Ari

But it's also like, he was my dog.

So I think I'm holding a grudge over her.

And plus I found out she knew a lot that was going on in the home and just didn't know how to go about it.

She just didn't know how to...

speak up.

And maybe it's because she was raised in an abusive household.

And so that was her norm.

But for me, it's like, I don't understand how you can talk all this game about how you love and care.

And, and that's what I'm saying.

I feel like I need to forgive the older generation and understand more.

But I'm so angry at my mom.

I'm just stuck in, okay, let's just be mad.

Let's just not forgive anybody.

But I know that that affects me in my day to day.

I honestly, I feel like the anger is the last thing I have.

I've moved, I've developed my own life, my own family, my own everything.

And it's like, they are not involved.

They don't talk.

So it's like the only thing I have of them is anger.

And after that, it's like, I don't think I'm fully ready to accept life would hurt a lot less to not have them in your life.