Angie

I couldn't tell my mom because I felt embarrassed and I felt like I would worry her and stress her out while she's in a different country.

So...

I remember I had gotten my wisdom tooth, it was pushing through, and they prescribed me an obscene amount of Percocets.

And when I took them, I was like, oh, this is great.

I was like, he's yelling at me and talking smack and telling me the dishes aren't done or blah, blah, blah.

And I'm like, okay, you know, just, you know, so that's what gave me relief.

Unfortunately, that's what I had to lean on.

You know, I felt like I didn't have anybody else besides the pills.

Yeah.

Oh, boy.

I remember that day clearly because it was snowing outside.

And I remember waking up and feeling like I had a cold and my body hurting and also my chest beating really hard.

and I text my friend because she's like hey what are you doing and I was like I don't feel good my nose is runny I got the chills I feel like I have a cold you know and I feel really anxious and she's the one that said she's like well maybe you're withdrawing and I was like what are you talking about she's like well you've been you know you're withdrawing you know I think you need another pill you'll probably feel better and I was like no there's no way you know I was like

there's no way and then when she put that into my head then I started obsessing on that and I was like oh my god I need it because now my body is like asking for it and then I started getting more anxious because I started obsessing on it so then that triggered that like cycle

I didn't have any.

I didn't have any self-worth.

I felt like I was getting exactly like, oh, my God.

I felt like I was getting exactly what I deserved because I ended up believing him, right?

Believing them.

And unfortunately, our brain does this really weird thing that we stick to the negative more than the positives, right?