Blake Cook

And then the whole 30, 40-minute drive home, me and my brother didn't talk. We got back to my mom's house and everybody was already in bed at this point. And man, I drank all night. I cried my eyes out. I went on his Facebook page, found photos of when we were younger. I just lost it. I had a mental breakdown. That's the first time I ever saw him high. And that was the start of my downfall.

That was it. That's what set the tone for the next several years of my life and what I was about to go through. So no, I have forgiven him once. And I almost died from somebody else's drug addiction. I almost lost my family because of somebody else's drug addiction. And I refuse forgiveness. to lose my family or take my life from depression or die from somebody else's drug addiction.

That was it. That's what set the tone for the next several years of my life and what I was about to go through. So no, I have forgiven him once. And I almost died from somebody else's drug addiction. I almost lost my family because of somebody else's drug addiction. And I refuse forgiveness. to lose my family or take my life from depression or die from somebody else's drug addiction.

That was it. That's what set the tone for the next several years of my life and what I was about to go through. So no, I have forgiven him once. And I almost died from somebody else's drug addiction. I almost lost my family because of somebody else's drug addiction. And I refuse forgiveness. to lose my family or take my life from depression or die from somebody else's drug addiction.

I won't let it happen. I won't let it happen. Y'all got me once. Y'all got me twice. But never again. No, no, no, no. Your toxicity that you bring to the table, my childhood that you brought to the table, I'm not gonna let it flow into my family. I'm gonna protect my family. And my wife is so sweet, Sean. She tries and, you know, because she saw my dad before he was on drugs.

I won't let it happen. I won't let it happen. Y'all got me once. Y'all got me twice. But never again. No, no, no, no. Your toxicity that you bring to the table, my childhood that you brought to the table, I'm not gonna let it flow into my family. I'm gonna protect my family. And my wife is so sweet, Sean. She tries and, you know, because she saw my dad before he was on drugs.

I won't let it happen. I won't let it happen. Y'all got me once. Y'all got me twice. But never again. No, no, no, no. Your toxicity that you bring to the table, my childhood that you brought to the table, I'm not gonna let it flow into my family. I'm gonna protect my family. And my wife is so sweet, Sean. She tries and, you know, because she saw my dad before he was on drugs.

We got married in the beginning of 2012. And we only knew each other for like 30 days. We've been married almost 13 years. And we'll get to that. That's a whole other story. But, you know, she has always tried to, because she remembers him, right? She remembers who Jim Cook was before drugs, right? I mean, and, but now it's like, I don't even remember who that person was. I don't remember.

We got married in the beginning of 2012. And we only knew each other for like 30 days. We've been married almost 13 years. And we'll get to that. That's a whole other story. But, you know, she has always tried to, because she remembers him, right? She remembers who Jim Cook was before drugs, right? I mean, and, but now it's like, I don't even remember who that person was. I don't remember.

We got married in the beginning of 2012. And we only knew each other for like 30 days. We've been married almost 13 years. And we'll get to that. That's a whole other story. But, you know, she has always tried to, because she remembers him, right? She remembers who Jim Cook was before drugs, right? I mean, and, but now it's like, I don't even remember who that person was. I don't remember.

I don't remember who he was because his addiction has been so bad on me, it's hard for me to even see the good anymore.

I don't remember who he was because his addiction has been so bad on me, it's hard for me to even see the good anymore.

I don't remember who he was because his addiction has been so bad on me, it's hard for me to even see the good anymore.

Sean, I don't think so.

Sean, I don't think so.

Sean, I don't think so.

And I am finding it, right, because... If I'm going to say that I'm a Christian, I need to act like a Christian. And it's hard. But parts of me is trying. And we'll get to the parts of why that I am the way that I am right now in this moment. And you're gonna be like, wow, I kind of understand. Because... I tried so hard.

And I am finding it, right, because... If I'm going to say that I'm a Christian, I need to act like a Christian. And it's hard. But parts of me is trying. And we'll get to the parts of why that I am the way that I am right now in this moment. And you're gonna be like, wow, I kind of understand. Because... I tried so hard.

And I am finding it, right, because... If I'm going to say that I'm a Christian, I need to act like a Christian. And it's hard. But parts of me is trying. And we'll get to the parts of why that I am the way that I am right now in this moment. And you're gonna be like, wow, I kind of understand. Because... I tried so hard.

And that's what I need to work on because, again, I want to be free of somebody else's addiction. Because if I don't forgive him, then I'm addicted to hate towards him, like he's addicted to drugs. And until I can forgive him, I can let that go. You know, and you're right, man. I thought I forgave him, but I don't feel it now that I'm talking about it.