Amy Griffin

Like, did it feel like a release? It felt like I was finally coming home to myself.

Like, did it feel like a release? It felt like I was finally coming home to myself.

It was all there. It was all there. And what I said was, I said to the woman I was working with, how long does this take before it works? Because before I said anything, how long does this whole thing take? I wanted control. I wanted to know, tell me what's going to happen. Give me a playbook. I'll play by the rules. I'll make it perfect. I'll do this.

It was all there. It was all there. And what I said was, I said to the woman I was working with, how long does this take before it works? Because before I said anything, how long does this whole thing take? I wanted control. I wanted to know, tell me what's going to happen. Give me a playbook. I'll play by the rules. I'll make it perfect. I'll do this.

And that was the moment where I realized there was no perfect. This was about me. And I got to have this moment for myself. And I turned inwards and I just said, she said, it'll take a while. Just settle in and relax and take some deep breaths. And I said, you know, no, I'm ready to go. And I think that was also really powerful for me.

And that was the moment where I realized there was no perfect. This was about me. And I got to have this moment for myself. And I turned inwards and I just said, she said, it'll take a while. Just settle in and relax and take some deep breaths. And I said, you know, no, I'm ready to go. And I think that was also really powerful for me.

I've done a lot of work around the idea that this was five minutes in. And I've been told by my doctor that I've worked with for many years, Amy, this wasn't the drug. This wasn't the drug. This was you. And I think I've tried very hard to make sure that I don't give the drug too much credit because that would be doing myself a disservice. I can say I was really vulnerable then.

I've done a lot of work around the idea that this was five minutes in. And I've been told by my doctor that I've worked with for many years, Amy, this wasn't the drug. This wasn't the drug. This was you. And I think I've tried very hard to make sure that I don't give the drug too much credit because that would be doing myself a disservice. I can say I was really vulnerable then.

I was very vulnerable. And I'm so proud of that word. I think vulnerable should be the new word for power, right? Think about our world that we're living in right now. If everything was a bit more vulnerable, right?

I was very vulnerable. And I'm so proud of that word. I think vulnerable should be the new word for power, right? Think about our world that we're living in right now. If everything was a bit more vulnerable, right?

It was... Every fiber of my being knew the movements of this person, the arm fold, the way this person walked, the way that I both trusted and was fearful of this person. And I was able to both be in my adult brain and recognize how I had missed and not connected the dots of what had gone on in my childhood. Because as a child, those things were too difficult to comprehend.

It was... Every fiber of my being knew the movements of this person, the arm fold, the way this person walked, the way that I both trusted and was fearful of this person. And I was able to both be in my adult brain and recognize how I had missed and not connected the dots of what had gone on in my childhood. Because as a child, those things were too difficult to comprehend.

Those things were actions and words and body parts that I had never heard of. And they were too complex. And so I recognized and immediately, had such deep compassion for that other me, for that younger me. Like right in that moment, it was almost like I'd split myself in two halves and I connected myself again. I reconnected to myself.

Those things were actions and words and body parts that I had never heard of. And they were too complex. And so I recognized and immediately, had such deep compassion for that other me, for that younger me. Like right in that moment, it was almost like I'd split myself in two halves and I connected myself again. I reconnected to myself.

And sometimes I think of it like a Mr. Potato Head, I guess you could say. I think of like a piece of my brain snapping in and reconnecting. And then there was this immense feeling of power within myself, not power from anyone else, this gratitude and power that I was doing something that was the most authentic thing kernel of who I was. And also this reason for knowing why I'm here.

And sometimes I think of it like a Mr. Potato Head, I guess you could say. I think of like a piece of my brain snapping in and reconnecting. And then there was this immense feeling of power within myself, not power from anyone else, this gratitude and power that I was doing something that was the most authentic thing kernel of who I was. And also this reason for knowing why I'm here.

Yes, and then I very quickly had... Not to gloss over that. Yes. Just take that in. But then I had so many memories of... That I have... I had daily, every day of my life. Of this person telling me I was a leader. And I think it's really interesting. The life that I've built... then inherently I am a leader.

Yes, and then I very quickly had... Not to gloss over that. Yes. Just take that in. But then I had so many memories of... That I have... I had daily, every day of my life. Of this person telling me I was a leader. And I think it's really interesting. The life that I've built... then inherently I am a leader.

And I look back when I turned to my friend, my best friend, and I said, I'm going to run for student council president. And I said, but girls don't win. I know that. Maybe I should run for secretary because I'm a good worker bee. I can take the notes. And I didn't win. But to then be told, I'm sorry, I mean, you didn't win, but you are the real leader of this school.

And I look back when I turned to my friend, my best friend, and I said, I'm going to run for student council president. And I said, but girls don't win. I know that. Maybe I should run for secretary because I'm a good worker bee. I can take the notes. And I didn't win. But to then be told, I'm sorry, I mean, you didn't win, but you are the real leader of this school.