Aubrey Marcus

You know, I was in a darkness retreat in 2020, and my dad was still alive, but in the depth of his psychosis. It's been years since we've had contact. I would send him an email every year on his birthday and Christmas and different things, but he would never respond to me. But he appeared to me in the darkness. So in the darkness retreat, it triggers this endogenous DMT release. So I had a...

You know, I was in a darkness retreat in 2020, and my dad was still alive, but in the depth of his psychosis. It's been years since we've had contact. I would send him an email every year on his birthday and Christmas and different things, but he would never respond to me. But he appeared to me in the darkness. So in the darkness retreat, it triggers this endogenous DMT release. So I had a...

You know, I was in a darkness retreat in 2020, and my dad was still alive, but in the depth of his psychosis. It's been years since we've had contact. I would send him an email every year on his birthday and Christmas and different things, but he would never respond to me. But he appeared to me in the darkness. So in the darkness retreat, it triggers this endogenous DMT release. So I had a...

vision there and my father was reading he was right there in the corner of the room of course the room's completely black so this is a vision open-eyed closed-eyed doesn't matter because everything's black anyways and he's there reading a book and i say to him i say dad what are you reading and he says the book of lies i said why are you reading that book dad and he looks back up to me and he says well

vision there and my father was reading he was right there in the corner of the room of course the room's completely black so this is a vision open-eyed closed-eyed doesn't matter because everything's black anyways and he's there reading a book and i say to him i say dad what are you reading and he says the book of lies i said why are you reading that book dad and he looks back up to me and he says well

vision there and my father was reading he was right there in the corner of the room of course the room's completely black so this is a vision open-eyed closed-eyed doesn't matter because everything's black anyways and he's there reading a book and i say to him i say dad what are you reading and he says the book of lies i said why are you reading that book dad and he looks back up to me and he says well

Because I never thought I was enough. I never thought I was worthy of love. So I had to read the book of lies to tell me that I was worthy so I could love myself.

Because I never thought I was enough. I never thought I was worthy of love. So I had to read the book of lies to tell me that I was worthy so I could love myself.

Because I never thought I was enough. I never thought I was worthy of love. So I had to read the book of lies to tell me that I was worthy so I could love myself.

And he closes the book and throws it over his shoulder and says, son, like, know that you're always worthy of love, no matter what you do, no matter what happens, you're always worthy of love and you'll never have to read the book of lies. And I was like, I love you, Dad. It was a profound, profound moment. And it points exactly to what you're saying is that he reached for these voices.

And he closes the book and throws it over his shoulder and says, son, like, know that you're always worthy of love, no matter what you do, no matter what happens, you're always worthy of love and you'll never have to read the book of lies. And I was like, I love you, Dad. It was a profound, profound moment. And it points exactly to what you're saying is that he reached for these voices.

And he closes the book and throws it over his shoulder and says, son, like, know that you're always worthy of love, no matter what you do, no matter what happens, you're always worthy of love and you'll never have to read the book of lies. And I was like, I love you, Dad. It was a profound, profound moment. And it points exactly to what you're saying is that he reached for these voices.

The voices found their opening because he had linked his own self-love to his performance. And when he was no longer able to perform, he was a famous pioneer in commodities trading. But then computers came along and...

The voices found their opening because he had linked his own self-love to his performance. And when he was no longer able to perform, he was a famous pioneer in commodities trading. But then computers came along and...

The voices found their opening because he had linked his own self-love to his performance. And when he was no longer able to perform, he was a famous pioneer in commodities trading. But then computers came along and...

outpaced his own ability to use his one mind against you know other other minds he was able to he had a competitive edge but in the computer world he didn't adapt to be able to meld his minds with computer and big information so he lost his edge and so he was losing So his performance, his love was linked to performance.

outpaced his own ability to use his one mind against you know other other minds he was able to he had a competitive edge but in the computer world he didn't adapt to be able to meld his minds with computer and big information so he lost his edge and so he was losing So his performance, his love was linked to performance.

outpaced his own ability to use his one mind against you know other other minds he was able to he had a competitive edge but in the computer world he didn't adapt to be able to meld his minds with computer and big information so he lost his edge and so he was losing So his performance, his love was linked to performance.

When his performance dropped, his self-love dropped to such a critical level that ultimately he was reaching for something that would give him a new level and a reason to love himself. Because the self-love wasn't a priori. It wasn't before antecedent causality, before everything. Right. You know, it was something that was externally validated. And that was the core of his psychosis.

When his performance dropped, his self-love dropped to such a critical level that ultimately he was reaching for something that would give him a new level and a reason to love himself. Because the self-love wasn't a priori. It wasn't before antecedent causality, before everything. Right. You know, it was something that was externally validated. And that was the core of his psychosis.