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When I was a kid, kid, before I'd met him, again, you don't know any different.

So it was like, looking back now, there were definitely...

times of like the start of like this feeling something's missing like this hole but I didn't know it was like well it's because my old man's not there because he

He left when I was two.

It was so weird to have not met a human and never have any memory or experience of him and then constantly have your entire family.

Like, you're so much like your dad.

You're the spit of him.

Your mannerisms, the way you talk, your personality.

And I just, like, again, it just goes in one ear, out the other.

Looking back now...

my mum was definitely still my mum and was like a maternal figure but I'm kind of realising in this conversation how we used to navigate things

It was and has always been a level playing field.

It's not been like, this is the rules, you need to do this.

Any time she did try to do that, they would be rebelled against at the highest level anyway.

So I'm realizing she probably looked at that and thought, right, well, that's not going to work with him.

And my mom's good at that.

She didn't raise me and my brother the same way.

Attention, I think.

I don't believe I would have wanted to become famous if I didn't have the relationship dynamic with my dad that I do.

I've wanted to be famous since I was eight years old.