Anna Ferguson

Don't let anyone know that this has affected you.

But I mean, it was pretty obvious that it had affected me because I was extremely angry.

Anyone who tried to help was seen as a threat.

Anyone who tried to comfort me, I hated that.

I

I just felt completely disconnected from myself and my family as well, right?

So I didn't have the tools and I also didn't have the language and I didn't have the understanding of like why now my life was so fragmented.

Like, I didn't have the same flexibility that I had before.

Things had to be a certain way or I would get very upset.

But alongside that, because I was feeling disconnected and numb, I also would push the boundaries a lot with my family.

Like, I would sneak out.

I would go out at night.

I would not go to school.

I would do all of these things to kind of feel something and to feel like I did have some control over my life.

Yeah, I mean, surprisingly, I did very, very well at school.

I was always someone that could show up, do the tests and do very well.

And I was always, I guess I kind of used that to my advantage to skate through and not go detected in getting in trouble.

But by the time I was 19, I didn't particularly know what I wanted to do.

I started...

two different uni degrees at that point.