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My sister was in trouble.

And so she was a grade before me.

So it was her sophomore year and it was about to be summertime.

And so my mom, her newest thing was fat camp.

You got to go to fat camp.

You're overweight.

And my sister never was until this day.

She is not.

And we both internalize our eating disorders differently.

She will control it with her calorie intake and I will control it with how long I can feel like I have enough energy and power to sustain not eating.

I feel like there's a power in not eating, and I think it goes back to her and our dynamic with food, honestly.

But...

Me and my sister were both at the same school and she saw me holding hands with the girl I liked at the time.

And in my head, we're both in trouble.

You want to be the lesser in trouble, you're going to out me.

Now, bad way of thinking, but as a kid, we wouldn't want to be in trouble alone.

We would at least want one of the other two siblings to be with us because my mom would be insane.

So I, by the end of the day, I call her on some random girl's phone.

Now we're best friends.

She is my best friend in this world.