Ari

My favorite thing to do is stress.

I know, I need to learn.

I need to learn.

Cause I tried in high school when I first moved out, I tried to get into meditation and I tried to get into that and do all that.

Which is hard.

Yeah, because flight or fight has always been my mode.

I don't know how to not live in a survival type mode.

And I honestly don't know how to navigate love without any pieces of survival in it.

You know what I'm saying?

I think I'm so used to having to do something or having to be something or having to

It doesn't come effortlessly.

So now that it's coming to me effortlessly and people are seeing me, it's like I don't, I'm having a hard time believing it.

You know what I'm saying?

I think I've lost my trust in people now that I don't talk to the people I don't trust.

I don't know if that makes sense.

But it's all about navigating.

And I'm very self-aware.

Thankfully, I feel like that's one thing that living in my head has taught me.

I'm self-aware.

I've thought about everything.