Andrea Hollingsworth

And by the time I was 34, I had like arrived at the top of the mountain. I had gotten this tenure track job at Boston University and all my colleagues were like, how did you do it? And I was like, oh, you know, I love what I do and I work hard and I'm so passionate. All that was true. But what nobody else saw is that this inner critic was driving me all the time, all the time.

And by the time I was 34, I had like arrived at the top of the mountain. I had gotten this tenure track job at Boston University and all my colleagues were like, how did you do it? And I was like, oh, you know, I love what I do and I work hard and I'm so passionate. All that was true. But what nobody else saw is that this inner critic was driving me all the time, all the time.

And by the time I was 34, I had like arrived at the top of the mountain. I had gotten this tenure track job at Boston University and all my colleagues were like, how did you do it? And I was like, oh, you know, I love what I do and I work hard and I'm so passionate. All that was true. But what nobody else saw is that this inner critic was driving me all the time, all the time.

spiritual practices in the medieval era and modern day neuroscience. All right. I was putting those two things together. That was what I did. And, and the presentation went really, really well. I thought, except that the whole time there was this, this gray haired scholar in the front row and he was scowling.

spiritual practices in the medieval era and modern day neuroscience. All right. I was putting those two things together. That was what I did. And, and the presentation went really, really well. I thought, except that the whole time there was this, this gray haired scholar in the front row and he was scowling.

spiritual practices in the medieval era and modern day neuroscience. All right. I was putting those two things together. That was what I did. And, and the presentation went really, really well. I thought, except that the whole time there was this, this gray haired scholar in the front row and he was scowling.

And I remember I was thinking to myself, I don't think the Q and a is going to go very well because this guy, this guy, and I was right. He's at, when I was done, he stood up and he raised his hand and he said, excuse me, Did you consult the original Latin of the medieval text that you were referencing?

And I remember I was thinking to myself, I don't think the Q and a is going to go very well because this guy, this guy, and I was right. He's at, when I was done, he stood up and he raised his hand and he said, excuse me, Did you consult the original Latin of the medieval text that you were referencing?

And I remember I was thinking to myself, I don't think the Q and a is going to go very well because this guy, this guy, and I was right. He's at, when I was done, he stood up and he raised his hand and he said, excuse me, Did you consult the original Latin of the medieval text that you were referencing?

Because in the original Latin, it seems to indicate that, you know, and I don't even remember what he said, but he went on to undercut my entire argument based on the fact that I was relying on an English translation of this. I don't know Latin.

Because in the original Latin, it seems to indicate that, you know, and I don't even remember what he said, but he went on to undercut my entire argument based on the fact that I was relying on an English translation of this. I don't know Latin.

Because in the original Latin, it seems to indicate that, you know, and I don't even remember what he said, but he went on to undercut my entire argument based on the fact that I was relying on an English translation of this. I don't know Latin.

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So I handled it okay in the moment, but my inner critic, she sprang into action. She was like, why didn't you consult the original Latin? Because you don't know Latin, do you? You better get your ass in gear, girl. Like in addition to all the teaching and publishing and research and mentoring and blah, blah, blah, you better learn Latin now. And so I found myself like 3.30 a.m.

So I handled it okay in the moment, but my inner critic, she sprang into action. She was like, why didn't you consult the original Latin? Because you don't know Latin, do you? You better get your ass in gear, girl. Like in addition to all the teaching and publishing and research and mentoring and blah, blah, blah, you better learn Latin now. And so I found myself like 3.30 a.m.

So I handled it okay in the moment, but my inner critic, she sprang into action. She was like, why didn't you consult the original Latin? Because you don't know Latin, do you? You better get your ass in gear, girl. Like in addition to all the teaching and publishing and research and mentoring and blah, blah, blah, you better learn Latin now. And so I found myself like 3.30 a.m.

every single day, seven days a week, I'm up looking at my Latin flashcards. Mm-hmm. I burned out. I burned out at the age of 36. I walked away from my dream job at BU. And I sometimes wonder, you know, if I would have learned to give myself a little bit of grace. I mean, I'm all for high standards. Healthy striving is one thing.

every single day, seven days a week, I'm up looking at my Latin flashcards. Mm-hmm. I burned out. I burned out at the age of 36. I walked away from my dream job at BU. And I sometimes wonder, you know, if I would have learned to give myself a little bit of grace. I mean, I'm all for high standards. Healthy striving is one thing.