Andrea Gibson

So anyway, I've not had a lot of fear through this time. And so I read it. I see how everything in my body calms down. I go to grief and over the next three days before I talk to my doctor, I probably spent about eight hours solid every day singing Leonard Cohen's Hallelujah at the top of my lungs.

So anyway, I've not had a lot of fear through this time. And so I read it. I see how everything in my body calms down. I go to grief and over the next three days before I talk to my doctor, I probably spent about eight hours solid every day singing Leonard Cohen's Hallelujah at the top of my lungs.

So anyway, I've not had a lot of fear through this time. And so I read it. I see how everything in my body calms down. I go to grief and over the next three days before I talk to my doctor, I probably spent about eight hours solid every day singing Leonard Cohen's Hallelujah at the top of my lungs.

I just sang it over and over and over, except I would take breaks every now and then to scream, to scream, you are not going to break my fucking spirit to everything that hurt. Like I would just walk through the house screaming, you are not going to break my fucking spirit. Then I would dance to Ain't Nothing Gonna Break My Stride. which is such a great song.

I just sang it over and over and over, except I would take breaks every now and then to scream, to scream, you are not going to break my fucking spirit to everything that hurt. Like I would just walk through the house screaming, you are not going to break my fucking spirit. Then I would dance to Ain't Nothing Gonna Break My Stride. which is such a great song.

I just sang it over and over and over, except I would take breaks every now and then to scream, to scream, you are not going to break my fucking spirit to everything that hurt. Like I would just walk through the house screaming, you are not going to break my fucking spirit. Then I would dance to Ain't Nothing Gonna Break My Stride. which is such a great song.

People think it's so nerdy, but it's so good. And I was surprised. The thing that I was surprised by, and I think the thing that I've wanted to share, is that my whole life I had this terror. My whole life I had this idea that as soon as I got news like this, that I would just be in a cave all curled up and devastated and and having no access to joy.

People think it's so nerdy, but it's so good. And I was surprised. The thing that I was surprised by, and I think the thing that I've wanted to share, is that my whole life I had this terror. My whole life I had this idea that as soon as I got news like this, that I would just be in a cave all curled up and devastated and and having no access to joy.

People think it's so nerdy, but it's so good. And I was surprised. The thing that I was surprised by, and I think the thing that I've wanted to share, is that my whole life I had this terror. My whole life I had this idea that as soon as I got news like this, that I would just be in a cave all curled up and devastated and and having no access to joy.

And the thing that I've learned through these last two years is, God, I wasted so much time fearing the emotions that I would have in the future. And that fear that I had in the past is far more than what I'm experiencing right now. The present moment is far more doable than the future or the past. And so that happened. And then when I got in the doctorate,

And the thing that I've learned through these last two years is, God, I wasted so much time fearing the emotions that I would have in the future. And that fear that I had in the past is far more than what I'm experiencing right now. The present moment is far more doable than the future or the past. And so that happened. And then when I got in the doctorate,

And the thing that I've learned through these last two years is, God, I wasted so much time fearing the emotions that I would have in the future. And that fear that I had in the past is far more than what I'm experiencing right now. The present moment is far more doable than the future or the past. And so that happened. And then when I got in the doctorate,

I'm not someone who has historically been a big fan of Western medicine or big pharma or any of that. I've had a lot of questions about that. But when I first got diagnosed and they said, do chemo, I was like, this is what I'm doing. I'm going to just listen to what they say to do. And doing that has kept me alive for two years. And so I don't want to throw all of that out. I respect it.

I'm not someone who has historically been a big fan of Western medicine or big pharma or any of that. I've had a lot of questions about that. But when I first got diagnosed and they said, do chemo, I was like, this is what I'm doing. I'm going to just listen to what they say to do. And doing that has kept me alive for two years. And so I don't want to throw all of that out. I respect it.

I'm not someone who has historically been a big fan of Western medicine or big pharma or any of that. I've had a lot of questions about that. But when I first got diagnosed and they said, do chemo, I was like, this is what I'm doing. I'm going to just listen to what they say to do. And doing that has kept me alive for two years. And so I don't want to throw all of that out. I respect it.

I have loved my doctors. I've had two women oncologists at this point and both of them I loved. When I left my other doctor, it was almost like going through a breakup because I just adore them. But when I got into the appointment, it was so disheartening. It was like, these are your options. You can try these clinical trials.

I have loved my doctors. I've had two women oncologists at this point and both of them I loved. When I left my other doctor, it was almost like going through a breakup because I just adore them. But when I got into the appointment, it was so disheartening. It was like, these are your options. You can try these clinical trials.

I have loved my doctors. I've had two women oncologists at this point and both of them I loved. When I left my other doctor, it was almost like going through a breakup because I just adore them. But when I got into the appointment, it was so disheartening. It was like, these are your options. You can try these clinical trials.

They'll work in some people, or you can just choose to kind of live out the rest of your life and not be a cancer patient. And I don't want to say it's definitely terminal right away, just because they're saying it's incurable. For many people, they can still do treatments over time that can keep you alive for a while. They just come with

They'll work in some people, or you can just choose to kind of live out the rest of your life and not be a cancer patient. And I don't want to say it's definitely terminal right away, just because they're saying it's incurable. For many people, they can still do treatments over time that can keep you alive for a while. They just come with