Blake Cook

He understands that I have some trauma and he does a great job at keeping me happy and keeping me active. He's a major part of who I am now, but I'm going to talk to him about it because I think he needs to hear it from me first, rather than hearing it on a podcast as a family. We're going to talk about it and we're going to talk about this is what happened. This is why it happened.

This is why I was upset. And he's so smart and understanding that I know that he's going to understand because he's just like that. He's just a phenomenal person, and he's understanding. And I don't think it's going to be, you know, is it something that I did? That was my biggest worry was, you know, was it me and mom, you know? But no, man, it was just me, my own demons, right?

This is why I was upset. And he's so smart and understanding that I know that he's going to understand because he's just like that. He's just a phenomenal person, and he's understanding. And I don't think it's going to be, you know, is it something that I did? That was my biggest worry was, you know, was it me and mom, you know? But no, man, it was just me, my own demons, right?

This is why I was upset. And he's so smart and understanding that I know that he's going to understand because he's just like that. He's just a phenomenal person, and he's understanding. And I don't think it's going to be, you know, is it something that I did? That was my biggest worry was, you know, was it me and mom, you know? But no, man, it was just me, my own demons, right?

Trying to save somebody that didn't want to be saved was hard. And then failing at that when you thought that you could. And he understands that we used to call him Papa Jim, my dad. He hasn't seen him in years, since 2018. Well, he saw him two years ago. We were back home. And we met with my dad at a state park at a little restaurant. And my dad was like shaking and it looked horrible.

Trying to save somebody that didn't want to be saved was hard. And then failing at that when you thought that you could. And he understands that we used to call him Papa Jim, my dad. He hasn't seen him in years, since 2018. Well, he saw him two years ago. We were back home. And we met with my dad at a state park at a little restaurant. And my dad was like shaking and it looked horrible.

Trying to save somebody that didn't want to be saved was hard. And then failing at that when you thought that you could. And he understands that we used to call him Papa Jim, my dad. He hasn't seen him in years, since 2018. Well, he saw him two years ago. We were back home. And we met with my dad at a state park at a little restaurant. And my dad was like shaking and it looked horrible.

And we had a long drive home and we explained it. And I told him that I'm not going to expose him to Paw Paw Jam anymore to protect him. And he understood. He was a little kind of scared why he was like that. And I was like, well, he's on drugs. He was 15, man. I can't hide that from you. He's on drugs. Because you could just tell he's on drugs. I mean, scabs, shaking mouth, doing all the things.

And we had a long drive home and we explained it. And I told him that I'm not going to expose him to Paw Paw Jam anymore to protect him. And he understood. He was a little kind of scared why he was like that. And I was like, well, he's on drugs. He was 15, man. I can't hide that from you. He's on drugs. Because you could just tell he's on drugs. I mean, scabs, shaking mouth, doing all the things.

And we had a long drive home and we explained it. And I told him that I'm not going to expose him to Paw Paw Jam anymore to protect him. And he understood. He was a little kind of scared why he was like that. And I was like, well, he's on drugs. He was 15, man. I can't hide that from you. He's on drugs. Because you could just tell he's on drugs. I mean, scabs, shaking mouth, doing all the things.

You could just tell. So we had a long conversation that whole day about that. And he agreed that he doesn't want to see that no more.

You could just tell. So we had a long conversation that whole day about that. And he agreed that he doesn't want to see that no more.

You could just tell. So we had a long conversation that whole day about that. And he agreed that he doesn't want to see that no more.

I am scared of those, what those questions are going to be. But I'm going to answer them with honesty. It's out. I'm not going to hide anything or try to make it sound better. It's out. Maybe he can take something away from this that, you know, one, that God is good. That don't ever give up on life. Don't ever give up on yourself. And don't ever run when things get hard.

I am scared of those, what those questions are going to be. But I'm going to answer them with honesty. It's out. I'm not going to hide anything or try to make it sound better. It's out. Maybe he can take something away from this that, you know, one, that God is good. That don't ever give up on life. Don't ever give up on yourself. And don't ever run when things get hard.

I am scared of those, what those questions are going to be. But I'm going to answer them with honesty. It's out. I'm not going to hide anything or try to make it sound better. It's out. Maybe he can take something away from this that, you know, one, that God is good. That don't ever give up on life. Don't ever give up on yourself. And don't ever run when things get hard.

Because now he sees positive growth. He sees what we're doing now. He's already seen me at my worst. But I didn't give up by the grace of God. And things get better. Life is hard, but things always get better. At the end of every rainstorm, the sun comes out. You just gotta bear through the storm. And I hope that's what he learns from this. But he's gonna ask some tough questions.

Because now he sees positive growth. He sees what we're doing now. He's already seen me at my worst. But I didn't give up by the grace of God. And things get better. Life is hard, but things always get better. At the end of every rainstorm, the sun comes out. You just gotta bear through the storm. And I hope that's what he learns from this. But he's gonna ask some tough questions.

Because now he sees positive growth. He sees what we're doing now. He's already seen me at my worst. But I didn't give up by the grace of God. And things get better. Life is hard, but things always get better. At the end of every rainstorm, the sun comes out. You just gotta bear through the storm. And I hope that's what he learns from this. But he's gonna ask some tough questions.

First time I've ever talked about it other than with my wife and Kyle and Kyle's wife, Erica. So a lot of my followers on Instagram have an understanding of what I've been through, but they don't have a true understanding because everything you post online can be made to look a little better, right? So, but you know, if you put yourself out there