Blake Cook

And that's what I need to work on because, again, I want to be free of somebody else's addiction. Because if I don't forgive him, then I'm addicted to hate towards him, like he's addicted to drugs. And until I can forgive him, I can let that go. You know, and you're right, man. I thought I forgave him, but I don't feel it now that I'm talking about it.

And that's what I need to work on because, again, I want to be free of somebody else's addiction. Because if I don't forgive him, then I'm addicted to hate towards him, like he's addicted to drugs. And until I can forgive him, I can let that go. You know, and you're right, man. I thought I forgave him, but I don't feel it now that I'm talking about it.

I don't feel that I truly, I might have told people, yeah, I forgive him, but now that I'm here in this moment and we're talking about it, because I don't really talk about it often. I'll be honest with you, I don't talk about it at all. I don't talk about it with my wife. My wife brings it up, I immediately go to shutdown mode.

I don't feel that I truly, I might have told people, yeah, I forgive him, but now that I'm here in this moment and we're talking about it, because I don't really talk about it often. I'll be honest with you, I don't talk about it at all. I don't talk about it with my wife. My wife brings it up, I immediately go to shutdown mode.

I don't feel that I truly, I might have told people, yeah, I forgive him, but now that I'm here in this moment and we're talking about it, because I don't really talk about it often. I'll be honest with you, I don't talk about it at all. I don't talk about it with my wife. My wife brings it up, I immediately go to shutdown mode.

I would rather be angry and start an argument and piss her off than to have her try to talk about it.

I would rather be angry and start an argument and piss her off than to have her try to talk about it.

I would rather be angry and start an argument and piss her off than to have her try to talk about it.

I think a part of me is I just love him. And I hate that my niece doesn't get to experience a grandfather. I hate that my son doesn't get to experience that.

I think a part of me is I just love him. And I hate that my niece doesn't get to experience a grandfather. I hate that my son doesn't get to experience that.

I think a part of me is I just love him. And I hate that my niece doesn't get to experience a grandfather. I hate that my son doesn't get to experience that.

And I spent my whole adult career fighting evil and fighting drugs, only to lose him to drugs. You know, that's hard. I have voicemails of when he was trying to do better. Hey, son, I just want to hear from you. I'm trying. And I just sent him a voicemail, you know? And so I have a lot of guilt for that, dude. Like, I just, maybe I could have done better. Maybe I failed him.

And I spent my whole adult career fighting evil and fighting drugs, only to lose him to drugs. You know, that's hard. I have voicemails of when he was trying to do better. Hey, son, I just want to hear from you. I'm trying. And I just sent him a voicemail, you know? And so I have a lot of guilt for that, dude. Like, I just, maybe I could have done better. Maybe I failed him.

And I spent my whole adult career fighting evil and fighting drugs, only to lose him to drugs. You know, that's hard. I have voicemails of when he was trying to do better. Hey, son, I just want to hear from you. I'm trying. And I just sent him a voicemail, you know? And so I have a lot of guilt for that, dude. Like, I just, maybe I could have done better. Maybe I failed him.

Maybe he did addiction because I failed him. You know, maybe he's addicted because I wasn't there for him or I didn't say thank you. I didn't give him what he was looking for. You know, that's a tough pill to swallow. And it eats me every day. Because I do, man, I'm missing. Used to call me a shadow boy. There's no shadow anymore. And man, that fucking hurts. It hurts.

Maybe he did addiction because I failed him. You know, maybe he's addicted because I wasn't there for him or I didn't say thank you. I didn't give him what he was looking for. You know, that's a tough pill to swallow. And it eats me every day. Because I do, man, I'm missing. Used to call me a shadow boy. There's no shadow anymore. And man, that fucking hurts. It hurts.

Maybe he did addiction because I failed him. You know, maybe he's addicted because I wasn't there for him or I didn't say thank you. I didn't give him what he was looking for. You know, that's a tough pill to swallow. And it eats me every day. Because I do, man, I'm missing. Used to call me a shadow boy. There's no shadow anymore. And man, that fucking hurts. It hurts.

I'm 35 years old, man, and the little boy inside of me still misses, you know, misses his dad. When everybody else gave up, I still tried. Man, I got burned. I got burned. I almost lost everything. So I'm trying. I really am. Maybe I need to go to therapy. Don't give up, man. I'm not. I'm not. I just need to take a break and realize that I can't fix everything right now.

I'm 35 years old, man, and the little boy inside of me still misses, you know, misses his dad. When everybody else gave up, I still tried. Man, I got burned. I got burned. I almost lost everything. So I'm trying. I really am. Maybe I need to go to therapy. Don't give up, man. I'm not. I'm not. I just need to take a break and realize that I can't fix everything right now.

I'm 35 years old, man, and the little boy inside of me still misses, you know, misses his dad. When everybody else gave up, I still tried. Man, I got burned. I got burned. I almost lost everything. So I'm trying. I really am. Maybe I need to go to therapy. Don't give up, man. I'm not. I'm not. I just need to take a break and realize that I can't fix everything right now.