Andrew Hawkins

Uh, can he be tender and real at times? Absolutely. Uh, but mostly he's acting out of self, right? But loving home, discipline, home, Loving home. Parents trying their best. I mean, you know, kids don't come with instruction manuals. I'm well aware of that as a parent. But yeah, my parents tried the best they could. Did they have issues that were unresolved?

Uh, can he be tender and real at times? Absolutely. Uh, but mostly he's acting out of self, right? But loving home, discipline, home, Loving home. Parents trying their best. I mean, you know, kids don't come with instruction manuals. I'm well aware of that as a parent. But yeah, my parents tried the best they could. Did they have issues that were unresolved?

I mean, one of the things that I love about this new sort of mental health and wellness program.

I mean, one of the things that I love about this new sort of mental health and wellness program.

The moment that we seem to be having in this culture with so many people talking about it and telling folks it's OK to not be OK is that we're going to end some of the generational trauma that young people in my generation were victims of for sure, because our parents were told to stuff that bad feeling down. So when I ask.

The moment that we seem to be having in this culture with so many people talking about it and telling folks it's OK to not be OK is that we're going to end some of the generational trauma that young people in my generation were victims of for sure, because our parents were told to stuff that bad feeling down. So when I ask.

Had you arrived at your teens yet when you're using? Yes, I did. You're very insightful. The term discipline is really, really interesting. You know, there is a balance of affection and direction that I think we try to use with our kids. I got very little direction and a ton of affection, which is great. You want to be loved and feel loved, but without direction.

Had you arrived at your teens yet when you're using? Yes, I did. You're very insightful. The term discipline is really, really interesting. You know, there is a balance of affection and direction that I think we try to use with our kids. I got very little direction and a ton of affection, which is great. You want to be loved and feel loved, but without direction.

we can wander aimlessly and get into a lot of trouble. And if we are already predisposed to enjoy that trouble, you know, some people get into trouble. They're like, oh, my God, that was so uncomfortable. I don't want to go near that again. You know, I call it the tequila syndrome. They get drunk on sweet, bad margaritas at some point. They're like, I'm never touching tequila again. Right.

we can wander aimlessly and get into a lot of trouble. And if we are already predisposed to enjoy that trouble, you know, some people get into trouble. They're like, oh, my God, that was so uncomfortable. I don't want to go near that again. You know, I call it the tequila syndrome. They get drunk on sweet, bad margaritas at some point. They're like, I'm never touching tequila again. Right.

And I know adults like that. It's just like, nope, had a bad night with tequila once in high school or college. Like, don't do it. And I find it fascinating because this is in a way sort of describing what how normies are to people like me who are addicts and alcoholics. You know, I never would describe a bad. on drugs and alcohol. Because that was my wubby. That was my solution to things.

And I know adults like that. It's just like, nope, had a bad night with tequila once in high school or college. Like, don't do it. And I find it fascinating because this is in a way sort of describing what how normies are to people like me who are addicts and alcoholics. You know, I never would describe a bad. on drugs and alcohol. Because that was my wubby. That was my solution to things.

And once I found... You know, I had some situations in my life that I didn't want to have my brain be percolating on. You know, my mother got sick. My parents had divorced. I was nervous about high school. And I knew what would make me not feel that way was smoking weed and drinking. And very quickly, those two things did not... scratch the itch enough.

And once I found... You know, I had some situations in my life that I didn't want to have my brain be percolating on. You know, my mother got sick. My parents had divorced. I was nervous about high school. And I knew what would make me not feel that way was smoking weed and drinking. And very quickly, those two things did not... scratch the itch enough.

And so then it became pills and cocaine added into the mix. And then we added heroin into the mix and hallucinogenics and on and on and on. And by the time I got to college, you know, I was a full blown addict and alcoholic of immense proportions and actually had my first intake at a mental health center when I was 18 years old up in Poughkeepsie, New York. I went to Vassar College and

And so then it became pills and cocaine added into the mix. And then we added heroin into the mix and hallucinogenics and on and on and on. And by the time I got to college, you know, I was a full blown addict and alcoholic of immense proportions and actually had my first intake at a mental health center when I was 18 years old up in Poughkeepsie, New York. I went to Vassar College and

And they told me that I was chronic on the Jelinek scale, which is how they measure alcoholism and addiction, relatively quick 20 question test. And you answer yes to all those things. It's like, wow, you're at the full end of the scale at 18 years old. And but you can't tell an 18 year old that.

And they told me that I was chronic on the Jelinek scale, which is how they measure alcoholism and addiction, relatively quick 20 question test. And you answer yes to all those things. It's like, wow, you're at the full end of the scale at 18 years old. And but you can't tell an 18 year old that.

You know, their path is going to lead to, you know, jails, institutions and death, because at 18, we all think we're Superman. Right. So I just kept going and gradually over the course of the next 12 years until the time I was 30 and I got I got clean and. The elevator just kept going down through descending levels of, you know, Dante's circles of hell. I mean, it was just really, really awful.

You know, their path is going to lead to, you know, jails, institutions and death, because at 18, we all think we're Superman. Right. So I just kept going and gradually over the course of the next 12 years until the time I was 30 and I got I got clean and. The elevator just kept going down through descending levels of, you know, Dante's circles of hell. I mean, it was just really, really awful.