Biet Simkin

Like I tripped on MDMA when I was 20 or so. And I remember I was in a nightclub in New York City and I looked at the wallpaper and it was pretty empty. It was like a very mellow party, like one of those where there was like 100 people in a very large space. And I was looking at the wallpaper on the wall and I turned to the wall and I said, why didn't you tell me that we were one?

Like I tripped on MDMA when I was 20 or so. And I remember I was in a nightclub in New York City and I looked at the wallpaper and it was pretty empty. It was like a very mellow party, like one of those where there was like 100 people in a very large space. And I was looking at the wallpaper on the wall and I turned to the wall and I said, why didn't you tell me that we were one?

Like I tripped on MDMA when I was 20 or so. And I remember I was in a nightclub in New York City and I looked at the wallpaper and it was pretty empty. It was like a very mellow party, like one of those where there was like 100 people in a very large space. And I was looking at the wallpaper on the wall and I turned to the wall and I said, why didn't you tell me that we were one?

Why didn't you tell me? And I don't think I had the capacity to weep at that moment because I was on MDMA, but I was weeping in a sense. And what I feel today on an average Tuesday or Thursday, which is similar to what I experienced on MDMA when I was 20, was a feeling of complete relief. Just thank God. I can't believe we're one, me and this wall. Why did they keep this from me?

Why didn't you tell me? And I don't think I had the capacity to weep at that moment because I was on MDMA, but I was weeping in a sense. And what I feel today on an average Tuesday or Thursday, which is similar to what I experienced on MDMA when I was 20, was a feeling of complete relief. Just thank God. I can't believe we're one, me and this wall. Why did they keep this from me?

Why didn't you tell me? And I don't think I had the capacity to weep at that moment because I was on MDMA, but I was weeping in a sense. And what I feel today on an average Tuesday or Thursday, which is similar to what I experienced on MDMA when I was 20, was a feeling of complete relief. Just thank God. I can't believe we're one, me and this wall. Why did they keep this from me?

And so I felt a prisoner in this world was filled with this illusion that we are all separate, that we are alone, that we have to fight to prove our specialness and all this bullshit. And I understood the spiritual tenets, but they didn't make sense to me in the light of the pain that I was experiencing. And I was an embodiment of these truths, and yet I could not experience the pleasure.

And so I felt a prisoner in this world was filled with this illusion that we are all separate, that we are alone, that we have to fight to prove our specialness and all this bullshit. And I understood the spiritual tenets, but they didn't make sense to me in the light of the pain that I was experiencing. And I was an embodiment of these truths, and yet I could not experience the pleasure.

And so I felt a prisoner in this world was filled with this illusion that we are all separate, that we are alone, that we have to fight to prove our specialness and all this bullshit. And I understood the spiritual tenets, but they didn't make sense to me in the light of the pain that I was experiencing. And I was an embodiment of these truths, and yet I could not experience the pleasure.

Of this union at all times, even when the MDMA ran out, which it will five hours later, I was in a hysteria in an apartment in Chelsea being like, what the God, you're going to send me back to duality. You're going to send me back to where I'm separate from everyone, where I'm all alone. I don't want to go back. And so I spent so much of my youth just wanting to be back.

Of this union at all times, even when the MDMA ran out, which it will five hours later, I was in a hysteria in an apartment in Chelsea being like, what the God, you're going to send me back to duality. You're going to send me back to where I'm separate from everyone, where I'm all alone. I don't want to go back. And so I spent so much of my youth just wanting to be back.

Of this union at all times, even when the MDMA ran out, which it will five hours later, I was in a hysteria in an apartment in Chelsea being like, what the God, you're going to send me back to duality. You're going to send me back to where I'm separate from everyone, where I'm all alone. I don't want to go back. And so I spent so much of my youth just wanting to be back.

Just I just wanted to be back in that state. I'm so thirsty for that state.

Just I just wanted to be back in that state. I'm so thirsty for that state.

Just I just wanted to be back in that state. I'm so thirsty for that state.

read you described your addiction not as a response to pain but as an addiction to intensity can you explain that i think i just have an allergy to being separated from the world of god which is again i'm not religious but like to me the world of god is the quantum field where we are all one and i cannot stand to be apart from that so I'll do anything to be a part of that.

read you described your addiction not as a response to pain but as an addiction to intensity can you explain that i think i just have an allergy to being separated from the world of god which is again i'm not religious but like to me the world of god is the quantum field where we are all one and i cannot stand to be apart from that so I'll do anything to be a part of that.

read you described your addiction not as a response to pain but as an addiction to intensity can you explain that i think i just have an allergy to being separated from the world of god which is again i'm not religious but like to me the world of god is the quantum field where we are all one and i cannot stand to be apart from that so I'll do anything to be a part of that.

And I have a very low tolerance for being separated from it, which by the way, you can't be separated from it, but I can feel like I'm separated from it when I'm judging myself or when I'm judging you or when I'm being afraid. Have you ever been like walking down the street and you're having a bad day? Like you're just edgy and annoyed and not feeling your best. And then you see someone, you know,

And I have a very low tolerance for being separated from it, which by the way, you can't be separated from it, but I can feel like I'm separated from it when I'm judging myself or when I'm judging you or when I'm being afraid. Have you ever been like walking down the street and you're having a bad day? Like you're just edgy and annoyed and not feeling your best. And then you see someone, you know,