Betty Guadagno

And so I thought, oh, okay, well, I must've died and now I'm in hell.

And at the time I was a militant atheist.

So I didn't think that anything happens when you die.

But in this, you know, this particular scene in my experience, I was like, oh, okay, well, hell is real and I'm in it and that's it.

And then I started to hear this voice and it became really clear to me really fast that it was my dad.

And he just kept chanting, you are worthy of all the love in the universe.

You are worthy of all the love in the universe.

And I didn't believe that sentence, but I trusted his voice.

And so I followed it and I started to fall into the light.

That's what it felt like.

It felt like I was just tumbling this free fall into...

unconditional love, peace, serenity, safety, security.

Every feeling that I had been chasing my whole life with drugs, just like that feeling of connection that I was looking for with my addiction, I was feeling it in this light experience.

And then my light experience started to transform into a different kind of scene.

And it looked like I was on the deck of a spaceship.

I don't have any better language for it.

It actually looked just like the Gravitron ride from Carnival.

It's not like the spinny disc that like you throw yourself against the wall like a bad sticker and like you can flip upside down.

So it felt like I came out of the side of one of those walls.

And then I was standing around thousands of other souls.