Andrew Hawkins

And the more that I kept it away from people, the more, not only was it secret keeping for me because I wasn't living an honest and open life, but I was missing out on the opportunity to help another person who could look at me. Cause on the outside I look bright and shiny and you, If they heard that I was a suicide survivor, maybe they would say, oh, my gosh, so what happened?

And the more that I kept it away from people, the more, not only was it secret keeping for me because I wasn't living an honest and open life, but I was missing out on the opportunity to help another person who could look at me. Cause on the outside I look bright and shiny and you, If they heard that I was a suicide survivor, maybe they would say, oh, my gosh, so what happened?

I mean, if that was 33 years ago and this guy looks pretty happy and like he has a pretty nice life and then they hear from me that I am pretty happy and I have a pretty nice life, then I get to tell them what happened. And what that transformational moment was for me, maybe it helps another person.

I mean, if that was 33 years ago and this guy looks pretty happy and like he has a pretty nice life and then they hear from me that I am pretty happy and I have a pretty nice life, then I get to tell them what happened. And what that transformational moment was for me, maybe it helps another person.

And what I have found, especially when I do things like this and I have conversations about my life with another human being in a public way, right? Listeners are, we will change someone's life, probably many, many people's lives just by having this conversation. I get stopped every single day by someone who thanks me because of something I said that helped them. a family member.

And what I have found, especially when I do things like this and I have conversations about my life with another human being in a public way, right? Listeners are, we will change someone's life, probably many, many people's lives just by having this conversation. I get stopped every single day by someone who thanks me because of something I said that helped them. a family member.

Well, you do start to benefit from it in such a regular way that it is like a lab mouse hitting that little dropper in the cage that rewards them in some way, whether it's with sugar water or whatever. Yeah, I mean, I'm an addictive person.

Well, you do start to benefit from it in such a regular way that it is like a lab mouse hitting that little dropper in the cage that rewards them in some way, whether it's with sugar water or whatever. Yeah, I mean, I'm an addictive person.

100%. Because I have not... And look... addiction swapping, which is something, as a recovering alcoholic and drug addict, I would tell – I mean I do tell newcomers we have to slow our lives down so we are not addiction swapping. Alcoholism and drug addiction will kill you faster than workaholism. But workaholism will kill your relationships, right?

100%. Because I have not... And look... addiction swapping, which is something, as a recovering alcoholic and drug addict, I would tell – I mean I do tell newcomers we have to slow our lives down so we are not addiction swapping. Alcoholism and drug addiction will kill you faster than workaholism. But workaholism will kill your relationships, right?

So you better tread lightly on those addiction swapping. You don't want to start picking up candy and cigarettes and putting down one thing and balloon up and get really sick. So I tell people – You know, what was told to me when I showed up, which was slow, slow it down. And I spent the first four or five years in slow mode. And then as my life started to build back up, I was able to.

So you better tread lightly on those addiction swapping. You don't want to start picking up candy and cigarettes and putting down one thing and balloon up and get really sick. So I tell people – You know, what was told to me when I showed up, which was slow, slow it down. And I spent the first four or five years in slow mode. And then as my life started to build back up, I was able to.

have some perspective on the things that I was starting to do on a more regular basis. So I could meter my workaholism. I could meter out the tie. I didn't want to be number one, a one trick pony. I also would, it would be very boring for me personally to live a life where I was just preaching all the time, but selectively, absolutely. Yes, I am. I am addicted to,

have some perspective on the things that I was starting to do on a more regular basis. So I could meter my workaholism. I could meter out the tie. I didn't want to be number one, a one trick pony. I also would, it would be very boring for me personally to live a life where I was just preaching all the time, but selectively, absolutely. Yes, I am. I am addicted to,

to the concept of gratitude, the way I get that way is by sharing my story and doing service work puts life in perspective for me. And service work saved my life.

to the concept of gratitude, the way I get that way is by sharing my story and doing service work puts life in perspective for me. And service work saved my life.

evicted from an apartment and and i and before that i don't know what your uh family situation was that would allow you to uh to be dabbling in drug use too early for most kids uh i mean the really short story is you know family of um a good family uh well off private school you know summer home i mean you know one percenters for sure um

evicted from an apartment and and i and before that i don't know what your uh family situation was that would allow you to uh to be dabbling in drug use too early for most kids uh i mean the really short story is you know family of um a good family uh well off private school you know summer home i mean you know one percenters for sure um

You know, I at a very early age, I already had the addictive personality and the way that manifested itself was in extreme selfishness and extreme selfish behavior. Everything was about me. Take, take, take, take, take. And, you know, when you're 10. being a user of people and a taker of things looks differently, you know, it's, you know, spoiled Brad. Okay. He's amusing. Nice.

You know, I at a very early age, I already had the addictive personality and the way that manifested itself was in extreme selfishness and extreme selfish behavior. Everything was about me. Take, take, take, take, take. And, you know, when you're 10. being a user of people and a taker of things looks differently, you know, it's, you know, spoiled Brad. Okay. He's amusing. Nice.