Anthony DeVito

I think they're just been at enough time where I'm where I mean, you know, like, you're 18, you're technically an adult, but like, I don't, you're a teenager.

Exactly.

But I think when you hit and even your 20s, I would say so.

But I think when you hit your like, early 30s, mid 30s, and when your friends start having kids, like, sure, there

you're really starting to do adult things outside of just like your one on paper, I think.

And you're self-actualized in a way that you haven't been that you go, okay, I'm ready to take this on now.

I think that's really what it was where I was like, I think I'm emotionally mature to handle whatever is on the other side of the door that comes with this.

And I think doing standup too, where it's like, and especially the way you do standup as well, where it's like, it's super personal, you're super purging everything inside of you, not just as a means of just like being vulnerable to an audience, but also as a means to like process these difficult feelings.

Yeah, a bit of me was that.

And my mom was, my mom is a liar in so many ways.

So there was a part of me that was like, what is real?

What isn't real here?

I think there was always a part, maybe a little part of me that was afraid to look because it was kind of fun to have this unique secret, you know?

Yeah.

And, you know, so I so I think there was a part of me that was like, oh, am I going to be crestfallen when I find out it's not exactly how it seemed?

So at around 30, I Googled him, you know, for and the first thing that popped up was a daily news headline.

And it was like listed.

He was in prison for however many years, the charges that he was in on and then how he died.

Yeah.

And that was the one that I think that combo.