Andrea Gibson

I don't know if now is the right time, but I had, I guess I'd call, I'm going to try not to be shy about what I call it, but a direct experience of the divine. I grew up in the Baptist church. And then when I came out as queer, I got sort of angsty and left that all behind. But it always had a relationship, I thought, with God in the way of God being love and whatever connects us all.

But when I got diagnosed for the first time in my life, I genuinely surrendered to what was. And that wasn't about giving up for me. Like I went into high active mode in regards to taking care of my body at that time. But surrendering for me felt like trusting the universe.

But when I got diagnosed for the first time in my life, I genuinely surrendered to what was. And that wasn't about giving up for me. Like I went into high active mode in regards to taking care of my body at that time. But surrendering for me felt like trusting the universe.

But when I got diagnosed for the first time in my life, I genuinely surrendered to what was. And that wasn't about giving up for me. Like I went into high active mode in regards to taking care of my body at that time. But surrendering for me felt like trusting the universe.

And as soon as I did that, it was almost like I caught this wave that I recognized as a wave that we were all supposed to be catching throughout our lives of just surrender. trust in whatever comes our way and not thinking of the challenges as not God. And something in that moment just opened up. And I felt for the next 11 months was almost in a constant state of bliss.

And as soon as I did that, it was almost like I caught this wave that I recognized as a wave that we were all supposed to be catching throughout our lives of just surrender. trust in whatever comes our way and not thinking of the challenges as not God. And something in that moment just opened up. And I felt for the next 11 months was almost in a constant state of bliss.

And as soon as I did that, it was almost like I caught this wave that I recognized as a wave that we were all supposed to be catching throughout our lives of just surrender. trust in whatever comes our way and not thinking of the challenges as not God. And something in that moment just opened up. And I felt for the next 11 months was almost in a constant state of bliss.

So anyway, the journey I have been, since I wasn't able to perform, I'm usually on tour most of the year. I just decided to share it all online and share it in my newsletter. And I was mostly sharing what I was discovering about joy. I was living in the state of astonishment and awe. And I credit the fact that my mortality with being the seed of that bliss.

So anyway, the journey I have been, since I wasn't able to perform, I'm usually on tour most of the year. I just decided to share it all online and share it in my newsletter. And I was mostly sharing what I was discovering about joy. I was living in the state of astonishment and awe. And I credit the fact that my mortality with being the seed of that bliss.

So anyway, the journey I have been, since I wasn't able to perform, I'm usually on tour most of the year. I just decided to share it all online and share it in my newsletter. And I was mostly sharing what I was discovering about joy. I was living in the state of astonishment and awe. And I credit the fact that my mortality with being the seed of that bliss.

And so I was sharing all along and I knew it was hard for people. in some ways, but I also wanted them to see what was happening in a positive way, how much healing was coming into my life from this thing that was supposed to be the opposite of healing.

And so I was sharing all along and I knew it was hard for people. in some ways, but I also wanted them to see what was happening in a positive way, how much healing was coming into my life from this thing that was supposed to be the opposite of healing.

And so I was sharing all along and I knew it was hard for people. in some ways, but I also wanted them to see what was happening in a positive way, how much healing was coming into my life from this thing that was supposed to be the opposite of healing.

But each time at this point, this would be the second time that I would have to tell folks because I had to tell them one time I had a recurrence and that was very hard. I had to cancel a whole world tour. And this time felt almost like it was going to be almost impossible to do. And I was really scared. I am really scared for people. the youth that follow me, especially.

But each time at this point, this would be the second time that I would have to tell folks because I had to tell them one time I had a recurrence and that was very hard. I had to cancel a whole world tour. And this time felt almost like it was going to be almost impossible to do. And I was really scared. I am really scared for people. the youth that follow me, especially.

But each time at this point, this would be the second time that I would have to tell folks because I had to tell them one time I had a recurrence and that was very hard. I had to cancel a whole world tour. And this time felt almost like it was going to be almost impossible to do. And I was really scared. I am really scared for people. the youth that follow me, especially.

A lot of my career, I've written about mental illness and suicidality. And so I know a lot of folks navigating that stuff come to my work. And so I was concerned about just saying, okay, y'all, it's back in this time. They're saying, there's not much we can do. But I thought that if I spoke to y'all about it, I could give it a richness of...

A lot of my career, I've written about mental illness and suicidality. And so I know a lot of folks navigating that stuff come to my work. And so I was concerned about just saying, okay, y'all, it's back in this time. They're saying, there's not much we can do. But I thought that if I spoke to y'all about it, I could give it a richness of...

A lot of my career, I've written about mental illness and suicidality. And so I know a lot of folks navigating that stuff come to my work. And so I was concerned about just saying, okay, y'all, it's back in this time. They're saying, there's not much we can do. But I thought that if I spoke to y'all about it, I could give it a richness of...

Just more of the truth, just more of the truth about it all, about the loving relationship that I have been trying to form with. my mortality for the last two years and how my hope throughout these last two years wasn't about living, though I would love to live. My hope was about doing this time with a wide, open heart, which I have done.