Belle Burden

Everything is fine.

And again, I did not say anything back because I thought he's not going to give me anything.

But I did want to say, what are you talking about?

Nothing about this is fine.

This has been an emotional trauma for our family.

Maybe they may have tried to act that way, but I think he really believed that if he said it enough times that everything was fine, that it would be.

Yes.

A friend asked me just to walk like down the driveway.

This is when I felt like I couldn't get out of bed, like a weighted blanket was on top of me.

And I finally did it.

I walked down the driveway and I thought, okay, I can do this.

The fresh air feels good.

The trees feel good to be in nature.

and I went a little bit farther every day, it eventually became an eight mile walk every day.

This was COVID, so we had more time.

And I would go one direction one day in a circle and the other direction the next day.

And as I walked, I would rarely run into anybody or see anybody.

And I would weep as I walked.

And looking back on it, I think that I was literally walking through the pain.

I was feeling every part of it.