Anna Ferguson

Yeah, yeah.

And so I can't imagine like the fear that she was experiencing and the sense of helplessness watching two of your children go through this.

And my sister and I went in separate ambulances to hospital as well.

So there was that real like you have to go with this child and you have to go with this child.

And, yeah, I remember seeing my mum for the first time and like her look of worry on her face made me realise, okay, this is not good.

And I just remember wanting to like reassure everyone, hey, I'm fine.

It's all good.

I don't know what the fuss is about.

Like, let's go home.

What are we doing here?

I want to go home.

So you weren't in pain physically?

I think my body had protected me from feeling the physical pain.

So I, like I said, I was in that kind of dissociative state of where, and when you dip into that dissociative state, people who go through trauma, whether that's sexual abuse or impact trauma, or even just emotional neglect and things like that can dip into this dissociative state, which essentially pumps you with endogenous opioids and has a

reducing of pain effect on your body.

So I didn't particularly feel anything.

It was more that feeling of not being able to breathe and that feeling of being trapped.

Like I've got to get out of here and I can't.

And my body, I felt very angry at my body.

I was like, you're letting me down here.