Amy Griffin

And I think a combination of things at the time was I had, you know, I had children that were of the ages that I was when what happened to me. And I also was of an age where my children were a little bit older. I wasn't having to worry about making sure they didn't fall in the swimming pool.

And I think a combination of things at the time was I had, you know, I had children that were of the ages that I was when what happened to me. And I also was of an age where my children were a little bit older. I wasn't having to worry about making sure they didn't fall in the swimming pool.

And I wasn't, it wasn't like, you know, hand to hand, like making sure that they didn't fall down the stairs. So my brain had maybe a bit more space. And I think that I also can definitely pinpoint the relationships in my life. I have an incredible partner. It had been a partner, husband of 20 years who made me feel safe every day for 20 years.

And I wasn't, it wasn't like, you know, hand to hand, like making sure that they didn't fall down the stairs. So my brain had maybe a bit more space. And I think that I also can definitely pinpoint the relationships in my life. I have an incredible partner. It had been a partner, husband of 20 years who made me feel safe every day for 20 years.

And I think that that relationship really allowed me to unwind and to say, okay, you know, I have all these pieces in my life that feel secure. And so I'm able to go in and really acknowledge what went on. And so the decision is,

And I think that that relationship really allowed me to unwind and to say, okay, you know, I have all these pieces in my life that feel secure. And so I'm able to go in and really acknowledge what went on. And so the decision is,

to use psychedelics and to use MDMA was something that was a simple decision, but I realized what a big moment it was for me to take that pill and swallow the pill because, by the way, for everyone in my life, it's a huge deal once every six months when I might have a margarita or a glass of wine. I just don't really like alcohol. I don't even like coffee. I don't like alcohol.

to use psychedelics and to use MDMA was something that was a simple decision, but I realized what a big moment it was for me to take that pill and swallow the pill because, by the way, for everyone in my life, it's a huge deal once every six months when I might have a margarita or a glass of wine. I just don't really like alcohol. I don't even like coffee. I don't like alcohol.

You know, maybe it's the part of my life in trying to be in control. But so it was really a big step. It was sort of the idea of taking a pill was this idea that so many factors in my life had come around to give myself permission. So I think the psychedelic piece, and I am so grateful for it. And I do want to talk about that. I want to talk about what that looked like.

You know, maybe it's the part of my life in trying to be in control. But so it was really a big step. It was sort of the idea of taking a pill was this idea that so many factors in my life had come around to give myself permission. So I think the psychedelic piece, and I am so grateful for it. And I do want to talk about that. I want to talk about what that looked like.

But for me, it was this combination of factors that I've worked really hard to recognize that I'm the one that got myself to this place to do the work. and to use the psychedelic-assisted therapy to help me get to a new place that I don't know in other conditions what I have gotten to had I not gone ahead and said, okay, I'm ready.

But for me, it was this combination of factors that I've worked really hard to recognize that I'm the one that got myself to this place to do the work. and to use the psychedelic-assisted therapy to help me get to a new place that I don't know in other conditions what I have gotten to had I not gone ahead and said, okay, I'm ready.

To put the eye shades on, to go inward, and to say, you know, you talked about these feelings of control and perfection that we all have as women and as humans. And those are all external factors. Those are all factors we feel when we want others to see us, we wanna be loved, we want them to reciprocate by saying, I see you, you're important, you've done this, you've done that.

To put the eye shades on, to go inward, and to say, you know, you talked about these feelings of control and perfection that we all have as women and as humans. And those are all external factors. Those are all factors we feel when we want others to see us, we wanna be loved, we want them to reciprocate by saying, I see you, you're important, you've done this, you've done that.

But this was a moment where none of that mattered. I went completely inward and I made the decision that I was going to first work on myself without recognizing the processes, which I'm sure we'll talk about, of what that would entail after in my life to then pick up the pieces to better all of my relationships in my life.

But this was a moment where none of that mattered. I went completely inward and I made the decision that I was going to first work on myself without recognizing the processes, which I'm sure we'll talk about, of what that would entail after in my life to then pick up the pieces to better all of my relationships in my life.

I want to say one piece on the MDMA that I think is really important, and that is, and I hadn't thought about this when I went in to experience it, is that I realized I didn't know how significant the unwinding would be for me in terms of all that I would remember and allow myself to have compassion with MDMA to experience.

I want to say one piece on the MDMA that I think is really important, and that is, and I hadn't thought about this when I went in to experience it, is that I realized I didn't know how significant the unwinding would be for me in terms of all that I would remember and allow myself to have compassion with MDMA to experience.

such that, you know, the MDMA experience is one thing in my case, but on the other end of it, what you need to make sure that you're taken care of and that you have the resources, whether it's a friend who can listen or the time to process it, is something that you really have to know what you're getting into.

such that, you know, the MDMA experience is one thing in my case, but on the other end of it, what you need to make sure that you're taken care of and that you have the resources, whether it's a friend who can listen or the time to process it, is something that you really have to know what you're getting into.