. And I turned inwards and I just said, she said, it'll take a while. Just settle in and relax and take some deep breaths. And I said, you know, no, I'm ready to go. And I think that was also really powerful for me.
I've done a lot of work around the idea that this was five minutes in. And I've been told by my doctor that I've worked with for many years, Amy, this wasn't the drug. This wasn't the drug. This was you. And I think I've tried very hard to make sure that I don't give the drug too much credit because that would be doing myself a disservice. I can say I was really vulnerable then.
I was very vulnerable. And I'm so proud of that word. I think vulnerable should be the new word for power, right? Think about our world that we're living in right now. If everything was a bit more vulnerable, right?
It was... Every fiber of my being knew the movements of this person, the arm fold, the way this person walked, the way that I both trusted and was fearful of this person. And I was able to both be in my adult brain and recognize how I had missed and not connected the dots of what had gone on in my childhood. Because as a child, those things were too difficult to comprehend.
Those things were actions and words and body parts that I had never heard of. And they were too complex. And so I recognized and immediately, had such deep compassion for that other me, for that younger me. Like right in that moment, it was almost like I'd split myself in two halves and I connected myself again. I reconnected to myself.
And sometimes I think of it like a Mr. Potato Head, I guess you could say. I think of like a piece of my brain snapping in and reconnecting. And then there was this immense feeling of power within myself, not power from anyone else, this gratitude and power that I was doing something that was the most authentic thing kernel of who I was. And also this reason for knowing why I'm here.
Yes, and then I very quickly had... Not to gloss over that. Yes. Just take that in. But then I had so many memories of... That I have... I had daily, every day of my life. Of this person telling me I was a leader. And I think it's really interesting. The life that I've built... then inherently I am a leader.
And I look back when I turned to my friend, my best friend, and I said, I'm going to run for student council president. And I said, but girls don't win. I know that. Maybe I should run for secretary because I'm a good worker bee. I can take the notes. And I didn't win. But to then be told, I'm sorry, I mean, you didn't win, but you are the real leader of this school.
Yeah.
But don't you see, he played into the most authentic part of myself. And it was only in me being able to go back and in time and recognize that reconnection with that's okay. I am a leader. I know that about myself. And now I can really be the leader that the world, that I need to go out and be for others.
And so that's where there's this joy, compassion, gratitude, all the feelings that I keep going back to that I have now in that there is purpose in this. I don't know why it happened. I wish it hadn't happened. There are so many people who I know have probably suffered far worse than I have. And there are people that have suffered things that I don't think that they will think matter.
And I want to say it does. Not what happened to me, but there are little things. And that's where, I mean, hundreds of people in my life before the book has even come out have come to me to say, you know,
I never really acknowledged X thing happening in any capacity in their life and saying, I really reframed that and I thought about it and now I processed it and I either went to the person or I decided I didn't need to go to the person, but I dealt with it.
Well, let me just also have a gratitude moment for my parents. Because you're right, my life could have turned out very differently.
Well, let me just also have a gratitude moment for my parents. Because you're right, my life could have turned out very differently. And I think it's so important as parents, for every parent watching this and listening to this, that my parents did everything right. Everything right. They were incredible humans.
The telling of this to them, which was part of the story, in some ways, again, the secret... of all of this from the people that are closest to you is the hardest part of the story, right? The memories of everything that happened to me are one thing. I am so proud of myself for the fact that I just survived it and lived it. So you say how did it impact me?
There are moments when I think about how I was driving recently I was driving in the countryside and I kind of got lost. And then I realized I wasn't in GPS rate. I mean, my phone wasn't working. And so I was taking a picture of a mailbox to try to find my way home. And I, for the first time, started laughing. And I kind of was turning the car around. I was getting lost.
And then I looked out and I kept driving. And I thought, you know, I'm visiting. I'm doing all the things in my life. I'm going to the places that I think I escaped to in my brain when everything was happening to me. Because inherently, I wanted to go on and be and see and do and create and be a part of things.
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