Ben Owen

So how could you blame her? I don't. Yeah, I don't blame her at all. In fact, hindsight being 20-20, I wish she hadn't let me move back in. I had no business being around my kids right then at all or her. I didn't deserve to be sleeping in that house that we had worked to pay for together. Yeah. A thousand things could have gone wrong.

Yeah. Yeah. I don't handle guilt well. Never have. I drink at guilt. I always have. And I don't think things were meant to work out to me. Too much damage had been done. And it was a terrifying thing to try to accept that because you start... You start trying to think, how am I going to raise a family with her? With the exception of this 10-month period...

Yeah. Yeah. I don't handle guilt well. Never have. I drink at guilt. I always have. And I don't think things were meant to work out to me. Too much damage had been done. And it was a terrifying thing to try to accept that because you start... You start trying to think, how am I going to raise a family with her? With the exception of this 10-month period...

Yeah. Yeah. I don't handle guilt well. Never have. I drink at guilt. I always have. And I don't think things were meant to work out to me. Too much damage had been done. And it was a terrifying thing to try to accept that because you start... You start trying to think, how am I going to raise a family with her? With the exception of this 10-month period...

All things considered, I've been a pretty stellar dad. You know, outside looking in. You know that that's not true because you've heard all the fucked up stuff that I was doing. But I was still telling myself the lie that I wanted the world to see. And I'm trying to figure out how am I going to raise these kids in a broken home now? What's going to happen with my cases?

All things considered, I've been a pretty stellar dad. You know, outside looking in. You know that that's not true because you've heard all the fucked up stuff that I was doing. But I was still telling myself the lie that I wanted the world to see. And I'm trying to figure out how am I going to raise these kids in a broken home now? What's going to happen with my cases?

All things considered, I've been a pretty stellar dad. You know, outside looking in. You know that that's not true because you've heard all the fucked up stuff that I was doing. But I was still telling myself the lie that I wanted the world to see. And I'm trying to figure out how am I going to raise these kids in a broken home now? What's going to happen with my cases?

I was looking at a lot of prison time if I fucked up drug court. And, uh, and so much damage had been done to the relationship with Aaron and I, and, uh, I just, I don't think there was any fixing it. I don't think there was. What happened? I moved out in February and, uh, I think it was February. Stayed clean. I was working a program, got a sponsor, started working steps.

I was looking at a lot of prison time if I fucked up drug court. And, uh, and so much damage had been done to the relationship with Aaron and I, and, uh, I just, I don't think there was any fixing it. I don't think there was. What happened? I moved out in February and, uh, I think it was February. Stayed clean. I was working a program, got a sponsor, started working steps.

I was looking at a lot of prison time if I fucked up drug court. And, uh, and so much damage had been done to the relationship with Aaron and I, and, uh, I just, I don't think there was any fixing it. I don't think there was. What happened? I moved out in February and, uh, I think it was February. Stayed clean. I was working a program, got a sponsor, started working steps.

I was taking recovery seriously, like very seriously. So you weren't drinking? No. Well, so drug court, from the day I signed to drug court, they drug test you randomly. And one of the tests they do now is called an ethanol glucuronide test that tests for alcohol metabolites going back 80 hours.

I was taking recovery seriously, like very seriously. So you weren't drinking? No. Well, so drug court, from the day I signed to drug court, they drug test you randomly. And one of the tests they do now is called an ethanol glucuronide test that tests for alcohol metabolites going back 80 hours.

I was taking recovery seriously, like very seriously. So you weren't drinking? No. Well, so drug court, from the day I signed to drug court, they drug test you randomly. And one of the tests they do now is called an ethanol glucuronide test that tests for alcohol metabolites going back 80 hours.

And thank God they do because if they weren't doing that, I'd have been drinking like a motherfucker thinking I'm going to cheat the test, you know? So yeah, I stayed sober from November. God, almost until the next November. A whole lot happened in that gap.

And thank God they do because if they weren't doing that, I'd have been drinking like a motherfucker thinking I'm going to cheat the test, you know? So yeah, I stayed sober from November. God, almost until the next November. A whole lot happened in that gap.

And thank God they do because if they weren't doing that, I'd have been drinking like a motherfucker thinking I'm going to cheat the test, you know? So yeah, I stayed sober from November. God, almost until the next November. A whole lot happened in that gap.

Aaron left with the kids. Aaron left with the kids. This is like the end of 2014. We decided to reconcile.

Aaron left with the kids. Aaron left with the kids. This is like the end of 2014. We decided to reconcile.

Aaron left with the kids. Aaron left with the kids. This is like the end of 2014. We decided to reconcile.

You left. I left. And I think it was February, March. I just realized that Well, I've been trying to avoid this because I don't want to put my business out there, but it's unavoidable. So Erin had an affair, right? And I knew this when I moved back in in December, and it happened while I was in jail. And if I'm being completely honest, I can't blame her. I mean, I ran her life into the ground.