Ari

And it's like, now that I'm living for myself and now that I have my own ideas and concepts.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Peace, silence, quiet.

All of these things are foreign concepts.

And it's like, I don't... This is the first time I...

don't have a single just like unjustifiable relationship or a single toxic thing happening like everything is peaceful and quiet and i don't know what it's chaotic to me that for me is chaotic right that makes sense and i i feel like it's a very relatable thing for a lot of people

Yeah.

Yeah.

So I'm just trying to get to the place where it's like, I, I'm happy in my peace.

So I want to be always at peace in it.

I don't want to feel like it's chaotic or like it's going to slip from under me.

Cause I feel like that's definitely for me, peace is temporary.

I mean, everything is temporary.

I was literally thought there's nothing that is not temporary.

Everything is.

So for me, it's like, I, not that I'm waiting for the ball to drop because like I said, it's been like a year and a half.

Everything's happy.

Everything's healthy.

But it's like in the back of my head, it's like, is somebody going to pop up?

Is my mom, like what's gonna happen?