Ari

And I don't want to be around anybody that I feel like I have to...

fix myself for.

This is me.

This is what you got.

This is what you get.

And I feel like that's why I can't speak to my mom.

My siblings ask all the time.

They're like, it's so crazy you're not speaking to mom.

It's crazy how you think it's going to be forever.

And it's like, I don't expect to never see her ever again.

My siblings still all have to get married.

One's engaged, ready.

So it's like, I know we're going to be in the same vicinities, but

if we can't have a conversation about what I want to have a conversation about, we can never move forward.

And I know it's going to hurt my, I know she's going to hurt my feelings.

We cannot have a civilized conversation because she still, till this day, I listen to stories with my siblings and she lacks accountability in the smallest things with them.

So it's like, you're not ready to have a conversation with me.

Yeah, I think I don't know how...

My default setting is silent.

So it's like in my head, I promise you it's not silent.