Andrew Hawkins

Looking back on it, I'm like, oh my gosh, there we go. That was something that I, as a friend, I realized that there were so many gifts. One of the things I have to practice is trying to find gifts. something that justifies sadness in life, when there's something like that.

Looking back on it, I'm like, oh my gosh, there we go. That was something that I, as a friend, I realized that there were so many gifts. One of the things I have to practice is trying to find gifts. something that justifies sadness in life, when there's something like that.

And it took me years to remember that what I need to be talking about when people ask me about Tony's death is not fetishizing it, it's not telling stories, oh, look at me, I was a friend of his and everybody, he was the most magnetic person I've ever met in my life. I mean, he is worshiped and rightfully so in a way that is reserved only for our greatest of people in our culture.

And it took me years to remember that what I need to be talking about when people ask me about Tony's death is not fetishizing it, it's not telling stories, oh, look at me, I was a friend of his and everybody, he was the most magnetic person I've ever met in my life. I mean, he is worshiped and rightfully so in a way that is reserved only for our greatest of people in our culture.

And very deservedly so. However, I have to also remember that rather than fetishizing that and talking about it in a way that makes me look good, I need to take the messages of what that experience taught me

And very deservedly so. However, I have to also remember that rather than fetishizing that and talking about it in a way that makes me look good, I need to take the messages of what that experience taught me

to help other people and there are so many things in there you asked before when we started this conversation about the things that motivate me to be more open and more revealing about my life it's not only because i don't want to go back to that really dark place where i was when i tried to take my own life but it's also because i can use those things to help other people

to help other people and there are so many things in there you asked before when we started this conversation about the things that motivate me to be more open and more revealing about my life it's not only because i don't want to go back to that really dark place where i was when i tried to take my own life but it's also because i can use those things to help other people

And, you know, I mentioned that an hour ago when we were talking, but it's really underscored when we talk about things like Tony's death, which, by the way, is one of the things we will look at. It's all those suicides. Remember. You know, we will never know. I mean, Robin Williams, Philip Seymour Hoffman, how many actor Heath Ledger. Right. Discovered with drugs by his bed. Right. Do we.

And, you know, I mentioned that an hour ago when we were talking, but it's really underscored when we talk about things like Tony's death, which, by the way, is one of the things we will look at. It's all those suicides. Remember. You know, we will never know. I mean, Robin Williams, Philip Seymour Hoffman, how many actor Heath Ledger. Right. Discovered with drugs by his bed. Right. Do we.

Matthew Perry. Were those were those acts of people taking their own lives for someone like me? They are because those people knew the behaviors. Right. Could lead to jails, institutions and death. Knew it. Were they doing it consciously? We will never know. Right. Those people died alone. You know, Whitney Houston, same thing. Was it an attempt? Was she trying to take her own life?

Matthew Perry. Were those were those acts of people taking their own lives for someone like me? They are because those people knew the behaviors. Right. Could lead to jails, institutions and death. Knew it. Were they doing it consciously? We will never know. Right. Those people died alone. You know, Whitney Houston, same thing. Was it an attempt? Was she trying to take her own life?

Was or was just simply an overdose? She happened to be in the bathtub. We will never know. But those are things that when I'm specifically mentioning public people, because when I'm talking to other people, I can I can use that because it's a common reference point.

Was or was just simply an overdose? She happened to be in the bathtub. We will never know. But those are things that when I'm specifically mentioning public people, because when I'm talking to other people, I can I can use that because it's a common reference point.

Again, not fetishizing, trying to use it to help other people to point out that we don't know what's going on in those moments when you're alone. It is reaching out and asking for help rather than keeping all those things stuff down. That's going to wind up saving lives.

Again, not fetishizing, trying to use it to help other people to point out that we don't know what's going on in those moments when you're alone. It is reaching out and asking for help rather than keeping all those things stuff down. That's going to wind up saving lives.

Oh, well, I appreciate that. Thank you. I appreciate the platform to be able to talk about it. You know, I truly believe that the more, you know, sunshine that we throw in all this stuff, the the fewer problems we're going to have in this area and that society has taught us that looking good is is is something to be prioritized.

Oh, well, I appreciate that. Thank you. I appreciate the platform to be able to talk about it. You know, I truly believe that the more, you know, sunshine that we throw in all this stuff, the the fewer problems we're going to have in this area and that society has taught us that looking good is is is something to be prioritized.

When, in fact, I think being vulnerable is what should be prioritized. We need to make change. being vulnerable something that is a regular part of our lives.

When, in fact, I think being vulnerable is what should be prioritized. We need to make change. being vulnerable something that is a regular part of our lives.