Bozoma Saint John

I don't even know what I'm going to say. I didn't even start thinking about it. And then I got afraid. I was like, what if I say the wrong thing? There's so much expectation. Like, I don't know what I'm going to do. I was worried about my outfit. Forgot what I was going to say. And then after I was done saying what I wanted to say, I fell out. exhausted, completely drained.

I don't even know what I'm going to say. I didn't even start thinking about it. And then I got afraid. I was like, what if I say the wrong thing? There's so much expectation. Like, I don't know what I'm going to do. I was worried about my outfit. Forgot what I was going to say. And then after I was done saying what I wanted to say, I fell out. exhausted, completely drained.

I don't even know what I'm going to say. I didn't even start thinking about it. And then I got afraid. I was like, what if I say the wrong thing? There's so much expectation. Like, I don't know what I'm going to do. I was worried about my outfit. Forgot what I was going to say. And then after I was done saying what I wanted to say, I fell out. exhausted, completely drained.

And so I continuously think about that too when we're, you know, I think about like the corporate settings or these business settings where it's like, it takes so much energy to show up, to say the thing bravely, to go back outside of that space and still continue without laying down and taking a break. You got to do that day after day after day after day.

And so I continuously think about that too when we're, you know, I think about like the corporate settings or these business settings where it's like, it takes so much energy to show up, to say the thing bravely, to go back outside of that space and still continue without laying down and taking a break. You got to do that day after day after day after day.

And so I continuously think about that too when we're, you know, I think about like the corporate settings or these business settings where it's like, it takes so much energy to show up, to say the thing bravely, to go back outside of that space and still continue without laying down and taking a break. You got to do that day after day after day after day.

It is a miracle that we're still able to do this. Look, I had to give myself a pep talk the other day. I looked at myself in the mirror and I was like, girl, you are just a miracle. You are a miracle. Like the fact that you are where you are, from where you came from, Withstanding what you've been through, it is a miracle that you're here smiling with that clear-ass melanin skin of yours.

It is a miracle that we're still able to do this. Look, I had to give myself a pep talk the other day. I looked at myself in the mirror and I was like, girl, you are just a miracle. You are a miracle. Like the fact that you are where you are, from where you came from, Withstanding what you've been through, it is a miracle that you're here smiling with that clear-ass melanin skin of yours.

It is a miracle that we're still able to do this. Look, I had to give myself a pep talk the other day. I looked at myself in the mirror and I was like, girl, you are just a miracle. You are a miracle. Like the fact that you are where you are, from where you came from, Withstanding what you've been through, it is a miracle that you're here smiling with that clear-ass melanin skin of yours.

Looking as good as you do. Having a happy spirit. Raising an incredible daughter. Being an awesome friend. You're a miracle. So go ahead. Keep your head up.

Looking as good as you do. Having a happy spirit. Raising an incredible daughter. Being an awesome friend. You're a miracle. So go ahead. Keep your head up.

Looking as good as you do. Having a happy spirit. Raising an incredible daughter. Being an awesome friend. You're a miracle. So go ahead. Keep your head up.

Oh, Lael. I don't even know where to start with that, you know? Because Lael is my rainbow baby. I lost a daughter before Lael, Eve. My first. And I lost her the day she was born, which was just devastating and crushing. That's to put it mildly. And three months after I lost Eve, I was like, I want to have another baby. I want to be pregnant. My doctor was like, are you out of your mind? Yeah.

Oh, Lael. I don't even know where to start with that, you know? Because Lael is my rainbow baby. I lost a daughter before Lael, Eve. My first. And I lost her the day she was born, which was just devastating and crushing. That's to put it mildly. And three months after I lost Eve, I was like, I want to have another baby. I want to be pregnant. My doctor was like, are you out of your mind? Yeah.

Oh, Lael. I don't even know where to start with that, you know? Because Lael is my rainbow baby. I lost a daughter before Lael, Eve. My first. And I lost her the day she was born, which was just devastating and crushing. That's to put it mildly. And three months after I lost Eve, I was like, I want to have another baby. I want to be pregnant. My doctor was like, are you out of your mind? Yeah.

Sit your ass down and let your body heal. And I was like, no, I'm determined. No, this is what I want. This is what I want. And the thing is that like, maybe looking back now is again, maybe reaction to trauma, right? Feeling like, Ooh, I was, I was supposed to be a mom and then I'm not a mom. So now I got to be a mom. I'm going to do everything in my power to do that.

Sit your ass down and let your body heal. And I was like, no, I'm determined. No, this is what I want. This is what I want. And the thing is that like, maybe looking back now is again, maybe reaction to trauma, right? Feeling like, Ooh, I was, I was supposed to be a mom and then I'm not a mom. So now I got to be a mom. I'm going to do everything in my power to do that.

Sit your ass down and let your body heal. And I was like, no, I'm determined. No, this is what I want. This is what I want. And the thing is that like, maybe looking back now is again, maybe reaction to trauma, right? Feeling like, Ooh, I was, I was supposed to be a mom and then I'm not a mom. So now I got to be a mom. I'm going to do everything in my power to do that.

As soon as I got pregnant, I was terrified. Like sheer, I'm talking about like sheer terror. Trying to think of every way to get out. Like, okay, I made a mistake again. Like I made a mistake. It's my fault. I wasn't supposed to do this. I don't know why I did it. Okay. But I held on and held on and held on. Lael was born two and a half months early. And I prayed every single day of my pregnancy.

As soon as I got pregnant, I was terrified. Like sheer, I'm talking about like sheer terror. Trying to think of every way to get out. Like, okay, I made a mistake again. Like I made a mistake. It's my fault. I wasn't supposed to do this. I don't know why I did it. Okay. But I held on and held on and held on. Lael was born two and a half months early. And I prayed every single day of my pregnancy.