Andrew Hawkins

with dignity for him to address and because of my own experience with my own mental health issues to talk about an aspect of his life that other people could not address because they did not have suicide as a uh event in their own life as a as someone who is a what's the best way to describe it? I'm not recovering from it.

with dignity for him to address and because of my own experience with my own mental health issues to talk about an aspect of his life that other people could not address because they did not have suicide as a uh event in their own life as a as someone who is a what's the best way to describe it? I'm not recovering from it.

It is an act that is no longer an issue for me, but as someone who had those feelings and acted on them and tried to take his own life, I think I had an understanding of what was going on there that other people didn't. So.

It is an act that is no longer an issue for me, but as someone who had those feelings and acted on them and tried to take his own life, I think I had an understanding of what was going on there that other people didn't. So.

Yes and no. So that you're. Yes and no. Yes and no. I heard things come out. I mean, we all hear things come out of friends' mouths where we're like, you really believe that? What? I mean, that's not cool, bro.

Yes and no. So that you're. Yes and no. Yes and no. I heard things come out. I mean, we all hear things come out of friends' mouths where we're like, you really believe that? What? I mean, that's not cool, bro.

And there were aspects of life and relationship that he would express joy or concern about where, you remember I talked before about staying in the center of the lane and not hitting the guardrails, where you see a friend hitting guardrails, but I didn't put it all together. And I should...

And there were aspects of life and relationship that he would express joy or concern about where, you remember I talked before about staying in the center of the lane and not hitting the guardrails, where you see a friend hitting guardrails, but I didn't put it all together. And I should...

I hate to shoot on myself, but I guess a better way to say it is you would think with my background and what I've experienced in my own life that I would have been more aware of the pain that he was in because nobody goes around broadcasting it. We all have that TV commercial idea of depression where the sad music goes on, the camera dims. Maybe it goes to black and white.

I hate to shoot on myself, but I guess a better way to say it is you would think with my background and what I've experienced in my own life that I would have been more aware of the pain that he was in because nobody goes around broadcasting it. We all have that TV commercial idea of depression where the sad music goes on, the camera dims. Maybe it goes to black and white.

And, you know, that's not how life works. That's not how life works. And that's not how depression manifests itself all the time. It's not like the TV commercial. And I, I am so repulsed by it and it makes me so fucking angry to see it that commercial after commercial has the face of suicide. Depression is a 20 something year old woman sitting on the edge of a maid bed and

And, you know, that's not how life works. That's not how life works. And that's not how depression manifests itself all the time. It's not like the TV commercial. And I, I am so repulsed by it and it makes me so fucking angry to see it that commercial after commercial has the face of suicide. Depression is a 20 something year old woman sitting on the edge of a maid bed and

head down with sad music playing because that's not how it manifests itself. That's how a commercial will symbolize it in an effort to get more people to buy that drug, right? Which is really hospitals and doctors. I mean, some people, you know, watch a commercial and go to a doctor and say, can I get this medicine?

head down with sad music playing because that's not how it manifests itself. That's how a commercial will symbolize it in an effort to get more people to buy that drug, right? Which is really hospitals and doctors. I mean, some people, you know, watch a commercial and go to a doctor and say, can I get this medicine?

But very few, you're really trying to sell to a very small audience, but they're going to buy in very large numbers.

But very few, you're really trying to sell to a very small audience, but they're going to buy in very large numbers.

The portrayal of it, which is why I love saying I have all of these issues and I'm a suicide survivor. But you're so happy and successful. I'm like, yes, you can be both. And by the way, I'm in recovery. I am active in my recovery. That's why I'm happy and productive. And it's why I'm joyous and free.

The portrayal of it, which is why I love saying I have all of these issues and I'm a suicide survivor. But you're so happy and successful. I'm like, yes, you can be both. And by the way, I'm in recovery. I am active in my recovery. That's why I'm happy and productive. And it's why I'm joyous and free.

And the minute I cease to be active in my own recovery, I give up that joyfulness and that freedom. But with with Tony, when when he would tell me about the new relationship with the woman or the feeling of not being there for his daughter or issues in his relationship with his daughter's mother and both when they were married and not, there are.

And the minute I cease to be active in my own recovery, I give up that joyfulness and that freedom. But with with Tony, when when he would tell me about the new relationship with the woman or the feeling of not being there for his daughter or issues in his relationship with his daughter's mother and both when they were married and not, there are.